Chapter 12: Escape

The moon was cold and starry, and everything was silent.

In the dimly lit room, a dark shadow stood silently by the bedside, her eyes reflecting the cold moon colour gazing at the fragmented pieces of utensils.

After coming back from the Duanhe Palace, she excused herself as "tired and wanting to take a nap", and rummaged around the room alone for a while, not seeing the shadow of a single coin, so she took a few small antiques, intending to exchange them for money to make a living in the future.

Pei Si Yan considered for a few days, after the ceremony rehearsal, more sure that he must go!

When she stood on the platform of the Hall of Supreme Harmony, she looked at the black crowd in the square in front of the hall, and the huge invisible pressure made her about to faint. She really didn't dare to imagine how she should face the future, perhaps those grand ambitions were still too much for her ...

Running away was the only option left for her.

"I'm sorry, Tanya Yan." Pei Si Yan said softly, her hand covering her chest, her eyes sour and hard.

She couldn't keep her promise, she couldn't do what she couldn't accomplish, she had to think about herself now, even though this was the wish that God had arranged for her, it had to be given up.

After all, she was Pei Si Yan, not Tantai Yan.

Tantai's family was many and powerful, they would definitely come up with the perfect solution, and what would happen to Li Qingyan had nothing to do with her.

Pei Si Yan repeatedly persuaded herself, neatly packed her bag, then opened the door of her room a small逢.

Write autumn xuan's night watchman will usually quietly run away to steal sleep at ugly time, away from light dye live in the southwest corner of the mansion courtyard, away from write autumn xuan has a good distance, he will not be guarded at night in front of the courtyard of a young lady who has not yet made her debut. And she had already mapped out the patrol routes of the mansion's night guards. If there were no accidents, she would be able to leave the Tantai family quietly and wait until the city gates opened, and she would be able to travel to the ends of the earth.

Definitely not letting any of them chase her back!

The courtyard was quiet without a single silhouette, Pei Si Yan tiptoed out, closed the door backhandedly, and then like a thief sneakily and fearfully felt her way towards the west side of the Tantai family's side door.

The subordinates of the Tantai family, other than those who served the master, all lived in the courtyard on the west side, so there was a special door for the subordinates to enter and exit, and it was the only side door in the entire residence that was not guarded by a person. Busy all day people, at this moment has long entered the dreamland, completely unaware that there is a person quietly sneak in.

Pei Siyan saw a few pieces of men's clothes hanging on the rope, casually pulled down through the moonlight to take a closer look, there is no cloud logo at the neckline, think it is the housekeeper's own clothes. She was relieved to take the clothes and hurriedly opened the side door, looking around to make sure no one was there, she looked back again with a determined gaze.

--Amitabha Buddha, Tantai Yan, you mustn't blame me, I didn't make any mental preparations at all, I really can't take on this heavy responsibility!

Pei Si Yan chanted, took a deep breath and crossed the threshold.

The night breeze brushed by, refreshingly cool and pleasant.

Stepping out of the opulent and huge mansion, Pei Si Yan felt her entire being relax, the kind of pleasure of getting rid of her shackles made her forget about a piece of her guilt towards Tantai Yan.

Life belonged to oneself, regardless of whether one travelled through it or not, and what the situation was, one should live according to one's own wishes!

Outside the side door is an alley so long that you can't see the end of it, opposite is also a deep mansion, it is said that it was once the residence of a certain prince, the prince had no children, and after he died, it has been left empty.

Thinking of their own funeral clothes too eye-catching, Pei Si Yan see the moon is obscured behind a cloud, around the see not very clear and no one, simply in place to change into the men's clothing just now brought by hand, and then think of away from the light dyeing of the hair style, randomly will be spread out of the hair bundled up.

There is no mirror, Pei Si Yan also do not know what she now looks like, but she can not care so much, running is important.

On the way to the city gates, the sky was gradually getting brighter, some shops opened their doors early, the shopkeepers rubbed their sleepy eyes and came out to look around.

Pei Siyan looked at the shopkeeper, although never known but the heart inexplicably weak, take advantage of the situation to turn into a hutong, there happens to be a dilapidated hut, her hands whisked the dust on the table, and then wiped on the face and clothes, dressed up as a beggar, thinking that no one will recognise a flower face, which only then peace of mind continue to walk towards the city gates.

The time is still early, the city gates are still open. Pei Siyan afraid in front of the city gate will cause the soldiers guarding the city suspicion, hide to the nearby alleyway to look. Until the city gates gathered the people who were leaving the city early in the morning, only then did she cautiously blend in.

