Xi Zan had rarely called me in the name and questioned me so coldly like this. No matter what mistakes I made, he had never blamed me. I even once had such a delusion that he was a man with no joys nor sorrows.
But I forgot that he was a mortal.
Mortals could never be free from emotions, such as joy, fury, sadness and so on.
I could feel how sad he was because of what I had done to him, and I felt utterly sorry for him. Despite of my physical health, I wanted to hug his strong waist. But as I was about to reach out, Xi Zhan turned around and went back to the desk, concentrating on writing characters after picking up the pen.
I wanted to say something to break the silence between us, but Xi Zhan spoke before I could make a sound. "You risked your life for the babies, so I don't have the qualification to keep them. If you want to see them, contact assistant Yin."
I couldn't believe that he was giving the babies back to me easily!