To Keep My Closest Ones Close (part 3)

We arrived at my house after the long walk. Upon arrival, Nico bade farewell and walked home after a tight hug. After seeing him off, I quickly rushed inside with my head down and nothing was able to stop me.

Mom noticed the sad expression I'm wearing, but she couldn't stop me fast enough because I was rushing to my bedroom so quickly.

Right after I entered my bedroom, I locked the door behind me and quickly jumped to the bed with my shoes on. I didn't bother taking them off and just hugged the pillow so tightly with my monstrous strength.

And right there… I finally let go.

All the pent up emotions that I can't show Nico, I finally let go on the bed.

How… can he do this to me?

When my situation is currently at its worst, when nothing has been going my way at all, when the entire world is a menace towards me…

How can you join them and leave me too?

How can you even consider… leaving me alone like this?