CHAPTER 3 : Get it together

I was sitting on the bed of the huge room from which I had just woken up.

I was still starring at myself in the mirror.

A moment ago I had just realized that I am not in my original world.

It was so shocking for me.

this was totally a different world which was so unfamiliar to me.

In my world my original name was Sara, but now it was not my name anymore. now it was lily.

I got transmigrated in a novel. I was still suspicion of this situation but it got all confirmed as some fragments of memories of the original owner this body came serging in my head like a big and heavy wave of ocean which flooded my mind in fear and anxiety.

thats why, it didn't matter how many times I tried to deny that 'it's all fake and it can't be real, everything is going to return to normal once I wake up.' but all these newly coming memories made me impossible to deny it.

I wanted to scream on top of my lungs.

'let me out of here'

'I wanna go home! '

but no words were coming out of my dried lips. A big lump of desperateness was stuck in my throat which couldn't be cleared.

I was worried about what happened to me in my original world

'did I die from over drinking?'

'why can't I recall?'

I felt a fear rising in heart.

l feared that 'will I ever be able to get back to my world or not? '

'is it even possible? '

'if not then will I be able to live here? '

'what will happen if my original memories got erased due to the new coming memories and couldn't recall my family or even myself?! '

my relationship with my family wasn't so intimately close.

we never verbally expressed our feelings. but i knew that they loved me very much.

but now I regret that I never told them that how much they mean to me Or how much I love them.

I missed them so much.

I felt like crying.

before I could have realized, my cheeks were getting wet.

I was already crying.

There wasn't a single sound that was coming out of my vocal cords but,

the tears were just pouring out of my eyes one by one and wouldn't stop flowing as I staring out in the space blankly without even blinking.

***

Lily's mother was a beta and her father was an alpha.

Lily's sub-gender had not manifested yet.

she was cooking something light and delicious in the kitchen for her daughter, who had a very high fever last night.

suddenly, she heard a scream from her daughter's room.

"Aaah...! "

she was surprised and dropped the spoon from her hand with which she was cooking.

she immediately ran towards Lily's room.

when she opened the door she saw Lily's face which was surprised and confused. her behavior was also unusual.

as lily was running here and there in the room panicking, she held her(lily's) sholder and shouted to make her daughter come to her senses.

she was very concerned about her daughter. she thought does the fever has rises?

she made lily sit down and immediately hurried to get her some water.

***

lily was crying, sitting on the floor.

lily's mother came in the room while holding a glass of water.

but she was devastated after seeing lily like that.

In front of her lily had a black expression, crying her eyes out. sitting and crying like her soul left her body.

this was her first time seeing her daughter like that. she was horrified about what had happened to her daughter?

the glass of water she was holding fell from her hand as she immediately ran towards lily.

"what happened to you darling? "

"why are you crying like this? "

"did you have a nightmare? "

"AWaa... uhaa.... " (lily)

"hush..shh...calm down darling. tell mom what happened. "

***

I was held by the woman who just came through the door to give me water, hugging me very tightly as I was crying.

I just new that this woman was the mother of the original owner of this body due to my new memories. these memories were merging with my original memories as if I was lily herself.

as the woman was hugging, i felt a warmth of comfort seeping through my body. it felt very familiar to me. may be because she was the mother of this body?

I didn't know what this familiar feeling was but fear and anxiety was gradually fading away, the warmth felt like my own mother's and I burst out crying loudly.

A hand was pating my back to calm me down and I gradually calmed down.

I had to get it all together and think through a clear mind.

I couldn't bring myself to tell her(mother) the truth about what happened.

so i just told her that I had a very terrible nightmare.