I was desperately trying to call my girlfriend, but she didn't pick up my phone for the last 3 days, I was so distributed that I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't go to her home, her family is very wealthy and she hide the fact that I was her boyfriend.
she knows her father would kill me if he find out I was her boyfriend, we know our destiny and still want to spend out together, even if it's just a dream but it is a beautiful dream.
we continue dating, and we know we have to get separated one day, everything was fine, but one day she stop calling me.
when I getting ready for work, I got her message she invited me to meet with her at the cafe, I didn't care about my work, I want to see her first before anything else.
when I was driving I kept thinking about the past, I was trying to remember did I make a mistake in my past, but nothing strike me, I was nervous and happy to see her again, I don't know how I am going to stay alive without her.
I open the cafe door, and she was looking at the table, her eyes are red like she cried a lot, and she was hesitating to look into my eyes.
I didn't say anything, I just take sit and I was hoping she would tell me something but she didn't say anything.
I couldn't bear her silence I hate to see her in pain, I want to share her pain.
I start a conversation, I ask what happened to her and how I get surprised when she messages me.
she start to speak, and she told me that she is pregnant.
I was so shocked, I couldn't believe my ears, I ask her again, and her answer was still the same, I was ready to be the father of my child, I was ready to talk with her father, I was ready to fight the world for her and my child.
I console her, hold her and rub her hand to calm her, her hand was shaking, and it made me nervous and sad, I want to take her every pain away.
she was shaking like she was on a rollercoaster, she finally reveal her whole truth.
she told me, the baby she carrying in her belly is someone else because we never had sex, she told me she was at the party, but because of a hangover she didn't remember what happened at the party, the next day she check her self, she finds out she was pregnant.
I was about to leave my body, and now I lose my will to fight for her, her dad will eventually find out she is pregnant and the child she is carrying is not mine, but he will kill me for dating her.
she was waiting for my answer, I don't know what happen, she run off, I didn't know to follow her, I got from the airport for my duty, at this moment I don't understand what should I do, I was so confused.
I just calm my mind and tried to focus on my work, I can talk to her later.
It was too much for me to handle, but I take a deep breath and enter my office, I was a pilot, and before the fight, I was waiting.
my co-worker is also a pilot, she is very shy, she is so cute, every boy asks her out, and she couldn't gain enough confidence in herself.
whenever I look at her and whenever she is with me I feel so relaxed, I act normal and sit next to her, I act happy like usual, I don't want to make her worry about me.
she was also acting differently, I thought she want to tell me something, but before I could say something, she kiss me on my lips, it was a passionate kiss, I couldn't move a bit, it was my first kiss, I don't know what to do.
I was so lost, I didn't someone enter my office, it was my girlfriend she saw me kissing my co-worker.
when I think that how she felt, watching her boyfriend kissing another girl when she was pregnant and don't know what her father does to her and that child.
she started crying, it hurt to see her cry when I was the reason, I felt guilty, I tried to speak but I don't know what to speak.
" why you are doing that to me, god, why did you kiss her, do you have any idea what I have been through, I am already depressed and now I am getting cheated on by that person whom I thought will understand me and help me to overcome"
I don't know but now I get sudden anger, I felt what wrong I did, she was the one who got pregnant, she was the one who cheat on me when I am trying to understand things, and she kiss me, I am not the one who asks her to kiss me, I don't understand what I have done, I got angry on her she left the office, it was raining heavily, thunder was clashing, it seems like nature was matching my mood.
I look at the sky and I saw a big eye, which only I can see, I was so scared and got unconscious, I open my eyes in an ambulance.
I can sense my wing was dying to open, it was hard for me to handle my condition, it's feel like the memory of the past is coming back to me, which make me scared.
I look outside from the window, it was raining, and for the first time I felt fear in my heart, everyone look surprised they look at me and start to wonder what I am trying to do, before I can say anything I get unconscious again, but when I open my eyes I have committed a great sin