A Lab Rat
Life is a beautiful experience, yet it's also a painful suffering.
Never-ending pain, that is what makes you alive. The feeling of pain that you suffered was there. The pain was there. That is the proof you are living as a human being. Numb is also a feeling where you don't feel anything. Crazy right?
I wish for myself to be reborn as a stone in my next life, so I don't have to deal with anything.
Was there even next life after death?...
I would laugh if I could but...I can't even smile.
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Actually...
It's better if this is the only life...
So I don't have to do anything in my next life...
Yeah, that sounds nice...If I knew this was gonna happen to me, I should just keep reading the novel without working so hard.
But if there's is indeed next life...
I want to take it slowly, without rushing too much, and overwork myself.
Week's turn into months, and slowly, it turns into a year, in a blink of eyes a decade has passed.
I am now 39 years old, a divorce man, and still lying on the bed. Watching the news, celebrating the marriage of the new patriarch. My half brother.
I bet the elders were pressuring him to get married quickly in case the same things happen to him. And will pressured him to have children too.
Well, not that I care. Everything that happens to the clans doesn't mean anything to me.
I close my eyes, trying to sleep with the news noise as a lullaby.
I can't do anything, nor do I want to.
All I wanted to do was to sleep.
Sleep deeply enough to be considered dead.
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[hello]
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"huu..."
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"u-uh..?.."
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"Ha...Ah!"
!!...
"I-I...can talk?"
What is going on?...
[Congratulations on being chosen!]
Eh! what is this!!!
[Don't need to be panic, I'm merely a messenger sent by the system to inform the host about the message.]
System? Messenger?? Excuse me, what????
[It appears that the host can't handle it]
Omg this is so weird, strange, interesting???
Who is this? How can I talk? What happened to me???
[Please calm down, and I will answer the host questions]
O-ok...uhuuuuu..Okey...
First of all, who are you?
[I am a messenger that merely gives the host the message from the system]
o-okey? A system, huh...
Anyway! Where am I?
[Host currently awake in consciousness, since the host orignal body has long been decay]
Wait, Wait?what?
Decay?
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Please explain it to me.
[5 years ago, when host was asleep. Host die because of sudden heart failure. The nurse and doctor failed to save Host original body, resulting for it's death. Since the body is no longer suitable for the host to use, the system decides to build a new body for the host. Thus, the reason for the late awakened ]
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So I'm dead?
[Yes]
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...What happened to my family??
[Unfortunately, as the hosts were already dead, anything related to that world is classified information. So I'm unable to give the answer to the questions. Apologies]
...Oh
That's fine...
It makes sense, 2 different realms, after all. It would be too unfair if one would be able to know something on a different realm.
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But still... could you at least tell me? how they feel about my sudden death?
[Unfortunately, no. Apologies]
I see...
So...Im dead.
What's going to happen now?
[The host souls are going to be transferred to a new body]
...Is this what people say...reincarnated?
[Similar to that, but only a few souls could get to experience this]
What do you mean?
[All the living things will experience death one day, sooner or later]
So does that still mean there's a second life?
[Confidential information. Apologies]
Is there heaven and hell?
[Confidential information. Apologies]
Do god exist?
[Confidential information. Apologies]
Do we have a judgement time?
[Confidential information. Apologies]
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...Is this the so-called system...was it a god?
[No, the system is just a low program that has been made for an experiment on human soul.]
What? so who created the system? Was it god?
[Confidential information. Apologies]
So god do exit, huh...
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...Why...do I have to live such a hard life?...
[Please ask another question]
My life was so pitiful, why?
[Please ask another question]
My own mother and father don't love me.
[Please ask another question]
Did I do something wrong in my past life? for me to live such a pitiful and lonely life?
[Please ask another question]
PLEASE GIVE ME AN ANSWER!!!!
[Please ask another question]
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I don't really learn much about religion... but I do believe god exists...
That's why I never do anything bad. Fear of being sent to hell. After all, I don't want to be tortured for internity. Plus, even if there aren't any, it doesn't hurt to be a normal person.
At least the world has less scumbag, even if it's only one.
If humans could believe in mermaid and other myth creatures exist, with the excuse of "The universe is vast, The world is full of mystery" Then, the thought of possibilities for a higher being to exist is also there.
So whoever out there must be someone powerful, for them to be able to create something like a system... and move a dead soul to a new body.
I'm just a human... how can I? A helpless human fights something that has such power.
Rather than try to fight it, it should be safe to just obey it.
Since I believe this saying : "Everything that happens has a reason."
Still, I remember how people were mad at me because of the way I thought.
After all, how could people death have any reason behind it?
How could someone suffering have any reason?
Anything bad happens, what was the reason?
What reason for it to sacrifice a human life?
Sometimes, it doesn't make sense
But it actually helps me to always stay calm every time something unexpected happens.
Haish...
I shouldn't focus on things beyond my reach.
Just focus on myself...
... Yeah...
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So...can I trust this so-called system?
[Rest assured host, as the system will do it job to safely transfer host soul into another new body]
As you said before, not everyone gets to experience this. What is this? Why did I get chosen then?
