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Julianna's POV

"We need to talk Liana." That's the first thing I hear when I walk out of the bathroom?

"I hope it's nothing bad." I said nervously, he just stared at me with a straight face.

"I...I think." He stopped his sentence and broke eye contact with me. He looked anywhere else that wasn't me. "Well I think, that we should break up." I felt a knot begin in my stomach and I felt a tight feeling growing in my heart. What the actual?

"What!? But...I mean, everything was going good, what happened? What did I do?" Tears started to form in my eyes and my hands flew to my face to wipe them away.

"I just...I can't be in a relationship. With anyone."

"Get out." I said in a stern voice, feeling a tear flow down my cheek. I looked down to my bed trying to avoid him. I heard his steps heading towards the door but then he stopped.

"I'm so sorry ang-"

"Get the fuck out. Don't ever call me that again." I heard the door silently close and I dug my face into my pillow. All of that shit now gone. I should've never let myself fall. Why did I let myself fall? For such a fantasy. Obviously he didn't love me, he used me and got what he wanted then he makes up some dumb excuse to leave the relationship. I looked over at the painting we made together that he'd got framed, I turned over to not look at it and started to bawl my eyes out. I let out every little ounce of pain I felt. How could he do this to me? I fucking saved his life. I made sure that police weren't on his ass about the stabbing yet he doesn't care one bit? Even after I gave him my own virginity...

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The Next Day

I'd cried throughout the whole night and I'd put 'void by the neighbourhood' throughout the whole night to console my feelings. Thankfully today was Saturday.I technically don't have to do anything today, I know that today is his party meaning I'll probably have to see his face plastered all over peoples stories, great. My eyes were puffy and were red from crying so much. My pillow was also wet from it, I could still smell him in here. He smelt good but I don't need a reminder of it. Blair came home late last night from Kai's and I was still crying but I pretended to be asleep. I know that today she has her big audition for an acting role, if she gets it, she'll officially become an actor. I don't want my sad news weighing down on her so I let her go to sleep. I checked my phone, no calls or texts from Mason. When we were on our break, there was so much. He always contacted me, always. I guess technically I should be thanking him though, because he's not texting I don't have to waste my mind on him. I stood up and looked over at my sisters side of the bed, she was already gone. If Blair was here, I know exactly what she'd do. Instead of sitting here, being sad and crying over a boy, she'd get up, get ready, look her best and make sure he knows how meaningless he is. Since he is having a party tonight, I'm gonna take myself there looking my best and I will get wasted and probably end up leaving with some rando.

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I looked at the time, perfect. It's 9 right now and the party should've already started. I spent the whole day getting ready, taking care of my hair, makeup, shaving and everything else to pamper myself. I won't let him break me down because that's fucking embarrassing, who does he think he is to break my heart and walk free? I grabbed a simple brown full body con dress knowing that it'd show off my body perfectly. I'd worn a basic black bikini underneath.

(Pictures for people who want)

It wasn't much, but it helped me feel better about how I looked. In all truth, I did have pretty good genetics, I have a pretty rounded ass, ok boobs and I don't appreciate my body enough. I'm glad that I'm showing her off today, I'm really hoping she pulls through for me. I smiled and breathed in before I headed off.

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