CHAPTER 106 FEELING LIFE

"Sometimes we all just need to be shown a little kindness."

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"Yes, that's very much a possibility. There is a chance that could happen, but don't you think you are forgetting something huge in this? And don't you think I won't have plans for a worst-case scenario?"

"And what might it be?" asked Esdeath, eager to know more.

"Well, if that happens, then let's just say even once even the strongest devil was once an Angel, the Light Bringer," Jin answered with a grin on his face.

"You don't mean it," muttered Esdeath in shock.

"Yes, that's what I mean," Jin said as they soon reached their home.

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[Time Skip]

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Jin POV:

I knocked on the door, but no response was given. I expected it after the failure that Esdeath must have experienced in her powers. Focusing on my powers, I entered inside with force, walking through the living room before reaching the bedroom where I could see a despondent Esdeath sitting on a chair as she kept looking out into the world.

Her military dress was replaced by normal clothes, her long blue hair let loose, and her blue eyes seemingly looking depressed. As I entered, her face turned towards me, her eyes widening, after which she jumped into my embrace.

"Looks like someone missed me," I said with a chuckle as I hugged back the upset Esdeath who was leaning on me for emotional support. Her head rested on my chest, her eyes closed. She didn't respond to my words as she kept hugging me. Seeing this, I didn't tease her any longer as I raised her body, handling her carefully until I reached the bed, placing her on my lap.

We stayed like that for minutes as Esdeath said nothing. She took me for her emotional support, and finally, after what seemed to be half an hour, I spoke.

"I see what happened."

My words caused Esdeath, who was sitting on my lap, to flinch. Her face dug in deeper into my embrace, but I didn't let her do it. I pulled her away from me, and she tried to resist, but in the end, I caught her face in a rough manner, pulling her to look into my eyes. She wasn't disliking it at all. Heck, I could see the lust filling her depressed eyes when I did this.

Our eyes met each other. My hands thus reduced the force I was using, my hand holding her chin becoming loose as I slowly held her cheeks, my eyes turning to one of love as I spoke.

"Are you sad?" I asked.

She didn't respond as she kept her mouth shut. So I asked again, this time stronger and more powerfully.

"Are you sad?" I repeated.

This time, knowing that I was not kidding, Esdeath nodded her head.

"Why?" I asked.

This prompted her to look at me with an angered look, but I wasn't off-put by it.

"Why?"

Again my voice was heard, and this time the angered Esdeath spoke.

"Don't you know!" she exclaimed.

Her fists rose up as they lightly hit my chest. I didn't avoid it as I let Esdeath slowly release all the anger accumulated within her. A minute passed, after which Esdeath finally calmed down. Seeing this, I lifted my hand, and a shine filled it. After which, a vial filled with a blue liquid appeared in my hand. Just as it did by reflex, Esdeath's head turned towards the vial, her eyes fixated.

" I apologize, but I was already vaccinated on my land. '' Esdeath jokes.

" Joke all you want, but what I have here is this, Esdeath. It's the effort of countless hours of research. The work of the two brightest minds under me," I said, showing her the vial.

"This vial contains the purified bloodline of a Frost Giant, spliced with the DNA of an Omega class Ice Beast, a kind of Ice Spirit that commands ice. It'll fully awaken your Frost Blood and give you power beyond your wildest fantasies. With training, you could possibly achieve full Ice Elementalization. That means you can lose any body part while in ice form and grow it back, turn into full liquid and turn back to normal form even when vaporized. You could remake yourself, actual immortality, and even more feats of power. Only you can realize its full extent. And it's further boosted by its spirit core, the Essence Stone, being compressed into this, combined with its blood. The blood, which itself is a beast with a body completely made of ice and with its body's internal temperature being absolute zero," I explained.

Her eyes widened in disbelief. Time seemed to have frozen for Esdeath. She was fully focused on the vial in a daze, and she, like a traveler in the desert finally gaining water, moved towards the vial with great feverish desire filling her eyes. Soon her hands landed on the vial.

