childhood friends broken promise

Let's start at the beginning.

me and Kaneki and sachi had always been together since we were babies, Kaneki was the first to be able to talk at the age of 2 while me and sachi were unable to talk.

when we turned 3 My parents brought me with them for a vacation for a few months I was a bit conscious at the time. the day when my family was going back home I saw my mom crying.

Shino: Mama why are you crying?

I asked my mom why she was crying and she answered.

Shiro: *sniffing* Kaneki's *sniffing* mother Tohru is gone.

Shino: when is she coming back?

Shiro: she isn't.

i didn't understand what she meant by Kaneki's mom being gone but she told me.

Shiro: Shino-chan please be sure to stick by Kaneki's side he needs a friend more than ever.

Shino: why?

mom didn't respond and when we returned home I saw Kaneki crying i tried to get close but he didn't respond.

he had a sword and his face was sad and angry. he kept talking to the sword and he even named it Sword-san.

we weren't able to play for a long time because he never recognized Sachi and me.

but next year when me and Sachi were exploring around the forest because we were curious on what he was doing.

when we eventually found him and he was under a waterfall meditating when we accidentally disturbed him he became cautious and asked us who we were.

we responded by saying we're his friends he wasn't convinced but he did remember and he apologized a lot.

we did forgave him and we became friends again and over time he got a step sister and a best friend i was happy for him because seeing him this happy somehow made me happy.

he was always friendly towards us but if someone were to hurt us he would risk himself to get hurt for us.

He said "I don't want to lose the 4 of you, losing the 4 of you would hurt me so much you know I was always depressed since mom died and i became more violent so i could get more strength and power just so i could keep my promise and to protect the 4 of you.

i was touched when he said that.

A few years came again and he got depressed again but we helped him get on his feet again he even joined us in an online competition we lost though but the 5 of us made a promise.

Shino: everyone let's make a promise to each other that no matter what let's always stay friends.

i was the one who suggested it but.

when we were enrolled for Mato High but Sachi apparently failed and only got accepted in an all girls school.

and at the entrance ceremony. me, Yuuka and Miku estranged Kaneki after meeting Ryueki. I didn't realize at first but after the first day of high school I went to go get groceries before getting home and when I got to the gate of my house I saw Kaneki full of scars, crying and asking a question over and over again.

"why? oh why? did you leave me? didn't we promise each other that we'll always be friends?"

at that moment i realized my mistake i tried to apologize to him but i couldn't move and Kaneki never saw me.

i realized my mistake on that day i tried many times to be his friend again but he never noticed me and I was in a lot of pain because I knew him the longest but he never noticed me again because of what I did.

but 3 months later

he noticed a girl named Natsuki Mizutani-san and he was happy even though he was using his second body which he made for his friends, he showed it to a different girl and he was happy.

i was hurt when I saw it and I knew one thing.

Shino: I'll make things right again I'll definitely do it!

I always looked up to Kaneki for everything he did for me and those 3 but what did we do in return? we abandoned him.

I will make things right for that boy who lost everything.

i plan to make things right with him and I won't tell anyone about his relationship with Natsuki so i could at least see his happy face.