Chapter 42

Time passed really fast and in a few months, I will celebrate my fifth birthday. My daily activities are still a similar boring routine where I need to attend a class in the morning and get tortured (physically or mentally).

My current class is etiquette, swordsmanship, magic, alchemy, economy, politics and embroidery. It was to make me into a perfect noble. But of course, I keep messing around in front of the teachers so they won't be able to be able to know about my real ability.

I'm glad that I still remember how to act like a low-profile character from the books that I read in my past life. Although some of them are the main characters that trying to hide their true skills. Like how they said 'pretending to be a pig to eat the tiger', I need to be patient and hide my strength to be able to run away from this place.

Currently was the last week of the sixth month and also the last week of the summer. The hot weather started to become colder. And it was three months before my fifth birthday. A lot of things have happened to me.

I have learned the basics of magic and alchemy and understand the key points of the things that I need to know. For example, in magic, people in this world are unable to use other attributes that didn't correspond with their bodies. And in alchemy, it was similar to chemistry in my previous world with the addition of magic to make a complete reaction.

At first, I think that I will be able to use some ingredients that I know in the lab to create some useful things for my beauty like lotion, soap or shampoo. As I think that if I act in front of my alchemy as a magic-less person, he will lose his interest in me. But what happened is he became more interested in me because he never met a person without any magic before.

It was really scary because I feel like he would cut my body open to satisfy his curiosity. But I still feel grateful for his class because it teaches me how to make some medicine. As I never try to pour any magic into the magic circle in the laboratory, I never finish it in my class. But I took some of it to my room and finish the procedure in my room.

Lately, I realized that the alchemy teacher started to follow me in secret. Sister Ancelina had caught him stalking me or when Brother Winslow found him loitering around near my room. What a stalker. And the worse part was because he was a mad scientist type.

It has been a year but I have not seen that strange dreams again. Although I hope that I will able to see that strange dreams again and learn something new from Shia. It was as if I get a professional teacher that understands my condition.

Finally, I finished writing my bromance story. I bind it together and hide it in a safe place. Wow! It has been so late. I decided to go to sleep.

***

"...you?! ...are you...?"

I hear someone speaking. It was an unfamiliar voice and it was a young man's voice. As I open my eyes, I couldn't see anything. As if I enter a pick darkness place, I could see nothing. The only thing that I could do is listen to the voice carefully and hope there will be a way out from this darkness.

"I'm...I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. You can blame me for everything. You can hate me if you want. I will do whatever you wish for. But please...please open your eyes. Please speak to me. I don't care even if you say bad things to me. Please... Please don't leave me..."

As if someone is mourning, his voice sounds so sad. Even I who listen to it started to become sad. He keeps weeping sadly and telling the other person to wake up.

Throb.

My heart is hurt as if something grabbing or trying to squeeze it. I feel hard to breathe but I keep moving closer to the voice. Something seems to be pushing me to go and see the source of that voice. But when I get closer, my feet start to lose their power. I still trying to go even though I need to drag my body.

"I'm so sorry. It was my fault. Right, everything is my fault. I'm really so sorry. I'm sorry to not understand what you told me at that time. I promise you that I would listen to you. Why??? Why do you do this? I...I..."

The closer I get to the voice, the more pressure that I could feel on my whole body. It was painful and sad. Hearing the weeping voice I feel as if someone is ripping my heart to pieces. But strangely I keep moving to get closer to that voice.

After being tortured by such feelings, I reach a bright place. The light blind my eyes that adapt to the darkness. But I still try to look at the person that weeping so sadly.

I tried to look at him but I can't see his appearance clearly. What I could see was his silhouette. A man that had been drenched by blood and he was crying while embracing a headless body. I was frozen when I saw it. But my surroundings started to get blurry.

"I will find a way to meet you again. This time I promise you that I would let you know that I...I always love you. I don't care if you hate me and refuse my confession. Just let me stay near you and watch you live happily. I want to see your smile again even if it wasn't for me. I will accept it as my punishment if you wish for it. Wait for me, I will definitely save you."

A bright light suddenly flashed. It was so blinding and I close my eyes.

***

When I opened my eyes again, I saw the familiar ceiling. I wake up from that dream.

Throb. Throb.

My heart still feels hurt. I raise my body and sit on my bed.

Drip.

My tears suddenly drop down from my cheeks.

'Eh?! This is strange. Why can't I stop crying?'

I try to stop my tears but for some reason, this sudden sadness prevents me from stopping my tears. Is it because of that dream? But who is that man? Could it be that strange dream again?

When I try to stop my tears, but suddenly someone opens my door.

"Young Miss this is bad!" Sister Ancelina come into my room in a hurry.

As she opened the door rashly, I didn't have any preparation to hide my current state.

"Oh my goodness! What happened to you? Why are you crying?" Sister Ancelina became panicked because she saw me crying.

"I don't know what happened but I couldn't stop my tears. I also feel so sad. I..."

I want to tell Sister Ancelina about what happened but I stop talking as I saw someone coming from the open door.

"Did that person make you cry like this?" Sister Ancelina makes a rash conclusion and gets out of the room to capture that mysterious person.

"Wait, Sister Ancelina!" I try to stop her but she runs quickly to chase that person.

Before I am able to chase her, I was stopped by something more scary than anything. Brother Winslow seems to be angry as he saw me crying.

"So, what happened now?" Brother Winslow asked with a low tone.

"Brother Winslow, it's not like what you are thinking. I don't know what happened but I couldn't stop my tears from the time I woke up this morning. And umm...could you help me to chase Sister Ancelina that chasing unknown person?" I try to ask him to help me to stop Sister Ancelina.

"Haaa, here is your breakfast. Eat this first and wait here." He told me to eat and wait in my room as he chase Sister Ancelina.

The shock that caused by both of them seems to stop my tears. I could only silently eat my breakfast while looking at the corridor.

Only after a few minutes have passed, both of them come back.

"What are you thinking when you do that?" Brother Winslow angrily said to Sister Ancelina.

"I think that he caused our Young Miss cry... Don't you know that person is the person that keep stalking our Young Miss before?... Uh...I'm sorry for troubling you..." At first Sister Ancelina try to give her reason but she stops it and apologizes to Brother Winslow.

"So, could you tell me what really happen now?" He asked with low tones.

Sister Ancelina and my interrogation started. I explained to both of them about the reason for my tears. They did not believe me at first but after I told them about the strange dream that I saw. Both of them were surprised with my story and I feel a bit awkward. Luckily I was able to run away because of my class.

I'm glad that I could run away from that awkward situation and I arrived at the laboratory with a heavy feeling. From what I heard from Sister Ancelina's words before, I think that my alchemy teacher is the mysterious person that we saw in the morning.

I gathered my courage and open the laboratory room.

"Good morning, teacher. Could I ask you something before we start our class?" I asked.

"As long as it won't take too much time to answer it." The alchemy teacher answered lazily.

"Then could you tell me why do you keep following me?" I asked about the things that I want to know.