Jang mi's gaze immediately went up to him.
She thought, how she never wanted anyone to know how fragile she was. She always tried to act brave and strong in front of people when in reality she could never save herself and her mother from her father. But, Jae young has already seen her in her most pathetic state.
He was the only person who she shared her any embarrassing secrets with. he was the person who already knew what she was so what if he would know a little more?
From her quietness, he guessed the answer and said,
"So, he has". He already knew it was obvious, but he himself didn't know why he asked her.
Yes he has. Many times. There are scars on my body that will never go. If anyone would see they'll know how much it must have hurt. She thought. It is so old but still whenever I look at it, it hurts. She wanted to say but instead lowered her eyes and let him guess the obvious answer.
He walked over to the right side near his bed while Jang mi stayed at her place. A moment later, he again appeared in front of her.
The flash of metal drew her attention as she saw a dagger in his hands that he was presenting to her. It was a medium sized,silver dagger with tantalizing ivory handle that looked heavy.
She raised her eyes and looked at him intently waiting for him to speak. He didn't say anything with his lips when he lifted his hand tightly and tucked the dagger into her belt inside her wide coat.
Her eyes grew wider as she slightly lifted her arms in the air gazing at him dumbfounded. She forgot how his touch and the warmth of his body could make her heart pound.
Moving back,he spoke.
"This is one of my favourite creations. I never used it specifically but I can assure you it is very sharp and holding it in your hands will make you want to use it." She was still looking at him in perplexity with her brows up. "I'm giving this to you so you can use it."
"What?" Jang mi was still not sure how he wanted her to use that weapon.
"If someone says something that doesn't sound pleasing to your ears, cut their tongue."He said, leaving her dumbfounded."If someone tries to raise their hands against you, make sure you don't leave those arms to use again."
"And you can scratch all the faces that give you disgusted look."
Woah! Jang mi's brows lifted higher. Is that what you do! She thought. She finally got what he wanted or tried to say.He didn't want her to tolerate her father's or anyone's brutal behaviour towards her. Deep inside she wished she could do what he just said.
But she thought, Maybe she wasn't bold enough to do something like that. I wish,I could be like him. Jang mi frowned at her own thought. Thinking why would she think like that? Did she really want to be like him ? Probably not.
"You want revenge, right?" He asked. "Revenge is supposed to be taken with cruelty." He wanted her to be a little more stronger and brutal like those people. She remembered her vow.
"I'll not let them live in peace. I vow it mother." And thought she would be a coward to break that vow, that she had given to her mother.
"Now it's your time."He said."I would go with you but,I think you can handle it alone."
Really? She thought. He believes me more than I do even when he had seen how pathetic I am!
"Don't be afraid, Because I'll handle the rest."He told her. "You really don't need to be scared of anyone anymore."
Jang mi was a little scared before how she she was going to face her father but listening to what Jae young said, made her confident. She felt like her father can't hurt her anymore, She was the one who can hurt him. He should be the one to fear
She nodded her head slightly. She wanted to thank him but was not able to find the right words so she stayed quite.
" I'll see you later then."He said. Jang mi shook her head then he left the room and headed to the living room where his guards were standing.
"Take care, that the old man doesn't hurt her." He made sure there should be help available in case she would need it. With that The guards bowed. "Yes, your highness"
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The last time from where she was kicked out, she was standing at the same place, her house , the place that was more like a prison for her and her mother. Everything that had happened there with her, started flashing before her eyes and her eyes teared up.
No! I'll not cry. Not anymore. She thought as she loses her eyes for a few moments and took a deep breath to suppress her emotions that could make her weak.
She took some steps forward and her guards followed her when she stopped and turned to them.
"Stay here. I'll go alone " With that the guards glanced at each other and then bowed their heads.
"Yes, princess consort." Jang mi headed inside and the guards mumbled to others.
"His highness told us to go with her? Shouldn't we go in?"
"We will know if something happens. We are told to stand outside,his can we deny her order?" he nodded.
Meanwhile, Jang mi entered in the house,the memories again started to flash in her mind while she was roaming her head around, glancing at all the corners of the house.The only regret she had in her life was,she couldn't save her mother. Is she wouldn't have been so weak hearted,she should've survived.
