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I was woken up by cheerful chattering and blissful music, despite the grand mood that is radiating in the air my mood is as sour as hell. I want to get out of bed and continue to pretend as I have done for the past few days but my legs can't seem to move an inch. I have exhausted every will power left in me, all the constant prayers, constant cries just to be denied of the one thing I long for the most, a wedding.

All my peers are married and my younger sister is getting married today. What did I ever do to the Adams generation to be punished do dearly. None of the men I meet are willing to stay with me. There was Tom, who ruthlessly took my virginity and left me with a browsed heart. And don't even get me started on William that son of a b**ch promised me heaven and earth, I even took the initiative to introduce him to my parents and the whole society. Infact it was the whole world. I posted the guy on every social media account I possessed and guess what he did, left me not only heart broken but also one the greatest laughing stock of all time. The list just goes on and on. And they all have the same ending they left me broken.

After a long internal debate, I woke up and went down to the busy kitchen. The wedding wasn't going to be huge just a few relatives and some friends hence only my mom and some of our aunties were the ones cooking.

the joyful chattering paused as I entered the kitchen. I plastered on one of my fake smiles and waved hello. praying that I'd quickly make my breakfast and get out of there.

one of my ever so loud aunties came rushing to give me a hug. She kept on ranting about just how amazing my sister was, not even giving me the chance to make my breakfast. All the talk about my sister's righteousness just made feel like puking but I had to fake and pretend as if everything was okay. So as to not be labeled as the bad person, but what if I was. What if I wanted to be the one who was getting married, what if I wanted to poison here food and watch her die, what if I wanted to jeopardise her relationship with Michael and have him all to myself, what if I was jealous.