Rainfall Reverie

The downpour outside this lonely cafe,

Hammers the pavement in disarray.

It drums up forgotten feelings of melancholy,

As I sip bitter tea absent company.

The rain cascades in endless sheets,

Obscuring the street, saving only fleets

Of memories flowing back from their repression,

Stirred up now with each splash and percussion.

Through the blur outside car lights streak,

Looking for warmth, companionship to seek.

But I remain here wrapped in solitude,

Detached observer of the rain's rude

Intrusion into this safe enclosed space,

Where I try to calm my whirling mind's pace.

But the deluge stirs up emotions washed away,

Remnant of that tempestuous yesterday.

When love was full and my heart aglow,

Passion burned bright, chasing shadows below.

Two flames entwined in ecstasy's dance,

Then parted too swift leaving lingering trance.

Now alone with cooling bitter tea,

I wish for the whiskey's numbing glee.

To drown recollections in fermented Dream,

And halt the past's unrelenting stream.

But intoxication brings no solution,

Only delays the needed revolution

Of healing and finding empowered mind,

No longer to pain and anguish consigned.

So I sip this harsh awakening brew,

To rouse my senses once blurred in you.

Pave way for new path of self-transformation,

Rise a phoenix from the flame's cessation.

Outside the downpour shows no cessation,

Just endless skies of precipitation.

Soaking the city in its chilly veil,

As my own tears inwardly sail.

Cascading from broken dam deep within,

Where our love's ruins exist surrounded by din

Of haunting echoes of joy once held,

Now lost in deluge my heart expelled.

The rain prattles on with no rhythm or reason,

Like this melancholy haunting heart's treason.

But I strive now to quiet its strengthening pour,

With self-love's shelter my wounds toBandage.

By drinking this brew of clarity and truth,

I'll excavate my inner light's sleuth.

Find strength to go on beyond love now past,

A new horizon unveiled at last.

For these tears hold power to cleanse and restore,

If I open up and barricade no more.

With honesty and courage I can command

My independent fate, take my life in hand.

The downpour continues its noisy crusade

But cannot wash away the choice I made,

To tap the well of wisdom within,

And transform rain's ruin to growth again.

By facing the pain of loves now fled,

I'll raise empowered mind from sorrow's bed.

The storm outside cannot forever pour,

When shields of insight now grace my door.

The clouds will part and sun prevail,

As understanding helps me curtail

The loneliness and ache I feel inside,

When I embrace my truth with pride.

For I will take this rain's upheaval,

As cue I need not stay feeble.

With compassion for past and eyes forward cast,

I'll emerge refreshed, renewed and steadfast.

No longer lost in tea or drink or haze,

I'll walk ahead through sunlit days.

The downpour loud but ephemeral,

When wisdom lights my way eternal.

So for now I'll sit here with tea's brew,

Allow the rain its turbulent spew.

Feel the loss, the loneliness, the longing ache,

But know brighter mornings soon awake.

As healing washes over wounds so tender,

To mend my heart, make me stronger, wiser.

Though past love left, new horizons await,

If I walk forward bold through the rain's weight.

Onwards ever onwards I will go,

Toward unknown realms still left to know.

Armed now with insight rain revealed,

Any storm can be weathered and healed.

The showers will pass as all things must,

Leaving my spirit renewed from each gust.

So I welcome the rain's loud reverie,

Knowing it brings reflection and clarity