Chapter 72 : Admission

Pei Si Yan looked at Li Qing Dye with an expressionless face, and then slowly and methodically ate the rice in front of her, despite the feeling of wanting to vomit when she ate it in her mouth, she still kept on stuffing things into her mouth.

After a long time, Pei Si Yan effortlessly swallowed the rice in her mouth and smiled faintly at Li Qing Dye: "My name is - Pei Si Yan. Pei as in non-clothing, Si as in Sven, and Yan as in ugly woman."

Dead to the world, there was no need to hide it any longer, and from Li Qingyan's tone, he was bound to have evidence that she was an impostor.

Li Qingye let out a light sigh without showing any surprise and asked, "Where is Miss?"

Pei Siyan held back the feeling of regurgitation and poked off the meat on the fish belly with her chopsticks as she ate, "Remember a river over there when you met me? Keep going north and you will see a willow tree, I followed her last wish to bury her under the tree. By the ... way, I suddenly remembered that I escaped from the mansion before the succession ceremony, and the place where you found me was Tanya Yan s grave."

Outside the cell, a jailer passed by, Li Qingdian lowered his head, Pei Si Yan continued to eat her meal, and everything seemed normal.

When the footsteps were far away, Li Qingdian once again asked, "Miss why did she pass away?"

Pei Si Yan's eyes became even bleaker, biting her chopsticks tightly, almost almost breaking the small bamboo stick, the day she crossed over to this place was the source of the beginning of her dream and a nightmare.

The long arrows that pierced her body, the blood hidden in the black clothes, none of them made her feel scared.

"Tanya Yan ..." Pei Siyan smiled bitterly, saying it out loud, Li Qingyan will surely hate himself, right? But hate or not, in oneself already does not matter, before death, or tell him the truth, there is no need to take the secret into the grave.

"She was in order to save me, was seriously injured by the mountain bandits, did not get medical treatment in time and died."

Li Qingye fell silent, Pei Si Yan swept him out of the corner of her eye and continued to eat slowly, the surface was calm, but the chopsticks in her hand couldn't stop trembling.

After a long time, Li Qingyan finally opened his mouth, "There are no mountain bandits there ..."

The simple six words brought about a surprising effect, the chopsticks fell on the table, making a crisp ringing sound, Pei Si Yan's eyes lowered, fiercely remembering a distant and blurred image, something tumbled up her throat from her chest, she covered her mouth, and what she spat out was not the rice, but a bright red **.

A trace of blood slid slowly down her pale fingers, dripping into the dry weeds.

Under the dim and gloomy light, the blood-stained weeds added a bit more eerie. The smell of blood attracted rats hiding in the dark, excitedly "squeaking", not afraid of the two people in the cell, scurrying over to lick the blood.

Pei Si Yan wiped off the blood with the corner of her coat and said calmly, "So, Tantai Yan was in fact assassinated and happened to meet me, in order for me to replace her as a Wuban, guarding the family, so that she weaved a lie?"

A lie that sent her to the peak of her dreams, but also sent her to the Yellow Springs.

A teardrop welled up from her eyes, and what she sighed for was not Tantai Yan's lie, much less her current situation, but ...

A bitter flavour flooded her heart, Pei Si Yan tightly gripped the lapel of her coat, it was a flavour so bitter that it was beyond description, as if a sharp awl was desperately drilling into her heart.

"Miss wants you to return to the Tantai family in her place, is that right?" Li Qingyan asked, vigilantly paying attention to the movements outside, not noticing the abnormality of Pei Siyan, whose back was turned to him.

"Yes." Pei Si Yan opened her mouth and blood gushed out once again, the wounds that were so painful to the point of numbness after the torture also kicked in at the same time, almost killing her now. But Pei Si Yan knew that she couldn't die now, her finely manicured nails poked hard at her tender palms, using the pain to awaken her sanity.

"Tanya Yan must be in a lot of pain, right? Ever since she was a child, no one knew what her heart truly longed for, with her parents and beloved ones leaving her one after another, separated by the yin and yang, where is the courage and reason to live? I promised her in order to repay her for saving my life, and even more so for my own dreams. Light Dye, before I became the loser, did I do a competent job as an impostor clan leader? Have I guarded the Tantai family well?"

Pei Si Yan's voice became more and more trembling as blood fell all over her lapel, shocking to the eyes.

Li Qingye looked towards Pei Si Yan's back, the look in his eyes became softer as he firmly and sincerely said, "You are a qualified matriarch."

Hearing these words, Pei Si Yan cried in pain, but in order not to attract the attention of the jailers, she could only painfully suppress her cries.

Getting affirmation is not a vain life ...

"When did you know that I'm not Tanya Yan?" Pei Si Yan uttered the last question.

"Even though you said you lost your memory, I saw all the differences between you and before, and when I saw you smile, I concluded that you were not the real Miss. Miss she will never laugh from her heart like you do."

