Acceptance ( First Love)

    Seungmin was trying his best not to lose his patience. Not only he didn't knew about meeting but now even after arriving here, he wasn't sitting beside her. He was irritated. A week it was, he didn't bothered her and now she felt like distant person.

    Hyunjin noticed his discomfort and so he asked him to sit beside her. It isn't that Seungmin ever confessed his feelings to Hyunjin, but Hyunjin read it through his behaviour.

    From the moment he threw him over her to make her not to fall. From the minute he tried not to talk to her. From the moment he bent to see her. Hyunjin knew he have feelings for her.

   And these days he was showing it by his actions, he was intending to be by her side. As his own feelings, Hyunjin read his just like a cover page. He numerously tried to help him, allowing him to stay by her side. Keeping place for him beside her. And also calling him on their meetings.

     This was one of those meetings which Hyunjin didn't mentioned to Seungmin. And Hyunjin was kind of scared how will Seungmin react after coming here.

     Struggling Yoona gave him a great chance to make it up him for not inviting him. He called Seungmin to sit beside her which didn't seemed any wrong. And could be read as normal. He could feel Seungmin was furious.

      Seungmin walked over to Yoona and Hyunjin tried to tease him a little. He pushed him intentionally. Which caused Seungmin to lose his composure and melt down suddenly. His anger was gone away in a second.

      As he fell over her he managed not to completely fall. He did wanted to fall over and let himself go off but it won't be good. He controlled himself, his beating heart and his erge to hug her.

      Maintaining himself he saw her, thinking in hersitation. The clouds disappearing again. Her lips trying to smile but staying still, her lowered eyes. He wished to touch her, at least to touch her eyes which were shivering in confusion. 'Can I touch her' was all he could think of.

      With those disappearing clouds he called his lost composure again. "Hyunjin!" He screamed. Listening to which everyone turned to him.

Hyunjin apologised. But several times he did banged over him.

     "Ah, it's realy getting tidy here!" Felix said.

     "Yoona..,"

     "Ah, no! Hyunjin let's move there. So they can sit comfortably!" Felix pointed to other room.

    "Sure!" Saying this with hesitation a little, Hyunjin moved with Felix to another room.

    Everyone was going through there work. And everyone was monitored by Chan. Here Yoona went through her doubts very clearly. And Seungmin was happy too!

    Hyunjin in between kept staring at Felix which Felix noticed too.

    "Why you keep looking at me?" Asked Felix.

   "Looking?" Hyunjin asked looking at him.

    "How would I know!" He laughed.

    Felix tried to distract him from his favourite task but he couldn't.

    "Ah, Felix! I was enjoying teasing him. Why would you have to change places. I can't concentrate now!" Breaking his stare from Felix Hyunjin said.

   "You sure love to get on people's neves!" Felix said.

   "Not like that dear Felix!" He answered.

   "We should have sent Seungmin and Yoona here!" Having devilish smile Hyunjin said.

   "We shouldn't!" Felix answered.

   "Ah, why! It would have been fun!" Hyunjin said.

  "I don't think it would have been fun!" Felix said with serious tone. His eyes telling Hyunjin that he wasn't joking this time.

  "Why! You don't like seeing them together?" Hyunjin asked laying his face over his hands.

  "It's not thing about me liking it or not! It's about Yoona! What if..." Felix was about to say when Hyunjin interrupted.

   "And what if it's us?" He asked.

Hyunjin finally lost his mind. Waking up from it, he sat straight.

   "Nevermind! What's done is done!" He said. "I won't tease them now! Fine by me!" He added.

   Felix looked at him as if he wanted to say something. But he preferred staying quite.

    After an hour Yoona was done with her studies. Seungmin made everything easy for her.

   "It's all to you Seungmin! Thanks a lot!" She giggled. "If you tutor me I guess I can top the class!"

   "Sure you should try! I'll love seeing you in top students!" Changbin said.

