delving into his past

I don't know when and how long I fell asleep, but now I woke up with a strange feeling, stunned, numb, looking at the ceiling of this magnificent room. It feels like yesterday I was still in Hawaii with a bitter life, the pressure from Uncle Robert and Darren seemed to make me have no hope of being able to live happily, especially since my mother was seriously ill, but now I'm here feeling happy, but...

'I don't know if this happiness will last long,' I thought worriedly, turning to Charlie who was sleeping next to me with his back to me.

I slowly held his shoulders, recalling what he had done for me since we met.