Her father was the one who made her like that. All of them were equally responsible for her mother's death but the biggest monster was her father who promised her a happy life and tortured her brutally.
Suddenly, a familiar harsh voice interrupted her thoughts.
"You!" It made her turn around to see her father standing in behind her.
"Are you happy now?! Did you come her to see if I'm suffering or not?!"He fumed in anger,there was a note of familiar anger in his voice,the one she had been a victim of since she could remember.
For a moment,she felt scared and fragile like she always was in front of him, even if she wanted or tried to save herself,she always failed. She clenched her fist when her breathing became shallow then she walked over and stood in front of him,anger burning through him.
"Exactly."She said. A frown crossed his face but his anger remained the same. "I did come to see how alone,helpless you are."Folding her arms across her chest,she continued talking. "But you know what! I'm not satisfied? You're still the same when you should be begging to me right now to save your wife."
He clenched his jaw and roared in anger.
"What do you think? You're something now that you married the 2nd prince?!!"
"Yes, I am"
"No! You're not! You're still a disgrace for me just like your mother!"
"Shut your filthy mouth and apologize right now! Don't you dare take my mother's name in that filthy mouth of yours. Your attitude isn't helping. I guess, you want your lovely wife to rot in the prison for the rest of her life." Jang mi said, smirking.
"Apologize?And you?!!" He yelled and raised his hand to slap her immediately,his eyes turning red when she grabbed his wrist and pushed back his hand. He started breathing shallowly,anger rippling through him.
Jang mi was firm on it that she wouldn't take any of it now, it already had crossed limits ling ago. She glared at him , anger heating her blood again.
Just to show him what she could do, she pulled out the dagger that Jae young gave her and pointed in front of his face. He stumbled and fell down on the ground.
"W-what are you doing?" he stuttered in fear.
"Ask what I can do" she said, fiercely glaring at him.
He was dazed to see how could jang mi point a dagger at him. He thought, she would give up in front of him like always.
"It has just started , Chou geung! I won't stop till you sit on your knees and beg for forgiveness from my mother and me!" Jang mi moved the dagger more closer to his face.
"G-guards!" He managed to raise his voice. His guarda entered and jang mi's did the same.
"What are you looking at? Do something!" He commanded to his guards.
Jang mi wasn't moving her glare away from him. She didn't even look back to see his guards.
His guards gazed at her and then at her guards. They knew she was married to the 2nd prince and was a princess consort now. They knew,they cannot even raise their eyes at a princess consort! They didn't move and stood still at their place.
"What are you doing!!!!" He shouted at his guards while glancing at Jang mi.
"Don't worry, I won't kill you" Jang mi said.
"But, I'll make your life so painful that you'll pray for your death yourself!!" With that, Jang mi's father was seeing something different in her eyes today. They were fearless and furious which made him gulp. Jang mi moved back the dagger and walked away, leaving him stunned. He was looking at her going, with terror in his face.
Once outside, Jang mi let out a heavy breath she was holding, for a moment she felt like she couldn't breath as she put her hand on her chest. Somewhere in her heart, she thought,only if she could be able to do it before, she didn't have to lose her mother.
Later,
In Lord Jae Young's Mansion.
Minhyuk came at the gate and the guard told him,
"Your highness, let me inform first that you have come." With that Minhyuk glared at him in anger.
"How do you dare stop me!???" He raised his hand and pushed him away angrily.
Jang mi was heading to her room when she heard a similar voice calling her. She immediately turned around only to find Minhyuk standing in front of her. Her eyes widened.
Jang mi always thought, how would she feel if someday he would come to her, would stand in front of her and she would have to talk to him. Would she feel something or not? The feelings she had for him were genuine and strong that she feared if he would come back,would she give up herself again?
I hate him
Those were the only words echoing in her head. Her love for him had died the day he left her alone to die.
He approached her with quick steps, holding her hands he said,
"Jang mi."
His brows together, it was hard to tell if it was because of his guilt, love, sadness or just an attempt to have her back so he could be satisfied.
"I missed you so much."
With that he hugged her tightly, making her frown and press her hands on his chest to push him back but he wouldn't let go,his warmth that used to make her feel safe and loved was now making her uncomfortable and angry. With her thin hands she made fists but he still did not release her from that.