13.18 Infinite free passes

TianShi could feel his palms sweating, he didn't know how to be strong for this. LanXu was crying.

LANXU WAS CRYING.

They went to a secluded porch on the right side of the building. TianShi hoped he could puncture his heart so he doesn't feel a thing, otherwise he might breakdown worse than LanXu.

But he didn't even begin to know how deep LanXu's fears ran. "Everyday .. Everyday Tian'ah .." His voice was lowered to a whisper; clam, he leaned on a pillar, looking towards the pool and removed his mask. "I wanted rip my heart out and tear it to pieces, it was so bloody difficult to breathe Tian'ah .. I missed you s- Fuck .." He chocked up, trying to hold back his tears. When he spoke again, one could feel a lump blocking his throat. "I missed you so fucking much Tian'ah .. I didn't.. I didn't even know what was happening.."

TianShi closed his heart. Completely.