    Changbin left his work to Chan and Jeongin and was now monitoring two couples present there. Two? You ask! Lee know and Han! They were devotedly watching dance auditions and laughing and making fun of them. They didn't asked for any other interruption and were completely isolated as if there was any wall separating them from other world.

     Seungmin was happy now as if the thunder clouds passed by and he now wanted to see his best friend.

    "Aren't you done Hyunjin?" He asked with loud voice.

    "Ah, yes yes!" Replied Hyunjin.

    Hyunjin and Felix walked out of room and Seungmin noticed there was something off between them. He wanted to ask but he though it might not be good to ask directly. It's better if he asks him in private.

   Letting Chan And Jeongin do work alone seven of them started playing games on Yongbok's PC. One by one exchanging, and all the remaning person monitoring how well other person play.

In the evening everyone left.

   "Why you two looked like you faught?" Seungmin asked finding them alone.

   "We faught?" Hyunjin asked.

   "Yes, like did something happened between you and Felix?" Seungmin questioned.

   "Why you feel that?" Hyunjin asked.

   "Oh, I just felt something was off!" Seungmin answered.

    Hyunjin remained silence and Seungmin didn't asked further.

   When Felix was being serious about Yoona, Hyunjin did wanted to ask him somethings. But he couldn't! Seeing him with that quite face Felix started explaining himself.

   "You guys already tease Yoona! I just thought even if I ask them to be here for studies, you guys would have teased her saying he and she will be alone in room!" He laughed a little. "Thinking of it yeah I didn't said that thing!" He giggled mischievously.

   "And won't they say it for us?" Hyunjin asked as if it was normal question. To think for Hyunjin, it was slip of toung. He was mesmerized with a moment he was spending with Felix. As if he might have lost his senses he was talking foolish.

   "Why would they even say it for us?" Felix laughed.

    Hyunjin stood up beside him as if he wanted to hold Felix's coller. Felix looked at him. "what?" He asked.

   Hyunjin was breathing heavily as if he just lifted a heavy thing. His hand in air stayed there as if he was restricting his actions, and his eyes seemed as if he will cry. Felix looked at him. He wanted to ask but he couldn't. He moved back as if Hyunjin was going to fall.

   Hyunjin got back on his sit. Both of them sat quite for a while. Hyunjin wanted to apologise, for what he don't know. And Felix didn't wanted to mention a thing about what happened.

   Felix asking question like that, Hyunjin felt sudden pain in his heart. Did he not even get what he feels for him. Does he never saw him that close to him just like how he does. Did Felix never felt the same way as he did. Did Felix never thought of him of anything else.

   Both were there but no one was willing to talk. The videos get scrolled, viewed but none of them was paying attention.

   'Why I'm doing this?' Hyunjin thought to himself. 'How this became so bad that I can't control myself!' He was blaming himself the whole time looking at screen. 'What if he never feels the same way! But why I want him to feel the same way! Aren't my feelings for me and his for him! Why I lose myself. Why I let go of myself. Why!'

    'I have him and that's all what I want. Even if there's nothing more between us. I won't lose him. I don't want to!"

Blaming oneself is one of a thing a person does in loving.

    'He didn't meant by it, right!' Felix thought to himself. 'Even if I think, this isn't right! To think of me, about him, like this! So stupid of me.'

   The two fools sat there without speaking a word. And this silence was broke by Seungmin's call.

    "Hyung, why did you talked about bet in front of Yoona?" Han asked as they walked together.

    "Ah, that! I just wanted to see her reaction!" Minho laughed.

    "Still! and Even you lied! You even was thinking of was to keep them together! Wasn't you!" Han walked in front.

    "Yoona and Seungmin! I do feel something's between them!" Han said.

    "Of course there is!" Lee know answered.

    "But you know, the thing is, they both don't wanna ask other out. In case, if the other person will never talk back to them!" He added.

    "But, if it's visible to all of us, why they can't feel it themselves!" Han asked.

    "There's the thing Han-ah! You need to accept first! The four of them don't want to accept that they are lovable!" Minho said.

