Akagi Masahiko, a 24 year old sous chef at his father's restaurant suffers from a very traumatic past and is now unable to enjoy the things he likes. When his mother abandoned him, he was raised by his relatives in near destitute situation as they're poor. Which resulted in toxic treatment to him by his relatives. Then his girlfriend, who is also his childhood friend, cheated on him. His Optimistic and enthusiastic personality, his world full of joy, dreams and hope, all perish. He struggles to put aside his depression and anxiety, he is affraid to try again, fearing for the despair thats haunts him.
After slowly recovering from his past, everything about him changed. Yet, there are still some people who is cheering for him, and someone wants to fill the void in his heart. But the biggest challenge for him is to learn to accept people in his life again.
He tries to find happiness again, yet holds back due to his mental issues that's tearing him apart.

My life's only Lover

This morning, he didn't come to see me. I grew more worried and anxious about the situation. 


As our sweet and tender love for each other seems to be fade, as I waited, longing for his presence. For his warmth, his care. I recalled that we've already talked about how im hindered to make affectionate approaches on our relationship. As I strictly abide to my religious beliefs. 


He promised me that he wouldn't replace me with someone else, that he is contented with what little I could offer to him, in exchange for his thorough care and passionate love. 


And I promise him, that im willing to learn anything that might please. Im willing to mold myself into a lover he would so desire. So I can reach all of his expectations and satisfy his needs. 


But it seems he already found somebody else who can, I shed a tear just by thinking all about it. 


Ch. 84 - Lover's confrontation.