Chapter 5: Doubts

In the ancient feudalism, pay close attention to the woman's honour, unmarried girls will be locked in the embroidery house by their families, even if it is a little bit of kinship with men can not meet casually. Although the Spirit Abyss continent is not the land of China, but look at the division of the family hierarchy here, this kind of thing of etiquette is still bound to exist, right?

Tantai Yan as a door valve noble lady, for the name of the festival certainly look more important than ordinary women, even if because of the identity of the reason must have contact with the man, but ...

In the case of Tantai Yan having a fiancé, why is it that Li Qingyan, who is a vassal of the family, is able to walk into Write Autumn Xuan without any qualms? And why did the family members and maids turn a blind eye to this, as if it were a normal thing?

No matter how open it is, it is not open enough to allow a man to go in and out of the lady's courtyard at will, right?

Pei Si Yan was very curious about what kind of role Li Qing Dye was playing in this house, being able to enter and exit Write Autumn Xuan, being able to get Tantai Yan's absolute trust, her intuition told her - he was not as simple as a vassal.

Pei Si Yan waved her hand to Yun Qi, signalling her to come closer, looking at Li Qing Dye holding a sword, she thought that he must know martial arts. People who know martial arts have very good ears, it would not be good if he hears them.

Yun Qi rounded the book case and stood beside the young lady, asking, "Young lady, what are your orders?"

Pei Si Yan deliberated on what to ask and hesitated for a while before saying, "Li Qing Dye is a vassal of the Tantai family, right? What was my ... relationship with him before? Why does he always follow me around and do this and that for me? And being able to go in and out of the Write Autumn Xuan at will?"

Her series of questions made Yun Qi freeze for a full half minute.

"Didn't hear my questions clearly?" Pei Si Yan scratched her hair and accidentally dropped her white flower hairpin on the ground, making a crisp "ding-zao" sound.

Li Qing Dye turned around and glanced towards the study, Pei Si Yan avoided his gaze as if she had done something wrong and bent down to pick it up. When she sat up, he was talking to Yun Shan about something, too far away to hear.

Pei Si Yan handed the white flower hairpin to Yun Qi and repeated the previous question.

"Miss, Lord Li has been with Miss since she was a child just like the slave girl, in the master's heart Lord Li is much more important than an ordinary retainer," Yun Qi said while inserting the white flower hairpin for Pei Si Yan, "Lord Li ... well. How to say it ... He is a stable and introverted person, and has always done many things for Miss, so Miss licensed him to go in and out of the Write Autumn Xuan as he pleases, and the Master and Lady didn't object to it either."

"Could it be that my parents really don't object at all? Anymore, there's a difference between men and women, ah?"

"Miss, you will have to deal with a lot of people in the future when you inherit the position of Witch Pan, so this is nothing at all."

"How much did my father and I used to think of Li Qingyan? Why do we think so highly of him?" Pei Si Yan asked again, after all, he was the only person she could trust, she had to know more about him.

"This ..." Yun Qi paused, her fingers gripping the corner of her coat, flustered and avoiding her master's gaze, "Slave girl isn't very clear anymore, you never used to talk to slave girl about business."

Pei Si Yan looked at Yun Qi, always feeling that she still had words unsaid and was deliberately hiding them.

"Is that so?" Pei Si Yan aggravated her tone.

Yun Qi nodded her head seemingly innocently, "Yes, miss."

Pei Si Yan annoyingly picked up a book and wanted to smash the table, in the past when she was uncomfortable in her heart, she liked to take her notebook and ruthlessly slap the table to let off some steam/gas. She looked at Yun Qi beside her - forget it, don't smash it, save her from thinking she did something wrong again.

Big families always have all sorts of untold secrets don't they? Anyway, the days to come are long, she will definitely be able to figure it out!

In the next few days, Pei Si Yan, apart from eating, sleeping and bathing, stayed in the study and read, not stepping out of Write Autumn Xuan. Outside everywhere hanging white veil, she looked at the heart is confused, out of sight is better.

Yun Qi and Yun Shan took turns to Pei Si Yan said Tantai Yan previous things, one is to help her recover her memory as soon as possible, the second is to hope that her mannerisms and tone of voice and other things can be more consistent with the previous, according to the away from the light dye one day said words "the clan can see your weirdness at a glance," although the feeling of what he said is not too exaggerated a little bit, but Pei Si Yan had to do the same! The first thing Pei Si Yan did was to start with Li Qingwei.

Pei Si Yan first from away from the light dye there to understand the current situation of the Tantai family, is not there a saying called sitting "know yourself and know your enemy, can be a hundred victories"? But do not ask okay, a question let her head hurt more.

Comprehensive strength, financial strength and other factors in accordance with the big to small to the four major gate rankings, witch Luo family in the first place, followed by witch against the family, witch Pan and witch Li tied for the bottom. The previous generation of Wu Pan, that is, Tantai Yan's father Tantai Yu, was mediocre and average, and had been in a weaker position between years of gate fighting, and as a result, had lost the powerful force that his predecessor had supported. Although the four auxiliary ministers were in high positions of power, they also had to withstand various pressures from other officials, and the Tantai family, which never got much benefit from the competition, was even more defeated.

Pei Si Yan remembered what Tantai Yan had said to her and knew clearly that only by standing at the peak of power could she guard the family, but how to make a weak family strong again?

