No Way

I scan my ID card on the scanner and grab my lunch to go walk to my friend's table; trying to balance the many things I have on my hands and backpack since this school doesn't offer lockers for some damn reason other than how poor this school is.

Anyways, I reach my destination, figuring out where to sit because we have so many people at our table, and sit on an unusual spot. My friends are already talking about random things and I start diving into my food because although it's not healthy or good, I have a valid reason, which is I'm starving.

I go into my usual daydreams, ignoring everything about reality and forgetting I'm even a student at a school. And my desperate self is back again thinking about a pretty girl I only see three times a day.

Even after all of this I'm still not sure I like-like Ava in that way. Like it's the middle of December right now, and I first met Ava in August the first day of school.

What I first noticed about her was her eyes, they were a really light sage green. And this will probably be the 100th time I said that, but her eyes really stood out among everything in the room, and it's something I don't normally experience in a person.

Sure maybe that could've been my first sign that I might start developing feelings for her, but like I didn't really pay attention to her until about a week ago.

So what's stood out now?

I try to go far back in my memories about times where I've seen her do something. Then I remember the first time where I had an actual thought about her.

It was probably a month or two in the first semester as a freshman, probably September or October maybe even early November. And she sat in front of me along with another kid I have for other classes, his name is Cole.

This was the first time where I saw her talk to someone, and as soon as the first few minutes of first period started, she instantly started talking to him like they've known each other for years. Yes it could have meant they were in middle school together, but I never seen them talk once before.

It was peculiar, and kind of piqued curiosity in my mind when I saw how open she was with him. After a few more days they sat on the same table on the same spot, and I saw them all the time.

Cole always playing video games on his laptop instead of working, he played games like Geometry Dash, Tetris, Doodle Jump, etc., and Ava would always encourage him in what he was doing.

Sometimes they'd have a fit after something funny happens to them and it genuinely looked like they were friends.

I even somehow wrote about their situation on an assignment I was doing for another class, it was a question about observing people and writing down what stood out to me in people. And since I needed an example, well luckily the answer was right in front of me!

That meant I had to carefully think about Ava because she was the one I was observing the most, and I gave my thoughts about what their relationship might be and what kind of person Ava was. And after that, I didn't really think much about it. I did continue seeing Ava talk to more people after that, and I reconned she started finding confidence in herself, as I remember for second period we made a presentation about ourselves and she always said she was a quiet and shy person.

And good for her then.

And now, she's now my desk mate, and after her doing what she did to Cole, she did the same thing to me now. And I didn't know how to feel about it.

I just hope I had enough time to figure out what the whole deal was going on between me and her, or I guess just me and my conscience since she most likely hasn't had a thought about me.

"IVY" I hear a scream

"What?" I turn in a jolt, spooked by the sudden silence after someone getting my attention.

I see it was Jodie who was talking to me, and all of our other friends around me were looking at me.

What did I do wrong?

"I was just saying if you wanted to have another sleepover along with Jesse at your house?" She explained

"Ohhh, yeah sure! That sounds fun, plus we haven't exactly finished binge watching Bluey!" I responded

"OOO YES! What day do you think we should do it on!!?" Jesse jumps happily at the mention of Bluey. Since we're all obsessed with the wholesome show that is pretty much meant for toddlers, but who cares, we're 14-15 year olds with the heart of 5 year olds.

"Hmmm... maybe this Friday? My mom can pick you guys up! Plus won't it be early release too since it's going to be winter break?" I add

"Yeah sure! Just let me ask my mom when I can!" Jodie responded.

"Yeah that sounds great!" Jesse adds.

"Good then!" I finish. Remembering that I'm supposed to be eating school lunch and actually socialize with my friends.

Soon lunch ends and it's time to go into 5th period which is a drag since it's Algebra for me. And while I do find Algebra quite easy for me it doesn't mean I'm in love with it, but I can say that my class and teacher are really cool.

