Convincing him

Luther

What did I expect? 

I knew she would figure it out.

Lucinda is one of the smartest people I know. She must have known the whole year Brandon was here. She must have known before I even knew.

And now, I have hurt her, in the worst way possible. I should feel more remorse, I should go out and chase her.

This is Lucinda, my partner. We have been through a lot together, but she has never made me feel the way he does and that is why my regret is minimal.

Brandon is here, he is clinging unto me, and I can tell he is afraid that I would push him away--choose her. I don't plan on letting him go, I meant what I said.

I am choosing him.

I just have to find a way to bridge the chasm I've created with Lucinda. The pain in her eyes lingers in my thoughts, and even though my heart is resolute about choosing Brandon, the guilt of hurting someone who once meant the world to me is undeniable.