I’m Losing My Mind!

Luna, have you texted Lucas since last night?" she asked me

"No, I'm planning on it though." I said

"Well don't." she responded

"Wait, why?" I questioned

"Luna, listen to me. If you continue hanging out with Lucas you're putting yourself at greater risk. In order to protect yourself you need to cut things off with Lucas." she explained

Deep down inside I knew she was right but I wanted to rebel so badly.

"Are you sure you're not just saying this because you want me to die alone too?" I asked bitchly

"Luna, you know that's not true." she stated

I just nodded my head.

"I hope you know I didn't want this for you but I stayed up late racking my brain and this is the best option I could come up with." she

My heart is breaking. I am not ready to break up with him.

"Alright if you're sure." I said

"I am." she responded

I got on my phone and had a whole text typed up but I read it and I didn't want to be the kind of girl to break up with someone on text. I decided to go against my anxiety and just call him up. Luckily for me he picked up right away.

"Hey Luna I'm glad you called me." he said

"Why?" I asked biting my nails

"Because I was afraid of how you would react to what Bella did last night. She knows that's not okay for how she acted." he mumbled

"It's alright." I responded

"Good, I'm so glad." he added

"Yep." I uttered

"Hey Luna what's wrong you don't seem like yourself." he admitted

I didn't know what to do. So I just kept talking without really thinking at all.

"Nothing's wrong…. babe I'm just focused. I have something planned for us tonight." I stuttered

"Oh that sounds good. What is it?" he urged

"It's for me to know and for you to find out later." I said playing it off cool

"Alright, guess I'll just have to wait." he chuckled nervously

I laughed with him for a little bit then immediately hung up on him. What had I just done? I clearly wasn't even thinking. All I know is that I'm signing myself up for trouble.

Why couldn't I be an angel? Nevermind my mom is an angel and she got with my father. Uhg!!! Why can't I be perfect and just stay out of trouble?