Chapter- 8; Uncontrolled powers

The heat was increasing significantly as it got closer.

I heard some men shout "water cannon", all it did was vaporize, it barely did anything!

Another person shouted "water seal!". The fire ball that looked like a meteorite was enclosed with water that was constantly evaporating, but to everyone's relief, it disappeared and the newly formed clouds, formed by the steam, started raining heavily.

"Explain yourself Special captain, Esmeray" sub incharge of army, Theos Hawksley shouted.

He was Esmeray's worst enemy. He had water, wind and light attribute.

He and Esmeray were never on good terms because during the war with the monsters of craftsmen forest, Esmeray disobeyed his orders, but ended up being many people's hero and savior, while leaving him behind her shadow.

"It's not her fault, Theos. Special captain has lost her memories. Including her grip on her powers, I believe. She still can use magic but.. she probably didn't even know what she was doing."

Heinrich explained while walking towards us.

"I have heard about that. That only makes her a bigger problem"

'just what was this jerk's problem' I thought.

"I take full responsibility of her from now on. I will train with her regularly to help her regain the control over her abilities and also her memories" Heinrich assured.

Wasn't he just awesome? That jerk stands nowhere near him. He may have orange hair like a cat, but I am not a cat person, hmph!

With that, he left.

Heinrich shot me a murderous glance. "Come to my office, Special captain", so we're going to spend some time alone huh. I tried to keep myself calm. Am I going to find out something new?

After reaching his office, he told me to 'sit down'.

"Now, tell me the truth Esmeray." Heinrich said, with a very serious expression.

"W-what are you talking about" I said while trying to stay calm.

"I know you haven't lost all of your memories, but you still have lost some of them."

"How can you be so sure?" I exclaimed.

"You never asked for my name when I entered your room. You used that spell. On the other hand, you actually didn't remember that we never fought with swords, we fought barehanded because "then no one will be able to say you are good with swords. They will say you are strong yourself."

At that moment Heinrich had... a faint smile on his face? For the first time.. the smile was as if..

"So, how much have you actually forgotten?" Heinrich asked.

I felt like I should give him some information so he doesn't get suspicious of me, but I can't tell him that I am not even Esmeray, ofcourse.

So I told him the only things I remembered- names of some important people, about attributes and that was it.

I knew one more thing though, atleast a slight idea of everything that's about to happen with all of them. So, only I can save them.

My first goal is to change the bad for good. I definitely have an advantage cause I am a doctor, right?

Heinrich said he'd keep my secret and help me regain the memories I have lost.

"You have to be careful and act better though."

He said he'd train me everyday and spend sometime with me to teach me about all the important history, systems, politics and about some people I knew.

Then he told me to not-use any spells without him and told me to rest for the day.

I went to my room and started processing everything that happened. I was overwhelmed and suddenly realized how tired I was. I didn't realize when I drifted into slumber.

I woke up to the pleasant sound of birds chirping. I felt refreshed and got up to ask the maid servants for bathwater.

That's when I happened to look at myself in the mirror. My hair was a mess! But I noticed some intricate marks on my forehead and cheekbones. They were usually covered by the bangs that complimented Esmeray's look. What were those about?

I also noticed similar marks on everyone's face on the exact same positions. Is this something these attribute holders are born with? I decided to find out their meaning later.

Moving on, I quickly got ready as Heinrich had asked me to be prepared for training. Yesterday, I couldn't do anything after draining myself and ended up sleeping for the whole day.

Maybe it's after effects of that spell. Esmeray used such big spell many times, so many times that her mana was completely depleted and she used her life force to continue attacking during the biggest and most important war when the monsters of craftsmen forest attacked in a large scale.

Not to mention that Croydon was victorious because of Esmeray who lost so many people dear to her.

She was on the verge of dying herself due to the extreme mana depletion.

After that, she could only force herself upto a limit. Using those extreme mana requiring spells took a toll on her body, whereas if only she didn't push herself upto that extent during the war, she would've been in a perfect shape.

Using such spells multiple times wasn't a big deal for her. To think even Esmeray had to push herself upto that extent, one cannot imagine the number and strength of those monsters.

As I was overwhelmed by so many thoughts, I felt lonely, I wanted to talk to someone, like I did with Aleridge. More like, I wanted to hear him talk.

He kept me from overthinking after my parents passed away. The only reason I'm alive was because the mannerless guy walked into my room that day.

I chuckled as I was reminiscing and all the memories kept flooding my head. 'When can I see him again? Will I even be able to see him again?'

A tear rolled down my cheek before I even realized. 'Why do I miss him so much? Why do I miss the warmth of his hugs that I have felt only a few times?'

I found myself thinking of him several times which only confused me. Even when I was training, even when I was blending in well with these new people, I only missed him more and more.

After a few days passed, I decided to make a clear goal for myself. I have to make it out of this novel.

I know I will have to look into dark attribute more, if it can anyhow turn things back to normal. I will save as many people as I can while I am here, since I am doctor and swore to save whoever I could. Then, I will make it back to my world, no matter what!