Waiting for the city gates to open was like waiting for the announcement of the results of the midterm and high school exams, happy and scared. Pei Si Yan's eyes alternately swept around the vermillion city gates and the streets, happy that she was about to get out of this damned place, but also afraid that Yun Qi and the others would find out that she had disappeared.

Li Qingdian was so powerful, if he gave the discovery too early he would definitely be able to catch up.

"Jade Emperor, Buddha, Yeshua, Virgin Mary, bless me to escape successfully!" Pei Si Yan recited the same sentence over and over again, while trying to maintain her composure to not let the people around her notice her abnormality.

Right in the middle of the restless waiting, the city gates finally opened and Pei Si Yan rushed out as if she was escaping.

Plus Tantai House, Yun Qi thought yesterday's rehearsal Miss must be very tired, so later than usual half an hour before going to knock on the door, but open a small door to let her suspicious, first shouted two or three times did not see someone in the house to say yes, know that there must be something wrong, and hurriedly pushed open the door to see - ** empty, simply did not see the Miss! The person's shadow!

Yun Qi called Yun Shan, the two together will write autumn Xuan inside and outside to find once, still no sign of Miss.

Yun Shan was anxious, Miss had also left without saying goodbye more than a month ago, so she had lost her memory, and she didn't know if something would happen again if she suddenly disappeared this time.

"We'd better hurry and report to Lord Li!" Yun Qi said, she was still calm.

Yun Shan wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and Yun Qi was about to go out when she bumped into one coming in from outside. With picturesque eyebrows and white clothes, it was none other than Tantai family's grandson young master, Qiyun.

They were both startled, then saluted, "Young Master Sun."

Qi Yun smiled faintly, "I came to visit auntie. Auntie, is she up yet?"

Yun Qi and Yun Shan looked at each other and lowered their heads, not making a sound, wondering if they should tell Young Master Sun about Miss's disappearance.

Seeing that they were both silent, Qiyun asked suspiciously, "What's wrong? Is it because Auntie hasn't risen yet? Then I won't disturb."

As it happened, Li Qingyan came over and seeing the three people standing at the door, he first gave his salute to Qiyun. As soon as Yun Shan saw him, it was like seeing a saviour.

"Lord Li, miss she's disappeared!"

Yun Qi fiercely tugged on her sleeve and looked uneasily at Young Master Sun, only to see a surprised expression on his yun's face.

Li Qingyan's brows knitted slightly, calm as usual: "When did you guys realise that miss is missing?"

"Just now." Yun Qi replied.

Li Qingye walked to the bedroom door in large strides, scanning round the house situation, he found that ** the quilt was neatly folded, obviously no one had slept there, and the antique furnishings seemed to be missing. He recalled that when he passed by the western courtyard this morning, he heard an underling cursing and asking who had stolen the clothes he had hung on the rope, stirring up the courtyard.

Li Qingye decisively turned around and walked towards the courtyard door, while instructing Yun Qi: ''Close the door, and say that Miss is still resting from being too tired yesterday and doesn't see anyone. I'll go get Miss back!"

Yun Qi nodded repeatedly, "My lord, do you know where miss has gone?"

"I will bring Miss back soon, you don't have to worry." Li Qingyan looked at Qiyun and said, "Young Master Sun, please keep it quiet and go out."

Qiyun blocked his path and said, "Can you take me with you to find auntie?"

"Young Master Sun, you are weak, if you are worried about Miss's safety, please wait for a moment at the Write Autumn Xuan, my subordinates will be able to bring Miss back soon." Li Qingyan didn't even think about it and politely declined.

Qiyun still wanted to say something, but seeing Li Qingdian's cold eyes, the words were all swallowed back into his stomach.

Li Qingdian no longer said any more nonsense, striding back to the western courtyard, took the horse and galloped away. If he did not guess wrong, the lady must be from the west door slipped out, at this moment the time the city gate is not open for a long time, as long as along the west side of the road to find the past, will be able to quickly find.

Pei Siyan herself is not clear why she will not long after leaving the city gates, turn to the north side of the road, ghostly came to Tantai Yan's graveyard before.

Summer is the time when the grass is lush, more than a month did not see the graveyard surrounded by lush weeds, covered that a lonely grave, like that the person in the grave is exactly silent death in the arms of a stranger, no friends and relatives know.

Pei Siyan plucked the weeds as if she was having an outburst, but unfortunately the dizziness caused by not having breakfast in the morning caused her to only pluck a small amount before she fell down and sat beside the grave, panting slightly, not wanting to move half a bit more.

Everything after crossing over to this world was once again clearly displayed in her mind, Pei Si Yan closed her eyes and desperately shook her head, as if she wanted to shake all these things out of her head.

