Jealousy?

Lucas

I keep turning and tossing.

Thoughts of my mother keep coming up to my head and the fact that I failed her is all I can think about.

My father might be a heartless motherfucker but he is right.

I am pathetic and not a good leader.

I had the stone and I didn't protect it well enough. I assumed that my pack was safe and covered. I assumed that no one would ever break in.

I have lived my life as a fearless Alpha and I thought the outside world would see the same things my pack members do.

"Fuck," I sit up on the bed and run my fingers through my hair.

I don't want to go looking for Gabriel but I also don't want to be alone right now. Gabriel literally flirted with the front desk lady to get out of sharing a room with me.

Am I such a bad person?

"Hell Lucas, now you are fucking bringing yourself down." I say to myself "Now you are talking to yourself."