Where Are You?

Darkness. The blazing white light that was around me had vanished, bringing back what appeared to be darkness. However I could still hear those voices, again sounding like people talking, but with words I cannot understand. While trying to comprehend what is happening, Kaede flashes in my mind once more. "What is happening... Where are you?". I thought as I began to cry out loud. Wait, I can make sounds? I cry out louder as it appears my vision has still yet to return as all I could feel- Wait I can feel something, it; feels warm.

Feeling the warmth from this unknown thing, my cries come to a halt.

?: "ᏖᏂᏋᏒᏋ ᏖᏂᏋᏒᏋ, ᎷᎧᎷᎷᎩ'Ꮥ ᎶᎧᏖ ᎩᎧᏬ~"

I couldn't understand what this person was saying, but they appear to be the one surrounding me in this warmth, as I calm myself down with their gentle tone of voice. God if only I could see. This darkness scares me, I want to see who this person is, but at least they sound friendly. Also the pain I felt from before has completely gone, except for the pain in my chest. I hope Kaede is safe. Suddenly a wave of exhaustion assaulted me, bringing me into a deep, incontrollable sleep, basking in this person's warmth.

I recall what had happened before whilst I sleep; I was attacked. Kaede came to me, I remember that. The feeling of her warmth around me feels very similar to what I'm feeling right now. Could it be her? No, if so then I would of been able to understand those words before. "Where am I?"

Time flew by as I find myself waking up. The darkness from before had vanished as I could finally see! Everything was a blur however, but I could finally make out the person who has been giving me this gentle, warm embrace.

?: "ᎶᎧᎧᎴ ᎷᎧᏒᏁᎥᏁᎶ ᏕᏇᏋᏋᏖᎥᏋ"

Her face now in my view. I could tell that she was a human, but what language is that? It definitely isn't anything I have heard before. The color of her hair was the first thing I noticed, it was a bright red, similar to mine actually, and the only other thing I could tell was that she had blue eyes, sparkling down at me through the blurriness. This was definitely not Kaede. Raising my hand, I go to reach for this person where I realize my arms are- shorter? I concentrate my hardest as I desperately try to focus on my extended hand before eventually finally able to see clearly, this was not my hand, what is this? It's almost like a babies arm...

At that moment I realized what had happened, I did in fact die back then, but then why am I alive again? "What is this place? Why do I remember everything from back then?" Kaede... I left her behind. We were just about to see the place where we would be living together, where we were going to start our lives together, making even more precious memories together...

Before I knew it, I began crying once more. The person who had been holding me this entire time lifted me up closer to her chest, her face coming clearly into my view as I could make out her appearance. She's pretty; but before I knew it, something approached my mouth. As if by instinct I started sucking on whatever this was, when suddenly, a thick, creamy, warm liquid flooded my mouth as I immediately began to drink whatever this was. It was at this moment I realized that was being breastfed. So I really am a baby huh.

?: "ᎩᎧᏬ ᎴᎥᎴ Ꮧ ᎷᏗᏒᏉᏋᏝᎧᏬᏕ ᏠᎧᏰ ᏂᏬᏁ"

A door closed in the distanced, followed by more of the same unknown language. It was a deeper tone than this- my mother, so would this person be my.. dad?

Memories of my parents flashed in my head, like I was struck my lightning. I left my parents behind as well, along with Kaede. Oh god, the blood, my body. I don't want my parents coming home to see that horrific sight. Hopefully the ambulance took care of the situation before my parents came home, I'd hate for them to had seen me right as they walked into that door.

Dad?: "ᏕᏂᏋ'Ꮥ ᏰᏋᏗᏬᏖᎥᎦᏬᏝ"

What I could only assume was my 'new' dad as he approached me and what I also could also assume was my 'new' mother. He didn't look anything like my father, but he did have a similar build, with his muscular structure.

Dad?: "ᏂᏗᏉᏋ ᎩᎧᏬ ᏖᏂᎧᏬᎶᏂᏖ ᎧᎦ Ꮧ ᏁᏗᎷᏋ?"

