A truly normal world

My ultimate goal has been for a really long time to create a truly normal world, a world which has freedom of potential and meritocratic principles that can only be achieved with the prerequisite of making the shared vision/narrative of the world within the collective consciousness to be about having the necessary hope and faith to then allow themselves individually to be inspired.

Wondering where this goal came from, I thought back on my childhood and compared my perception of existence back then compared to now.

I myself seem to have projected my own failure to have hope and faith necessary to be inspired myself, and believed that what I needed was to eliminate the distractions around me in order to not waver back into my recent tendency to be cynical.

Instead, I should just see the world as a good place despite the burdensome knowledge I have that tells me otherwise, in order to align my perception of existence to mimic that of from when I was a child, with accounting for the sensibilities of the fact that real issues that do matter within my own life need to be taken on but not necessarily have to expect myself to fall from grace every time I am confronted by malevolence.

I want to be the type of person who is unwaveringly faithful towards his focused, personal relationships, but I can't even allow myself a sense of 'personalness' without first having faith in the world being a place I already belong to, regardless of what forces have infiltrated it, instead of the world itself being bad.

Immediately, I feel freer just from practicing this, and right now, I'd like to practice this future through a hyper-immersive imagination, hopefully with this being the last prerequisite practice I had to do to be capable of honest daydreams:

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I wake up in a fictional, fantasy version of Hell, one that is more like another earth or region rather than anything suffering related.

I find myself in a king sized bed, and the sheets are made of silk, as the Maroon red walls of the bedroom give me a sense of where I am.

"What's going on? Where am I?"

The bed being comfortable, I get out of it slowly. When I place my feet in the wooden floor board ground, it feels solid and cool.

The space in the bedroom is absurdly large, the volume for this single empty room with nothing but a bed and bedside tables is at least the size of a double story building.

When I make my way to the large double doors that are closer to the left of the wall opposite from the bed I was laying in instead of perfectly centred, and beyond it I can hear the sound of a girl singing.

It sounds so good, I wonder if it's coming from a speaker, but I know the difference between an actual person's presence in their voice and an mp3.

I crack a peak through the door carefully to get a secured view of the surroundings beyond this room, and I see a girl playing a video game that seems to be a cross between karaoke and Just Dance, called "Idol Stage 2025", and she seems to be going through a mash up of different nightcore songs.

I like nightcore, so I really want to join in, but I don't want to be seen as an intruder if I am an intruder, since I have no idea how I got here in the first place and if anyone here knows I'm here.

*squeek*

"Hm?"

The door made noise, she turned around and saw me peaking through the gap in the bedroom doors.

I make myself known by walking out, shyly saying "Hello… Um, where am I?".

She's the most angelic and beautiful girl have seen in years, accounting for everything I've seen on the internet as well, so she's definitely an 11/10.

Strange thing about her is, that although shes wearing a regular t-shirt and pants which I am familiar with, it's this house where she lives that's really out of proportion.

The hallways are massive too, and the wall opposite to the door behind the furniture infront of me is just glass like in an apartment suite or whatever the name is, but it's just so large as well.

Beyond the glass I see only empty sky, blue, so we must be really high up for me to not be able to see the ground in the distance from here.

"Oh wow! You're awake!!", she rushes over to me mid-game to greet me, "Hello~".

"Hello."

"Come over here, let's play this game together!", she grabs my hand.

Although I would usually expect myself and others to just force the situation into a beginning of having my questions be answered, I feel like the right thing to do right now is to just go with the flow of what I believe to already be the situation I am in by vibes alone, rather than logic as usual.

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