13#
"Anything else?" I looked at him expectantly.
"No... maybe we kissed the wrong way."
"What?"
"Judy, please open your mouth a little more."
I froze.
14#
Lucas was asleep.
After kissing me for more than half an hour, he was tired.
Damn, I wanted to beat him!
I had cooperated with him for so long in vain. He didn't remember anything.
Damn!
I got up and went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette. There was a wind at night, and the corner of my red silk pajamas was blown up. The air was filled with the smell of tobacco and flowers.
I hadn't smoked or worn red for three years just because Lucas liked simple and innocent girls.
.
I had followed Paisley's example, wearing a white cotton dress, quitting smoking, and cooking for him.
But a substitute was always a substitute. No matter how much I tried to imitate, I couldn't become someone else.