    "They just think of other person as highly and almighty!" He laughed a little.

    "So they forget, the person can also call in love and especially with them." He answered.

    Worrying about other things Han didn't noticed Minho said four people and not only two about whom only, he was talking about.

     "Chan Hyung!" Jeongin who was walking with Chan asked.

     "Yes!" Chan answered.

     "So what are we doing exactly for our special performance?" Jeongin asked.

     "Bin said, we will be doing a new song!" He answered.

     "New song? Like brand new?" Jeongin asked.

     "What is brand new Jeongin?" Chan asked.

     "Like, we will produce a new theme, no no! We will produce new tune? New music? New lyrics?" He looked at Chan. "That kind of?"he added.

     Looking at Jeongin's curiosity Chan laughed.

    "Yes that kind of!" He replied.

    "So you and Changbin Hyung will made this song for us!" Jeongin said happily.

    "Ah kind of like that. We will Include you guys too!" Chan replied.

    "This really seems so much fun!" Jeongin said.

     The three group walked home in different ways.

    Next day Chan told them all giving them list to let them know that they are selected. And now it was time for selecting what performance to do. He created a group which has almost 300 students in it. Including eight of secret performance members. Chan made all eight of them as admin and Ahn too as a support for Yoona.

     It was all done between half of the day. In recess when Bong and Yoona was sitting, who were being monitored by Seungmin. Seungmin saw Yoona's eyes widen as if she saw something. But her eyes were wandering to find something. It's like she smelled something exciting. To say, Seungmin saw Yoona's clouds with brightest sunlight over there.

    She was looking for something and there came Ahn.

    "What was it?" Yoona asked.

    "What?" Ahn asked.

    "That voice! What was it?" Yoona looked at her with exciting eyes.

     "Are you that sensitive?" Ahn asked laughing looking at her.

     "No, but what is it?" Yoona looked excited. And now Seungmin was excited too.

     Ahn took out her pouch with hanging keychain over there. The keychain was metalic, it wasn't bell but sounded like bell when slightly bang with each other. And the less noice it makes its hard to hear.

   But Ahn was surprised to see someone actually noticed. She thought only a cat could hear such low tuned voice. She hand over her pouch to her to have better look. Bong too looked at it.

    "Aren't they couple one?" Bong asked.

    "Couples?" Yoona asked. And her eyes moved to Seungmin who was looking at her.

    Even though he knew she was looking at him, he didn't diverted his gaze. As if he was ready to confess. To be clear about what he feels.

    Yoona looked back at what she was looking at.

    "Ah, they were there! and look!" she showed her bag ,"I got my couple keychain there!" She laughed.

   "Oh!" Bong and Yoona started teasing her that she is engaged with studies.

   Later, at the end of day, When Chan called everyone Seungmin and Hyunjin left with Yoona.

   "Why do you have that long face for whole day?" Asked Yoona.

   "What?" Hyunjin asked. "Me?"

   "Yes you!" Yoona answered. "Don't you think Seungmin?" She asked.

   "I don't know if I should say!" Seungmin gave a look at Hyunjin.

   "What?" Hyunjin asked.

   "It's since yesterday, he looks down!" Seungmin said.

   "Did something happen?" Yoona asked.

   "I too wanted to know!" Seungmin added.

   "What are you two even talking about!" Hyunjin avoided the question.

   "I'm fine, I don't know what you guys talking about!" He said. 

    And soon they reached to library where Chan summoned them.

    After setting up, each of them looked toward Chan as if he was going to declare war. And as a habit Seungmin sat beside Yoona.

   "Don't look at me like that! First sit at ease!" Chan said looking at his table.

   And everyone dropped their straight back as if now they are free from sin.

   "What's our theme Chan Hyung?" Yoona asked.

   "That's what we are going to discuss!" Said Changbin.

    Ah! The 'so so' look was given by everyone.

