Chapter 34 - Hana's Conflicted Emotions (Edited)

Hana is now inside Gon's room. The moment she closed the door, her body slumped down on the floor.

Her back pressed to the door, her palm pressed firmly in her chest, feeling the fast beating of her heart.

"Why, why can I find it in my heart to accept this situation?"

"He already has Merlin, and there will likely be more in the future..."

"Is this his ability at work, making me more accepting of it all?"

"And it's strange that I feel okay when he said he was peeking at me using his abilities without feeling violated."

She closed her eyes, lost in thought, her mind involuntarily imagining Gon beside an unseen woman. 

The image makes Hana's heart feel pain, like being squeezed, but there is another weird sensation, a warm, rising desire mixed with the pain.

'Why am I feeling this way? Is it normal?' 

'I feel like I want to pull them apart, yet something holds me back, something that … enjoys it.'