And snatched it from my hand, and without even having a single thought, she gulped down the whole thing. Just as she did, a great light flashed from her body, its intent mixing with Esdeath's.

Esdeath's body flashed as it floated above my lap, and so did the cold around me grow so much that the whole room started to freeze. Winds stopped blowing due to the coldness.

The two of them slowly started to bond with each other. Due to her body being nearly immune to cold, the blood started to merge with every cell in her body. As liquid started to enter her brain, giving slim control over her hypothalamus. I gave her space and moved to the living room. My hands took up a bag of chips, drinks, and a book. Hence, slowly time started to pass as I waited for the combination to end.

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Two hours later:

The light covering Esdeath dimmed as Esdeath once again appeared within my gaze. She had some small changes on her. Her body seemed to have developed a little bit more, while the aura around her felt even colder as if touching ice - Cold and ready to freeze. Her blue hair now floated till her knee, making her look more feminine now. Or should I say more of a milf.

Within seconds, she landed back on the bed, which was completely frozen solid just like a whole as a thick 2 m ice was covering the room. She landed in a lotus position as her eyes opened up, meeting mine. Just as they opened up, a cold aura left her body, but it didn't try to hurt me, and a few seconds later, she retracted her aura, which soon became loving and warm. Her eyes were now definitely filled with love as she asked me, "How?"

"Do you think I will let you suffer?" Jin responded with my words, and this brought tears to Esdeath's eyes. She once again jumped into his embrace, her legs wrapping around his waist as her hands held his neck while she spoke, "Thank you!"

Hearing this, Jin smiled as he slowly started to pat Esdeath's back in a calm manner. "Silly, my lover doesn't need to thank me," Jin spoke as he kept patting Esdeath's back, her small tears staining his shirt. His voice was calm and loving as he kept consoling Esdeath, who finally gained a sense of victory after all these days of failure hitting her hard.

'Now she is completely mine.'

With a snap of her finger, all the ice melted away, turning into vapor and evaporating away.

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Esdeath's POV:

Esdeath sat there in silence as she kept gazing into the eyes of H-019, or 'Jin' as he called himself. His hand slowly patting her head as she sat in his lap, her emotions completely on overdrive as her heart kept beating extremely fast as she looked at her lover....

Love....

It wasn't a word that Esdeath ever wanted in her life. She was born in a place where only the strong survive, and to keep the traditions and snarky words at bay, she held onto the life she had been living, doing whatever she could to survive. Though it made her quite uncomfortable in the beginning, she had soon gotten used to it, and before she even knew it, she started to like it, for she was born to be a great person.

To make her stoic father proud, she would become the best, and with her hard work, she slowly gained the ability to be the best. Her life was set, and her family would soon rise to the top of the world once the plans were complete. She, too, would be someone respected in the realms of princes or rulers.

Everything was set for her, and before she even knew it, life took a 360-degree turn. One day, she returned from an outing to find her tribe destroyed, with everyone either dead or dying. Her father was mortally wounded and soon passed away in her arms. From that day on, she vowed to herself to become stronger. Later, she joined the Empire's military, rising through the ranks rapidly, and at some point, the Prime Minister allowed her to choose a Teigu. She noticed one that was chained off from the others, felt that it was calling for her and chose it. Instead of drinking one glass, which would have been enough, she drank the whole thing. After taming the Teigu, Esdeath gained the title of the strongest in the Empire.

After gaining her Teigu, at some point later, she became aware of General Liver's incarceration and freed him. Later, she would be ordered by the Empire to go with Boss and "make an example" of the Ban Tribe that had risen in rebellion against the Empire.

But then, there was a nagging feeling in her mind that she was missing something, a call from her feminine side, wishing to be free. But she suppressed it brutally, and as she did so, her progress kept getting slower and slower, making her fall from the high pedestal that she had placed herself on.

However, she didn't know how to confront it, and her pride disdained her from asking anyone for help. As such, she fell into a rut of a never-ending loop of self-pity and sadness, until she met her love, until she met...

... 'Jin' ...

