Chapter 40 The last thing that I wanted to do

"I'm back home, mom."

She walks over to me sniffling.

I sit down and wipe my eyes. "My only friend… he.. really died! I really wanted to be friends with him."

She looks worried.

I stop crying and relax my shoulder. "Ahhh. I have done it again." I raise my glances at her "Killing him.. that is." I leave out a short breathr and say, "So. Have you eaten?"

She flinches and steps back.

Shadow darken my face. "I told you to eat, didn't i? You'll starve if you don't eat. Starving isn't good for your health."

She says nothing and nods.

"I also haven't eaten anything. Let's go eat, okay?"

We happily sit together to eat. It is very rare that she would sit together with me to eat. Last time.. i ruined it myself. But today i want us to be happy.

Today is a good day.

"Do you want to go outside, mom?"

She only looks at me like a child with googly eyes.

"Don't worry. I might be a little sick but i can go outside with you." I walk closer to her and whisper into her ears. "Unless you exchange another sos letter to another victim."

She has no reaction whatsoever.

I'm happy. She isn't scared of me anymore. I'm so glad! She might even start talking to me someday sooner!

"Let's go!"

I'm going to make today the best day. Last time she fainted. I believe she won't act the same after what happened.

We go to the park to enjoy the breeze. The air gently brushes our hair. But mom doesn't look very happy.

"Are you okay? Do you feel sick?"

She says nothing, keeping her eyes only forward.

'Hmmmmm. If you say nothing I'll never know what you're thinking. Its been 4 months and 21 days since you last talked to me." I purse my lips and frown.

"Anyway. I actually wanted you to buy some clothes for us! Seeing my condition the manager paid me my salary. They are really kind people."

I grab her wrist and go to the shopping mall. The more enthusiastic I'm looking, the more lifeless she looks.

I can't tell what's wrong with her when she makes that face.

"Mom. Do you not like me anymore? After all that i did for you?"

She looks terrified. Well at least she showed some reaction. Its better than nothing.

We have fun buying clothes. This time we bought many. It'll last us for at least another year. Winter included.

"I've some more money. We can either go watch a movie or eat outside. Which one do you prefer?"

She doesn't respond.

My enthusiasm dies. "I see. Mom is scared of me, right?"

She looks up at me sorrowfully.

"In that case." I walk towards the traffic. "If I'm bothering you, I'll just die."

I raise my foot to step forward. She clutches me from behind, rubbing her head on my back.

"Hehe. You still do care for me, don't you? Let's go eat then. I don't think i can cook today."

She stops looking lifeless.

I know her very well. She might never talk to me. She might hit me. She might spit on me. She might strangle me. But she doesn't hate me. She still cares about me.

I'm so so happy that she's my mother.

My happiness knows no bounds. I won't allow anyone to take my happiness away.

I want to be happy with her even if the world might be ending on the other side.

The world might be ending.

Someone must be grieving over their beloved's death. Another must be grieving over their son. One might lose all their hope in life and die. Another might jump into their death. Someone must be punished. Other must be a victim. One must be scratching their head to put things in order.

The other must be enjoying their time as the world ends.

I don't care about anything or anybody.

As long as there is my mother in front of me. It is fine as long as she's within my sights.

The sun sets spectacularly today. I return home with my mom. This time there is no one looking at our ways. No one is in front of our house, trying to take mom away.

I eliminated them all.

Or so what i thought.

"Ms Rosalyn! The police want you to cooperate and come with us."

Mr Xeno. He's here again!

My iris has shrunk.

In infuriation, blood rushes to my head. I hide mom behind my back.

"Mr Xeno! Why?!"

He steps ahead. "Sain. You should move aside. Your mother might be a murderer."

"She is not! I believe her! She can never do that!" I shout as I say.

"Sain! You can be arrested as well for obstructing police's work."

"I don't care! My mom is not a murderer!"

My mom, whom I lovingly hid behind my back, steps forward.

"Mom?"

She outstretches her arms, locking her wrists together.

"Thanks for cooperating with us."

"No! Mom! Why are you doing this! You don't have to worry that the police will arrest me! They can't arrest you either! They have no proof!"

"Who says we don't?" Says Xeno. "We have collected all records of Mr Arran and your mother's affairs."

I stutter with a step back. "That can't be… mom did nothing to Arran… What are you talking about?!"

"In any case." He shoves aside my question and puts the handcuffs on her wrists. "She's the prime suspect. So we'll be arresting her."

His subordinates drag mom in front of my eyes. How could they do such cruel things to us?!

Xeno stands next to me and shows his sympathy. "I'm sorry for all that you've been through, Sain. Your mother is a criminal. It is better that we lock her up in the cell meant for crazy people. And. Don't worry. I'll keep her fed well. You should look forward to your future."

I widen my eyes.

Where did he say he'll keep her?!

The cell meant for crazy people!

I turn around as i see them taking my mother off in a jeep.

I could do nothing!

They took mom away from me before my eyes and i could do nothing!

"Why am i so powerless?! If i had been a bit stronger i could've taken all those polices out! No! Why did i chicken out?! Is it because that Xeno and his subordinates are police and trained?! Why didn't i kill him as well! Why did they do this to me?! Why does everyone do this to me?!"

I scream and cry out.

They took her away! After all i did… they took her away!

My tears stop flushing out.

Haaaaaaah. Now that they have done it. They leave me with no other choice.

My lifeless eyes stare down at my hands.

Those eyes of mine stare at myself, going into the house, grabbing a bag, putting the dagger inside, the metal cuter as well and a few more things.

They left me with no other choice. I'll have to do this now.

This was the last thing that I wanted to do.