Mom?: "ᏋᏝᏝᏋᏁ"

My mom looked me in the eyes as he said that, a determined yet smiling face staring right at me. Was what she said my name? It sounds weird, it better not be my name; if so then I'll-

A sudden exhaustion crept up on me, as my eyes gave out, plunging me back in that same darkness from before. It scares me, I don't like this. This darkness, it's too much. My mind panics for a short while before falling unconscious once more. Memories of my past fills my mind as I'm once again reminded of Kaede. If I was reborn in this new place, then why do I remember? This is too cruel...

Memories of seeing her tend to the school garden, walking back home from school together, kissing each other... I miss her. "Why did I have to die?" I thought I was strong, but in the end I was weak, I couldn't even stop that knife, or even see it coming. If only I was stronger and more vigilant maybe I would still be together with Kaede right now, living together, watching movies, maybe even starting our own little garden as well. She was so mesmerizing every time she tended to that garden in school that most times I found myself staring in the middle of my running. If only I was stronger...

Time passes as I wonder to myself. "I wonder what country I'm in?" The language is so strange, its definitely not Japanese or English, maybe its some place like Norway? That would be pretty cool. Maybe when I grow up from this baby body I can find a way back to Japan to see her, but I guess that would be grasping at straws. Plus she would probably had moved on at that point, maybe found someone else to move into that place. She is very beautiful, I'm sure she could find someone else. I'm just thankful that fucker that attacked me, claiming that she was his was now dead; thanks mom for the shoe, sorry if I damaged it.

From all my constant sleeping, I can't even tell how much time had passed since my rebirth. My vision however has gotten a lot better as I could see my surroundings with ease. It looked to me like we were in a large, spacious room. Shiny ornaments spread all around as I clung to my mother, wrapped around in this very comfortable cloth.

Dad: "Ellen ᏕᏬᏒᏋ ᎥᏕ Ꮧ ᎷᎧᏖᏂᏋᏒ'Ꮥ ᎶᎥᏒᏝ"

I've been spending my time trying my hardest to learn this foreign language, but so far all that I know is my name. Ellen. It's not that I hate this name, in fact I'm glad I wasn't reborn as a boy. I may of been somewhat of a tomboy in my life, but like hell I would want to be stuck in a guys body. Suddenly a thought popped in my mind. I have cried multiple times since my birth, I can make sounds. Does that mean I can try saying something? I attempt to try and say a word that my father had just said, even though I have no clue what it means.

Yui/Ellen: "ᎷᎧ-ᏋᏒ"

It was a pain to say as I could barely muster the strength to say it, but I succeeded in doing so. My mother looking down at me with a surprised look in her eyes. "Did I say something bad?" I thought to myself, as I watch the gaze of my mother and father, their shocked expressions giving me nothing but anxiety as I cling towards my mother once more.

Mom: "Ellen's ᎦᎥᏒᏕᏖ ᏇᎧᏒᎴᏕ!

Dad: "ᏗᏝᏒᏋᏗᎴᎩ?

They seemed to me excited, well at least my mother seems to be as my father seemed more shocked than excited, at least it didn't seem like I said anything bad. My mother and father continue talking about things I have no clue about. I need to hurry up and learn this language. Suddenly, I see my mom point towards herself.

Mom: "ᎷᏗᎷᏗ. ᎮᏗᎮᏗ"

So that's how you say mom and dad? Sweet! Excitement boils up within me as I'm already starting to learn the language. I attempt to push through the pain as I try and to speak once more.

Yui/Ellen: "Ꮇama… Papa-"

Looking towards both of them as I say it. My voice sounds so fragile and weak but I managed to get the words out, resting my voice for now; who knew that talking could take so much effort. I could hear my parents rejoice as they heard me speak. I wonder if this was how it was like when I first spoke to my real parents. Once again, I can't help but think of my parents from my previous life. I really do hope they are doing okay, I wish I could of seen them, even if it was just for one more time...

After some times passes, I could see that the light from the windows growing darker, as night gradually fell upon us, reminding me of the time when I left Kaede's house that day. Not wanting to think about it no more I cling back onto my mother, shaking off those depressing memories as I did not want to remember that pain of losing her. Slowly, I sink back into my sleep, embracing the warmth of my new mother as I slip deeper and deeper into darkness once more.