It's been 2 minutes since the first bell rang and Jesse, Jodie, Alex, and a mutual friend Cassidy were still trying to put their lunch that they didn't even eat in the trash.

"Bro hurry the fuck uP we're gonna be late." I whine. I hate every time they do this.

My friends don't even answer me as they're still laughing at their shenanigans and I wait at the front of the cafeteria trying not to get yelled at by security or the lunch ladies.

Finally after forever they reach where I'm at and I instantly take off, hearing the warning bell ring as we only have 2 minutes to get to class, but fortunate for me my class is downstairs.

I hear my friends 2 steps behind me and I focus myself on trying not to bump into anyone, which is a life or death situation for me as I'm pretty short and everyone else is like 6 foot tall in this school.

As I finally reach a free spot I notice a orange flash go past me and instantly I'm put at a halt.

I stare at Ava Bell in awe. At least what I think I look. I stare at her as she walks past me and going to the opposite direction of the fork in the halls to where me and my friends are going. And I don't know, I felt something you could say as I saw her walk.

I was startled at first by her because she's like a sea urchin in a desert, easily spotted and different from everyone else. Like she's supposed to be in the spotlight.

Not to mention as she hangs her backpack over one shoulder and flows her hips side to side. Showing her beautiful but smooth curves. Her crop top showing access to see only half of her stomach, but as she continues walking I could only see her back.

I try hard to not notice her behind. And while she wears cool cargo pants she places her feet in a way where she looks like she flows her hips like an angel.

I slightly blush as I start to appreciate how good of a body she has. I never mentioned it but she has a flat stomach which you can instantly notice when she only wears a crop. Her hip to waist ratio is perfect, and while she may not have the biggest breasts or buttocks most people would consider the norm, she still looks stunning.

My face quickly turns red as I start to realize that I sounded like a pervert. While I didn't think bad or naughty of her and just mostly noticed her body it still felt like I invaded her privacy even though she didn't know.

She probably gets many stares by other people if she continues walking and showing herself like that. And for some reason I sort of feel... bad for her? Or something? I don't know, just the thought that others might want her is just weird and sick in general, especially if it's only about her looks.

I don't realize how long I've been staring or standing still but my friends who were now standing in front of me definitely noticed.

"Yo Ivyy" Jesse calls.

I flinch and look their way as I realize how long it's been.

Oh god they definitely noticed didn't they...

"Oh, sorry I thought I was about to bump into someone." I say brushing all of my thoughts and feelings off and start to walk past them.

I put my face low and I can definitely feel their curious and confused stares at me and each other. They're definitely gonna make fun of me now...

They quickly caught up to me and asked if I was okay because I was very red on the face.

"Yeah I'm fine! Why do you ask?" I say with a slight hint of fear in my voice.

"I don't know you just looked like you saw something that might have made you feel weird." Jesse responds.

"Ah" I say shortly as I start speeding up on my walking, trying to shift focus of my face to my friends. I look hella suspicious.

I silently hear Alex talk to Jesse, Jodie and Cassidy.

"Is it me or does she look like she's in love again?" He asks.

"Well I couldn't see who she was looking at." Jodie responds.

"Hmm, maybe we could ask?" Jesse says.

"Yo, I think it's hella obvious they don't want to talk about it, so I say we force Ivy into saying who she saw." Cassidy adds with slight punk and confidence in her voice.

Cassidy was always the type to scream at someone for information and threaten to kill their loved ones just to hear some juicy secret or rumor.

And honestly while she may be too crazy for me for now, I think I can handle her. After all I just met Cassidy last month due to her being mutuals with Jesse and Jodie and soon Alex.

"Noo, I think I'll find a way to tell them in 7th period." Jesse says.

"Alright then, but if she don't speak just know I'll gut her from the inside out before she can tell us-" Cassidy said with slight rage in her voice.

"Damn calm down!" Jodie and Alex said at the same time.

But of course I heard them as they still walked behind me.

But I said my goodbye's and see ya's to them and I went off to 5th period, wanting to hear nothing about me or Ava again...