The Night with a Knife

-----Kaede's POV

We make our way inside as we both end up sitting next to each other on top of the bed. Her expression still the same before we had entered.

Kaede: "So? Did you wanna talk about what you talked about with Olivia?"

Yui: "Eh? Oh yeah! I guess I can talk about that first."

So it's not something that they discussed? Then what...

Yui: "I Hope you don't mind, but I told Olivia about our relationship. Nothing in too much detail, but I did talk about us having a past life."

Kaede: "Huh? Why would you bring that up with her?"

Yui: "Well, I wanted to hopefully break the master/servant relationship we currently have, and it seemed to have worked a little. Oh don't worry, she promised to not tell anyone."

Kaede: "Mmmm. Okay. I guess that saves me trying to think up ways to lie again, hehe."

Yui: "That's true, haha."

...

Yui: "But back on the topic."

Her expression turned straight back to a more gloomy tone as her laugh stops. I wait in silence for her to continue.

Yui: "When I talked to her about our past lives... She asked me about how we died. I told her about how I was murdered and stuff but then it got me thinking... I don't know how you died, Kaede."

Kaede: "O-oh..."

I see... I guess I never DID tell her about it did I. Would she be mad at me if I told her about it? Then again, she is the most dearest person to me, I should just tell her regardless. But now I find it hard to breathe, like the air just suddenly became thin as if we were high atop of a mountain or something.

Her hands gently cradle my own as we sit on top of the bed, as if she was pleading me in a sense to tell her. It did ease some of the pressure, but in turn it made it all the more difficult to keep eye contact with her as I cast my gaze downwards.

Kaede: "I uhm... Do I have to say?"

She answers back, squeezing her hands ever so tightly around my own.

Yui: "Only if you want to."

I manage to look back up at her, only to cast my gaze back down just as quickly upon seeing her eyes staring directly into me.

Kaede: "I-"

Taking a few moments to prepare myself, I take one deep breath before lifting my head back up. My eyes now confronting hers once more with all the courage I can muster.

Kaede: "I... I killed myself."

Yui: "Ah, I see. So I didn't-"

...

Yui: "Eh? Wait. YOU, killed yourself?"

Kaede: "...Yes."

Why was she having me confirm it? I had just used all my courage just now, I could barely make words at this point!

Yui: "Thank god~"

Kaede: "Huh?"

My worries would clear up as I hear Yui letting out a long sigh as she falls back on the bed.

Yui: "I thought I didn't finish that guy off. I thought he managed to get you too. But I see... So you killed yourself, huh."

Kaede: "You don't need to keep saying that! I'm ashamed of it okay"

Yui: "Sorry sorry."

Curse her, continuing to say "I killed myself" after I already said it twice. It may be due to my irritation, but my hand had wondered to her thigh, pinching it between my fingers.

Yui: "Hey!~ I said sorry okay?"

Kaede: "You better..."

I remain seated where I am, leaving Yui the only one relaxing. Or WAS relaxing before I went and pinched her as she's now leaning back on her arms.

Yui: "So~ How did-"

Kaede: "I used the same knife that killed you."

I cut her off before this turned awkward. If I'm going to say I killed myself, I may as well talk about everything that happened.

Kaede: "When your body went limp, when I saw the light leave your eyes... It was the single most painful experience in my life. That's including when I eventually did... kill myself-"

Thinking back on that day, the day when I felt Yui's body grow cold in my arms. Her blood all over me. All those memories come flooding back into me as tears start to pour out once more, as if I'm reliving that day all over again.

Kaede: "It felt like... When you left me, a part of me also left. I felt incredibly lonely at the thought of not having you by my side. Wherever you went off to, I wanted to go there as well... That's what I thought-"

Tears began to hit my hands as I clenched onto the bed sheets for any kind of strength to continue. Even throughout my pauses she remained silent, but I couldn't tell the look on her face as my eyes were too focused on my hands, the same hands that were covered in her blood on that night.

Kaede: "And when it came to that guy... It's true, you didn't finish him off... I don't know how many times, but I stabbed. I stabbed him as many times as I could till no more blood was coming out."

My throat's starting to feel quite tight now, making it even more difficult to continue as I try to take in another breath, even if it's haggard.

Kaede: "Then I- I... I took the knife and... If I wanted to go to where you went, I thought that I should feel the same pain as you, so I... I took the knife, and shoved it into my stomach. The pain was excruciating of course, but not to the extent when you left me..."

I try to clear up my vision, wiping my eyes but in turn, more tears start to pour out as they are now staining the bed sheet. I take the time to steady my breathing, hoping to loosen my throat even if only a little before I continue.

Kaede: "Then the ambulance showed up... It was then, that I knew for certain that I didn't want to live without you. I wanted to hurry up and die quicker before they come to save me, screaming at myself for calling the ambulance in the first place. I wanted to die so badly that I... I pried open the biggest hole I could with the knife, praying to god for me to make it...

...

Kaede: "That was when I-"

Yui: "Stop. You don't need to go on."

Breaking me out from continuing, she wrapped her arms around me from behind. Her tight embrace made me feel secure. Her head now pressed up against my back as one of my hands drift up to her arms that are now around my waist.

Yui: "...I'm happy."

Her embrace tightening more with her words, leaving me unable to even see what kind of face she's making.

Yui: "I'm sorry you had to go through all that, I really am... I promise I won't leave you like that again."

Her words weren't doing me any good as my tears weren't stopping, in fact they were coming out faster if anything. My hand now clenching onto the sleeve, not wanting her to let go.

Kaede: "Don't leave me at all... okay?"

Yui: "Mmm. Of course."

I feel her head, gliding up to my nape before her head moves to the side as she rests herself on my shoulder. My tears slowly come to a halt as I find myself focusing on her breathing right up against my ear. It was quite soothing, causing my throat to soften up as I swallow all the pent up saliva that had been stuck inside my throat.

We remain like this for a while, with my tears having finally stopped. Can I just stay like this forever? Having Yui wrapped around me like this is so relaxing that I- Suddenly, Yui pulls me back with her, causing me to fall back on top of her.

Kaede: "H-hey~"

Yui: "My legs were getting stiff, so lets lay like this for a bit."

Kaede: "Oh- Yeah, mhmm!"

I roll off of her the moment she loosens her grasp around me, just enough so that I'm now laying on my side facing her. Her hands still wrapped around my waist as I stare into her beautiful, crystal blue eyes.

Yui: "Yup!"

Kaede: "What?"

Yui: "I love these eyes of yours as well! They're pretty."

Kaede: "Which one do you prefer though?"

Yui: "Both. Is that really a question?"

Kaede: "Fufu~ Yeah I guess you're right. I think your eyes are beautiful as well."

Yui: "Mmmm~ Not like they're much different than in our old world."

Kaede: "Fufu~ That's true."

As if all those tense and depressing moments just before were all but a dream, I found myself giggling away by her side with her.

Yui: "Oh, actually now that we're here. Are you, thirsty at all?"

Kaede: "Just a little, but I think I can wait till-"

Yui: "No can do~ You'll wake up and end up sucking me dry. Here-"

Just like usual, I accept her as she unbuttons that top button, with me wasting no time to gently move my mouth over the side of her neck, my hands now wrapping around her waist as well.

Kaede: "Then, thank you for the meal~"

Yui: "The pleasure's mine."

One of her hands now moving from my waist to my head as I pierce her soft, tender neck. Sure this situation is relaxing as is, but the taste of her blood made it even more so as I gently savor every drop of her blood, making sure non of it spills from the sides of my mouth. "I love you Yui."