The more she thought about it, the stronger the sense of guilt in her heart became.

It was clearly because she had indirectly harmed Tantai Yan, and after promising to repay her for saving her life, she had to run away. Actually, with a little more effort and confidence, things might not be as complicated and difficult as she thought.

But why did it just feel like I couldn't do anything right?

"I shouldn't have been bored and run off to see the solar eclipse, otherwise I wouldn't have come here ...," Pei Si Yan muttered, her long eyelashes fluttering slightly, "Tanya Yan, you definitely won't forgive me, right? It's useless for me to say eleven million words of sorry, right? The heavens have arranged for me to impersonate you in the theatre, but unfortunately, my ability is ultimately unable to bear your trust ..."

Pei Si Yan's voice gradually lowered and a sob escaped.

She was now extraordinarily missing her loved ones who were far away in another time and space, not knowing if she would still be able to see them again while she was still alive.

"Miss."

With a light call, Pei Si Yan had a jolt, feeling as if a pot of cold water had been poured on her body, she opened her eyes with a start and sat up.

The young retainer was standing not far away holding a white horse, the soft ground made the footsteps almost light and inaudible, making Pei Si Yan, who had been concentrating on her mind, only realise it now.

Li Qingye had actually caught up, it was too unbelievable!

Pei Si Yan slowly stood up and made up her mind and decided to tell Li Qing Dye the truth, so that he wouldn't force an impostor to go back, right?

"Since you've caught up, there's one thing I must make clear to you."

Li Qingdian didn't seem to hear her as she spoke, "Miss, please follow my subordinate back."

"I don't want to go back," Pei Si Yan raised her head, her gaze firm, "I ..." tongue seemed to have suddenly been tied in a dead knot, no matter how hard she tried she couldn't tell the truth, she turned back to looking at Tanya Yan's grave.

Are you the one who is stopping it?

"Miss, please make sure you go back. If you won't go, the Emperor will fall on the Tantai family ..."

Pei Si Yan didn't believe it, "Why?"

"Things have come to this point, unless you ... die, the heir cannot be changed, once changed there is a degree of violation of the law, it is the crime of deceiving the emperor. Even if the ends of the earth, people will be sent to capture you back. Although the four great families are honoured beyond measure, but once the Emperor is offended, the heavy is to exterminate the family, leaving only one house of concubine to inherit the patriarch. With today's Tantai family, do you think you are capable of not being exterminated? Moreover, the Tantai family has many enemies, if you go too far, you will still die."

Pei Siyan winced, it turns out that the responsibility carried on her body is more than she imagined, her heart's desire has not been fulfilled she does not want to die yet, if fleeing is death, staying is the only way to have hope for life ...

Li Qing dye walked a few steps closer to Pei Si Yan, slowly opened his mouth, "Miss, you because of the loss of memory and loss of confidence, do not dare to face the future?"

Pei Si Yan stared at him in astonishment, and was even more unable to say a word.

He actually knew her mind clearly!

"Miss, in these two months, what you have shown in facing the clan that took over the throne and receiving the clan's obeisance is enough to prove that you are capable. Amnesia is only temporary, one day you will remember your former self, so there is no need to feel confused and scared." Li Qingyan's tone was without any ripples, his eyes were as calm as water, but it vaguely gave people a sense of reassurance.

"I can't, I simply can't ..." Pei Si Yan shook her head in pain and took a few steps back to fall back to the ground.

Li Qingye stepped forward and reached out to help Pei Si Yan up when he noticed the dirt bag behind her.

Pei Si Yan followed his eyes and caressed over the green weeds, never able to tell the truth. In a trance, her heart wavered - why give up such a wonderful opportunity when she might have achieved as much as she wished if she had accepted it openly, instead of being a mediocre person who did nothing? Why try to escape and meet a cruel end?

Without trying, how do you know whether you will succeed or fail?

Pei Si Yan's fingers clenched the weeds, her joints were almost ghastly white, she raised her head again, just in time to meet Li Qing Dye's eyes, ''Is everything you said true? You will always always help me, right? No matter what happens, you will always be by my side to help me, yes?"

In fact, what she wanted was just the simplest affirmation.

A spring-like gentleness swept through Li Qing Dye's eyes, Pei Si Yan was surprised, why would a man who was always as cold as an ice mountain have such an expression, were her eyes blurred?

"Yes, miss," Li Qingye said, pulling back Pei Si Yan's thoughts, "subordinate will always follow beside miss."

Pei Si Yan heard his words, her heart snapped out of hesitation and confusion, tears came to her eyes in a flash, and she gripped his outstretched hand.

"Good, I'll go back with you."