"Laugh?" Pei Si Yan recalled the smile that Tanya Yan had when she died and lamented, "Actually, Tanya Yan could laugh, and she laughed beautifully because she could finally get rid of all the pain and go see the person she loved."

"Miss she ... smiled?"

"Well, at that moment she felt very happy, right?"

Li Qingye was silent again for a moment and turned the topic back to Pei Si Yan's query, "I've always been suspicious and quietly inquired from many sides, but I didn't find half a bit of evidence, not to mention I couldn't find out anything about your origins and history."

Pei Si Yan wiped away her tears, picked up her chopsticks again, and said, "Because I didn't belong to this world ... in the first place."

"Hmm?" Li Qingye showed a puzzled look on his face, these words seemed to contain some kind of deep meaning, seeing Pei Si Yan not wanting to say more, he didn't want to delve deeper.

After that, there was endless silence, the only sound in the cell was the sound of bowls and chopsticks clashing together.

The last grain of rice was swallowed, Pei Si Yan put down her chopsticks, closed her eyes, and tried to adjust her breathing, the smell of blood in her mouth was getting stronger and stronger, making her want to vomit even more.

Li Qingye came up to clean up the chopsticks when this shocked Pei Si Yan to find the spots of blood on her clothes, her pupils narrowed violently, and she lowered her voice and called out, "Miss, you ..."

Pei Si Yan said as if nothing had happened, "I'm going to die tomorrow, what's the harm in spitting this blood?" After saying that, she slowly opened her eyes, looked at the pair of deep eyes near her, and asked quietly, "Light Dye, your life ... is a heavenly secret, right?"

Li Qingye's hand that was holding the plate paused slightly, and quickly put the plate into the bamboo basket without leaving any traces, his voice was even lower than before, "If you want to know, I will definitely inform you one by one." Your last wish, no matter what I will fulfil ...

"No need," Pei Si Yan waved her hand, "Let that secret be kept forever. Thank you, Light Dye, for accompanying me all the way this far, and I'm satisfied to see you once before I die."

"Have you not thought of letting me rob the prison, take you away, and then build up my strength to rise again one day to avenge this great revenge?"

"I don't have the strength or the heart anymore, not to mention that this broken body of mine is better than a quick death. And I don't want to put you in danger again. Light Dye, after you get out of the prison, forget everything from before, find a gentle and kind wife, and live a good life."

"Don't you think about Duke Mo Xuan?"

Pei Siyan lowered her head, the shadows subtly masked her face so that no one could see her expression, "I'm with him ..." She smiled bitterly again, her voice was heartbreaking, "I don't know, I don't know ..."

Pei Si Yan painfully grabbed her hair, Li Qing Dye held her cold hand, but there was another burst of footsteps outside, causing him to immediately let go.

"You should leave, it's too dangerous to stay here." Pei Si Yan pushed away Li Qing Dye with force.

Li Qingye stumbled, staring at Pei Si Yan's eyes clouded with a layer of grief, he reached out his hand towards Pei Si Yan's thin shoulders, but as if he was afraid of something, he retracted it again.

"Miss ...," Li Qingyan mumbled.

"Go away! Forget me, don't ever think of it, and treat me as if I have nothing to do with you! Tomorrow, don't let anyone come to my rescue, don't pay unnecessarily, don't have any more casualties! Those who have not yet returned to Lanxuan and Tantai Si, tell them to be obedient, tell them that this is my last order."

"Pei ...," Li Qingyan's trembling lips spat out that unfamiliar name, suddenly feeling a pang of heartache, such a feeling had been there before, but not once was it stronger than now.

How can I forget, and how can I treat them as if they have nothing to do with each other.

This more than a year since the little by little, as if it happened yesterday, her knitted brows and smile engraved in the heart of the mind, so deep traces, to him how to erase, as never happened!

Don't want to forget, don't want to forget ...

"There is no medicine in the world that can make people forget the past! I can't forget you, I can't ..." Li Qingyan reached out to Pei Si Yan for the second time, the pain in his eyes was enough to tear the soul.

Pei Si Yan guffawed, "There is a medicine called time, which can make you forget all of this. Light Dye, remember, never think of me."

Facing tomorrow's execution, Pei Si Yan still smiles calmly and calmly, she has long seen through life and death, no attachments, just hope that the people who miss her will live well in the future, and throw away the sad memories far away.

Life is a life, to be happy ah!

Li Qingyan was stunned, her hand stiffened halfway.

"I won't see you again, Light Dye." Pei Siyan said, not turning around to look at the abnormal expression that the person who had been accompanying him was showing at the moment, "Whether I'm in heaven or hell, I only hope that you are safe."

"Have you finished eating and packed up yet?" A low-grade official came over and droned unhappily, "Pack up and quickly lock the cell door! The emperor has specifically explained that no one must be allowed to rob the people in the prison!"

Li Qingye took one last look at Pei Si Yan and silently left.

Dim yellow lights, gloomy prison, a sigh lingers for a long time...