She also went on to ask Li Qingyan, "Why must I keep my loss of memory a secret? Why can't I let my family and outsiders know."

He heads off the reasons why it must be done - whether it's for family members or outsiders to know, the Tantai family would be subjected to a great deal of upheaval both internally and externally, and her identity as the heir would be unprotected, and she would surely die. The family would be thrown into turmoil over the heir, and other clans would attempt to use it to suppress the Tantai family.

Pei Siyan thought of the aggressive old man from that day, could it be that the one Li Qingyan said was vying for the patriarch position was him?

The future seemed like a road full of thorns, with poisonous snakes running across it, coldly sticking their fangs into your legs. On both sides of the road are unfathomable cliffs, smoke curls up, and it is difficult for flying birds to cross, and behind ... you is a copper wall that connects heaven and earth, even if you have a great skill, you can t climb up.

She will not climb the mountain, do not like to fall into the cliff in the broken body, bones, she is still young also do not want to be their own worry about the trouble to toss to death, then the only way to wield the sword to cut off the thorns, will be poisonous snakes trampled to death under the foot, step by step forward to go.

Isn't there a saying, "If it comes, then it's safe"?

Since the bastard God had given her such a fate, she would continue to walk to see what other perverted and unethical things he could do!

Tantai Yan's past for Pei Si Yan can be described by the popular word - "tragedy".

Growing up in a huge and honourable clan, placing heavy hopes on her clan, the pressure she was under was unimaginable, no wonder she was a woman who didn't smile, no matter who it was it would be hard for anyone to be able to smile and face it with a straight face in the midst of that horrible and harsh harshness, that heavy burden.

At least she, Pei Siyan, couldn't, and was glad that she hadn't travelled back to when Tanya Yan was a child.

Hey, God, you are still human.

Tomorrow is the day of the funeral, Pei Si Yan uneasily sits in the study, closing the clan roster, a look up to see Li Qing Dye happens to come in, he is still wearing a dark blue robe, Pei Si Yan is curious as to why he doesn't wear mourning clothes but doesn't dare to ask. These past few days, he has been strictly supervising her, it feels the same as my homeroom teacher in primary schools.

That lady was the strictest homeroom teacher she had encountered in all her years of schooling, the slightest thing she did wrong was punished by standing, copying and memorising.

However, Li Qingdian didn't really want her to be punished for standing, copying and memorising, but just explained clearly over and over again.

Li Qingdian's speech and expression are as cold as ice, a look of rejecting people outside of a thousand miles. Pei Si Yan does not like to be with such a person, but can only trust him alone.

I don't know how this family gets along with him, and how they trust him completely.

Anyway, facing this big iceberg everyday, Pei Si Yan felt like she was about to die of depression.

Li Qingye owed his body and said: ''Miss, please go to the main hall. You are needed for the funeral tomorrow."

Pei Si Yan felt her heart beating so hard it made her want to vomit, she clutched the book in her hand tightly, the clean and tidy booklet quickly turning into a crumpled mess.

"Are we going now?" Pei Siyan asked, she hadn't prepared herself in any way to face the clan, what if she made a mistake and revealed herself?

"Miss, please don't worry, my subordinate will follow by your side." Li Qingdian said again, his tone as cold as ever.

Pei Si Yan lowered her head to look at the crumpled roster, above the portrait she saw over and over again, has long been familiar with, but after all, it is not a modern day camera "click" washed out the picture, the portrait is inevitably biased, to see the real person she can still recognise who is who?

After hesitating for a long time, Pei Si Yan stood up with a heart of gold, and followed away from the light dye out of the writing autumn Xuan.

The storm is always coming, so - let it be more violent!

The white veils entwined everywhere fluttered in the wind, Pei Si Yan tried her best not to look at them and watched Li Qing Dye's heels walk. She felt her legs go soft, as if she was stepping on cotton, and she kept trembling. She even almost fell when she went up the steps, luckily Yun Qi was quick to help her.

Pei Si Yan really wanted to crawl to the main hall on all fours!

The road from Write Autumn Xuan to the main hall was so long, so long that Pei Si Yan thought she was on a 25,000 mile long march. Just as Pei Si Yan opened her mouth to ask how much longer it would take to get there, Li Qing Dye stopped walking and she hastily braked so she wouldn't run into him.

Pei Si Yan looked up and saw the huge black "Dien" word, she took a deep breath and pretended to draw a cross on her chest and put her hands together to recite a few lines of "Bodhisattva blessing".

Li Qingye's eyes became extremely strange, but soon returned to the usual calm.

When Pei Si Yan stepped into the threshold, the "buzzing" sound of chatter in the main hall immediately stopped, and countless gazes instantly gathered on her.

The main hall was five rooms wide, at least fifty metres from the doorway to the facing wall, ornately decorated, with some portraits hanging on the wall of previous generations of Witch Pan. The coffin was parked behind the white cloth with the word "Dien" written on it, the offering table was full of offerings, and there was a thick pile of black charred material in the fire pot on the ground, emitting wisps of white smoke and a pungent smell.

At this moment, the main hall was crowded with people, all wearing uniform white mourning clothes, most of them looking at the Tantai family's eldest young lady who hadn't appeared in front of people for a few days.

That kind of scrutinising gaze made Pei Si Yan very uncomfortable, as if she had made a huge mistake waiting for them to criticise her.