[The Host has a suitable mentality for the experiment, thus has been chosen by the system]
What kind of experiments?
[An experiments to see how an ordinary human life becomes if a single card determined that human life]
Cards?
[Yes]
W-Woah!! That's a lot of cards!
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14.15.16....20.....25.....34.....40.....54.....60....
I don't think I can count anymore. Just by seeing this, it's must be more than a hundred thousand!!
What kind of cards is this? It's so many!!
[A life card, where the host chooses random cards that will determine the rest of the host life]
A life card? That many?
Wait! what kind of life card is this??
So, will everything in that one card determine how i live?
[That's right]
Ah, sh*t...what am I supposed to do if i get something dumb? do I have to live to achieve that?
[Yes]
As long as it's not dumb and hard, I will do it.
I hope I get the easiest one.
Since this is merely an experiment, do I have to follow the card? or just live my life to the fullest?
[The Host could choose whether to do it or not, since this is just an experiment]
Oh, so I don't need to do t-
[But if the host failed, as a failed subject, the host will be sent for the cleaning soul session]
But if it's successful?
[The host will be granted a small universe to live in there and do whatever the host wishes for]
WHAT? I WILL BE GIVEN A universe? FOR ME??? MY OWN UNIVERSE??!!
[Yes, and the host could have everything host desired]
Can I make my own civilizations?
[Yes]
C-can I also make the world where magic exists??
[Yes]
Made demons and angels to exit and have them have a war with each other?
[Yes]
Made countless realms and world????
[Yes]
This...
Doesn't this mean...I'm basically a god in that universe?
[Yes]
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...what a great reward...
I wonder how hard it was it for the reward to be this great...
it sounds suspicious, but...
thinking back, i never really live for myself by doing what i want, constantly feeling pressure by everyone, and fear of being abandoned...
...Fine
I'll do it
even if i fail, there's nothing for me to lose anyway...
[Please choose the cards]
...Which one should I choose...
Ehmm...
...All the cards have different colours... and even the vibe was different...
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What about these cards?
[Will the host choose this cards?]
No, I want to look around first.
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Huh?...
...This cards have different atmospheres than the other. They have many different colours that change every second.
As if all the colours merge in one card.
When I stand near it, I feel refreshed and cool. But why does my head feel slightly heavy?
Does this tell the burden I need to carry?
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Let me try the other cards.
...A bright colour, it had many shades. Everything was so bright, Its look like a mix of orange, red, yellow, blue.
Despite its bright appearance, I feel suffocating and hot.
And this card...
The card has more soft colour, light blue, soft pink, light green, and a slightly purple colour.
Everything feels so calm yet boring...
Boring means good, right??
it's so easy that it makes you bored?
No, I shouldn't take it too lightly, I may be wrong.
That could be a really boring goal but still hard to achieve.
Wait! that one cards!
It was a bright colour, but there's only one shade...
Yellow?
No, it's more to a golden than simple yellow.
The feeling around it was fun, but my body suddenly felt tired.
As if I've just done moving around in a long time, and my stamina runs out.
Fun...yet all my body was tired...
...uhm...
But why is it yellow then?
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Should I choose this?
Yellow usually means fame and fortune
But this could be something else, though...
It could be related to a celebrity life, since gold usually symbolic fame, or money.
It's could be asking me to work hard and become the riches person in a whole world.
But...still fun...so I could still do anything I like after I have all that money.
I'm a experience business man. So I'm confident with my skill. If it's that, I could achieve that.
... But if it's a celebrity life, then...
I'm an important figure before, and I have a peek of the entertainment industry through my half-sister.
Speaking of her, she was a trainee 15 years ago, and after 5 years of training, she finally debuted in an idol group.
But then, 1 year later, their group was disbanded because its a flop. Then she tries to be an actress, but she doesn't have the talents except her pretty face.
After that, she...I don't remember...
... Why can't I remember any of that?
[Since the host is no longer connected with that world. Host memory and attachments from that world will slowly fade away]
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I don't know why, but I'm confident about this card.
It could be one of those two.
... But if it's something different, then...
Ah! I don't care anymore!! I have to gamble it. Plus, with my experience, I still will somewhat achieve it if it's something else other than those two.
Hey.
[Yes?]
I've decided.
I chose this card.
[Are you sure you will choose this card?]
Yes
[Are you su-]
Yes! I'm sure of it.
[Then if the host has already confirmed the card of choice, then please wait a moment]
Please, between those two.
Please, between those two.
Please be-
[Ding!]
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[Congratulations on getting an Idol card]
Idol?
...oh, fuh thank goodness its between those two.
Well...it's not that bad, but...
I didn't expect to get an idol. I thought I had to be an actor or something.
...A bit disappointed, since I was hoping it was business related field. But if I think carefully, all the links were there it so obvious.
Golden card, fun feelings, tired body...
Fame,Fun,Tiredness.
Everything was there.
It sounds like a hard one, honestly...
Wait, but I can't sing or dance.
How am I supposed to achieve it?
[I would like to inform the host about a side mission]
...Ah side what now?
[A side mission that the host could accept or refuse]
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well... let's hear it first.