    "For our song theme," Chan said, "we thought about this, We first decided it as inspiration or say one who will make you run in morning!" He giggled. "But, it might be tough for the first song! So!!" He looked at everyone.

    "Bin and I decided it to be the song for 'First love' !" and he clapped. Followed by Changbin and then Jeongin.

    "Nice theme Hyungs!" Jeongin said.

    "Nice of you to think about that!" Minho said.

    "This is perfect song for farewell. I remember we still have couple in class who haven't confessed yet!" Lee know giving secret stares to three of them said.

    Chan laughed a little. "oh, kind of inspirational." Making his way to put his words, "inspiration for proposal!"

   After him settling down ( laughing alone at his joke ),  followed by side eyeing of everyone he said, "it was Changbin's idea. We are here to ask your thoughts on that!" He continued.

   "About that, you know!" Changbin stood up, "I thought if we all are going to write, this is the topic almost everyone can relate to!" He looked at everyone.

   "You know, it's normal for everyone to fall in love in this age. And everyone possibly might have one in front of them. The crush you say!" He was explaining it very well.

    "So to make it easy, I think this is the best theme. To you guys and to the one who will be listening!" He explained!

    Everyone was in question, but it was understandable. First love is what everyone have experienced once.

    "Hyung, it's exactly first love or crush!" Han asked.

     "Isn't first love and crush the same thing?" Changbin asked.

      "No, why are you even bringing the topic if you don't even know what is difference between crush and first love?" Jeongin said.

      "Aren't those the same thing!" Changbin said.

      "No, when you like someone firstime it's first love. And when you don't propose it's crush!" Lee know said.

      "What! What?" Changbin asked.

      "Well aren't really they same thing?" Minho said.

      "That's what I'm saying!" Changbin said.

      "No,...." As Lee know was going to say something, he stopped and started looking into air.

      "Wait..!" He said.

      Seeing him Everyone looked amazed. Yoona too then sign them to be quite.

      "It's Ahn!" Yoona said.

      And they all went silent.

      "Here you are!" Ahn came within minute.

      Everyone looked at Yoona with amazed eyes.

      She walked toward Seungmin who was sitting beside Yoona.

      "Why you guys are so amazed?" Ahn asked.

      "Actually teacher told me to find Seungmin. So Bong told me Chan-nim called everyone in library." She looked at everyone.

     "Did I interrupted anything?" She asked.

     "Oh no no, " Chan said.

     "We were just in thinking mode. Nothing else!" He added.

      "Can I help with something?" Ahn asked.

     "Ah, we are just confuse about what performance should be done!" Chan showed a little disappointment. Where everyone else started to talk with the person beside them.

    "It's first time I'm so confused !" Chan added.

    "There's so many people and I don't know what exactly to do." He sat straight.

     "So yeah! We are thinking about that!" He laughed a little.

     "If I get any I'll share you some ideas!" She laughed.

     And Seungmin and Ahn left the room.

      "So where were we, " Minho said.

     "First love," han replied.

     "Yes, if the first love isn't confessed, it remains as crush!" Minho said.

     "Do it really have to be first love?" Jeongin asked.

     "What ?" Han asked.

     "No, crush can not be same person as first love. Like you can move on from first love and have crush on other person too!" Said Jeongin.

     "Ah yes, but first love will always be first crush right!" Minho said.

      "What I was saying is ..." He made sure to recieve Yoona and Hyunjin's attention. Hyunjin who was sitting quite all the time.

      "You have to act if you want to make your first crush your first love." He looked at Han then.

      "Or it will just remain as crush." He smiled.

    The meeting was dismissed leaving Hyunjin and Yoona behind.

    The day of Sunday, when Chaewon was outside with her friends. She found a keychain that looked cute to her. She found that it was for couples. Thinking of which she could only think of Seungmin. She bought it thinking about giving this to Seungmin and keep one for herself.

    But as she came back home she couldn't think of any reason why should Seungmin accept this. And so she attached one to her bag. And another to her school pouch.