04.14 To have drowned

I talked for a really long time after that, with anger and despair crawling through my being. Everything I knew about that man, everything I wished to know about him, the hate I had for him .. how much I wished to love him, everything. How every inch of my skin was craving to be back on that cold roof with him. I miss him so much, he was never supposed to be anything important. Who even is he for me to become like this? What did he even do to for me?

LanXu listened silently through the night. He could be resting in his room with TianShi, yet he is out here in this freezing cold listening to my sob story that isn't even all that intresting. He must be really angry.