He was like a typhoon that suddenly entered her life. She, who never had anyone say no to her, she, who never had anyone turn against her, met him, who stood above her to protect her. And when he turned her down, looked at her roughly, 'that' feminine side of hers trembled, seemingly desiring to be let out.

'Jin' seemed to know everything about her. His words about her feminine side made her understand that he knew her well, that he had been watching her for a long time. His words of letting that side of her be free hit her hard as she was suffering and needed to get stronger.

Hence, finally, under her reluctance, she let her feminine side loose.

And she loved every bit of it...

I never knew the beauty of being a woman, the embrace or even the touch of a man, treating my body like a woman, dominating me, to make me submit. I never knew all those pleasures, and 'Jin' was the one who taught her all that.

I could remember the first time, my body completely at his mercy as he played around with it, pleasure like no other embracing me, overriding my mind, until I finally felt like a woman. The rough treatment of his, taking control over my body, everything felt so surreal.

And for the first time, I felt liberated. The pleasure took control of me, to be used, to be looked down upon, and to be roughed up. I never thought the 'feminine' side inside of me wanted this, but reality differed; just as much as I wanted to avoid it, I couldn't.

The rest spoke for itself as my powers that were stagnant started to grow from that day onwards. Out was my pride as I wholeheartedly accepted everything. At first, my pride refused to bend, but the pleasure along with the chance to grow stronger quickly made me surrender.

And thus, I became the slave of the one below me, one who was a living God with a mind like none.

At first, everything was pure pleasure. The withering that filled my body made me feel above the world, to be controlled, to be ordered. This seemed to be the inner calling of my feminine side, hence I went along with it, becoming the 'slave' of his; he became my 'master'.

But somewhere along those blurred lines of pleasure, a change started to happen in my heart. I, who was only used to being on my own, started to find the addictive pleasure of having someone to lean on, something that, once felt, cannot be given up.

Slowly but surely, I started to open up to my 'master', to 'Jin'. As such, the heart of a woman that I never knew about started to beat faster for another reason than pleasure. Whenever he pleasured or ordered me, another feeling of the heart started to fill me.

Whenever it was lonely or whenever I was tired or sad, 'Jin' was beside me, helping me. Sometimes he even gave away his efforts to me so that I wouldn't feel any less from him and down upon myself. He did this without asking anything in return, and his answer was always that he had fallen for me after looking after me, that he loved me.

I first scoffed at the idea, thinking that we were delusional and love was just a weakness. But once I felt it myself, I knew that it was the sweetest thing ever in the world. As days went by, this feeling of mine kept increasing, but I tried to suppress it, to not let it control me, in that regard, I was partially successful.

But just like in the past, the more I suppressed it, the more it grew. Just as things were getting messy, it was time to accept it.

I was quite anticipating it, as I myself had several responsibilities to look after. Everything looked dark when he came, 'Jin'. At first, I thought he would give me the same looks, but no, he still held those same loving and proud eyes as he looked at me, no disappointment. This put a huge crack in the lid I placed on myself, the final push being when he presented me with the ways to grow, something I thought was lost for me.

All those steps together broke through the lid, and the feelings that broke out were much larger and firmer than I could ever imagine.

I finally accepted it...

... I was in love...

... and it felt amazing...

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POV Switch:

Third Person POV:

Jin was sitting on the couch with Esdeath in his lap, running his fingers through her super long blue hair while she admired her new power as her hand had completely turned into ice and then inverted back into her normal skin from the gift he had given her. It was a loving moment, but things were about to get much hotter.

"It's amazing, Master. I can feel the power surge through my entire body," Esdeath said, feeling the overwhelming power in every cell.

Suddenly, Jin grabbed Esdeath by the hair and pulled her head back, exposing her neck. "You like it rough, don't you, you little masochistic slut?" he growled, making her moan with pleasure.

As suddenly, Jin grabbed Esdeath by the hair and pulled her head back, exposing her neck. "You like it rough, don't you, you little masochistic slut?" he growled, making her moan with pleasure.

Esdeath nodded eagerly, her Icy blue eyes sparkling with desire. "Yes, Master, please punish me," she begged, her body trembling with anticipation.