Chapter 75 : Heart's Desire

Deep in the bamboo forest, verdant and pale, white smoke curls around, the sound of the stream gurgling from afar, like a piece of heavenly music, quiet and warm as if far away from the earthly world of paradise.

A delicate bamboo house is located here, the side of the house is full of jasmine, although the season is nearly winter, but the jasmine and bamboo is still lush, adding a few points of transcendent meaning.

Pei Si Yan sitting quietly in the window **, looking out the window green, silent.

When she woke up and saw Li Qingyan, it was clear that Yun Qi had already travelled to the execution ground on her own behalf, and her life was going to the Yellow Springs, and could not be undone.

She smiled helplessly and bitterly, after which she felt a deep weariness, and her heart was full of mixed feelings.

A life of prosperity and vicissitudes of life, the end is not the hands laughing at the red dust of the open, but the past and the future of the past and the future of the confusion. The future of the past and the future of confusion, and the tiredness and loneliness after leaving everything behind.

Pei Si Yan look at his palm covered with scars.

In the end, the hand did not catch anything, whether it was once in the hands of the existing, or ambition, all gone.

Originally, thought that a death can be relieved, but now she does not even have the right to choose to die.

Thinking of Li Qingyan's eyes, the colour of Pei Si Yan's eyes deepened.

At this time, the door of the bamboo house opened, Li Qingye walked in with a small bundle in his hands, and when he met Pei Si Yan's eyes, his gaze that had always been indifferent and cold became softer in an instant.

He walked over to the table and spread out the bundle in his hands, inside were some small porcelain bottles and medicinal herbs neatly wrapped in paper, as well as a few pieces of women's clothing.

"Miss ...," Li Qingyan shouted.

Pei Si Yan was silent for a moment before speaking, "Don't call me miss, I am no longer your master." She paused and continued, "Call me, little ..." as if she had touched a wound in her heart, too painful to say more.

The house fell into silence, outside the house breeze through the forest, rustling, I do not know how much the taste of distant lonesome.

"Call me Siyan."

"Good." Li Qingye picks up the porcelain bottle and gauze, walks to the bed, "I'll apply the medicine for you."

Looking at Li Qingye's soft eyes, Pei Si Yan felt unfamiliar but inexplicably liked it, on the road of life that was deep in the cold winter wind and snow, such a gaze was like a spring wind that blew away the ice and snow for miles.

Her heart moved and felt warmth.

Pei Siyan hesitated for a short while, lowered her head, unravelled her black cloak, revealing a body full of wounds, Li Qingyan brought a clean handkerchief and carefully wiped the bloody wounds little by little.

Drilling pain through the nerves spread throughout the body, Pei Si Yan frowned and sucked in a mouthful of cold air.

Li Qingye said with apologies, "I'm sorry, I was too heavy handed." Saying this, the force in his hands became much softer, as if he was cooking a most precious treasure.

Pei Si Yan looked at his serious eyes and sighed silently.

"Little ..." away light dye is still a little unaccustomed to shouting that unfamiliar name, pause for a moment, said stiffly: "Si, Siyan, you don't hate me for letting Yunqi to go to the execution ground on your behalf?"

"What's the use of saying it now?" Pei Siyan said softly, her voice slightly tinged with sadness, "Since things can no longer be undone, I must follow Yun Qi's wish and live a good life, I can't let her spirit in heaven not have peace. Light Dye, what should we do in the future?"

Li Qingdian said while bandaging up the wound with gauze, "No one will be able to find this place, we can live here in peace."

"Us?" Pei Si Yan repeated.

Li Qingyan did not reply.

The quietness frightened Pei Si Yan, so she casually searched for a topic, "What is this place?"

"The place where my mother and I used to live, it takes a long time to walk along that river in the east to find people," Li Qingyan said, unintentionally recalling many past events, those sorrows and joys as if they were from a past life or a dream of nothingness, so distant and unreal, "It was arranged by Lord Tantai on behalf of our mother and son. It's very safe, without guidance, it's impossible to go through the bamboo forest that's like a labyrinth and find this place."

"Your mother likes jasmine?" Pei Si Yan asked again.

"At one time it wasn't jasmine that she liked, it's just that after losing something, she put her unfulfilled wishes on the flower."

Pei Si Yan curiously said, "Wishes?" Given Li Qingye's life, what kind of wish would be placed on the clean white flower?

With regards to the past, Li Qingye was unwilling to say any more.

Seeing this situation, Pei Siyan regretted that he spoke too much, so he held Li Qingye's hand, his hand is very warm, because of years of practice in martial arts and some rough calluses, touching it gives people a sense of security, "Light Dye, thank you for always being by my side."

Li Qingyan remained silent, but the work in his hands did not stop.

"I'm really glad that the heavens still favoured me, and didn't take away everything around me in the desperate situation," Pei Siyan continued, tears building up in her eyes almost about to come out of her eyes, "There's still at least you around. But ..."

Her words stopped once again, feeling Li Qingyan's hand tremble violently for a moment.

"Light Dye, you should have a life of your own, live it according to your own wishes, so that when you reach the end of your life you won't have too many regrets. How much will you lose by accompanying me? Will you be able to live as you wish? As I said, you should have a warm family, a considerate wife who waits for you at home, and children to enjoy. Although my legs can't walk, it doesn't mean I can't do anything, you can not have to accompany me and waste your life."

"Light Dye ... go pursue the happiness that truly belongs to you."

"The happiness that truly belongs to me ... " Li Qingye raised his head, only Pei Si Yan's figure in his pupils, "is already near my eyes, but I don't know if the person in front of me understands my heart. "

Two lines of tears slipped out of Pei Si Yan's eyes and fell on the back of Li Qing Dye's hand.

"You ..."

She should have clearly perceived, this guard who silently guarded by his side, this man who minced words and smiled, this man with a rough life who buried his loneliness and sadness deeply, had quietly fallen in love with himself at a certain moment.

Li Qingye raised his hand to wipe away Pei Si Yan's tears, the corner of his mouth surfaced a smile, warm as the sunrise after the snow, dazzling, as if a pearl unloaded full of dust, finally exuded its original light.

Pei Si Yan looked dumbfounded.

The first time Li Qingyan smiled ...

Pei Si Yan instantly sobbed uncontrollably, she didn't understand what her mind was really like, she just wanted to cry, throw away all her present joys and sorrows, and cry loudly and painfully.

Li Qingyan stood up, carefully trying not to touch the wound, and gathered her into his arms.

Li Qingdian looked towards the jasmine planted outside and his smile gradually froze.

Could it be that he was too delusional?

The hand that he had always wanted to hold would never stay in his palm?

But, really want to want to be with her, not just a moment's stay ...

I don't know how long it took, Pei Si Yan finally stopped crying and returned to calm, "Light Dye, continue to help me rub the medicine." The expression was indifferent, as if nothing had happened just now.

Li Qingyan was gloomy, perhaps Pei Si Yan's heart was still with Mo Xuan.

He, could only watch from afar.

Speechless, continued to rub the medicine.

Wrapping Pei Si Yan's arms and legs, but Li Qing Dye stopped and hung his head somewhat awkwardly, although in the past in Tantai's home there were not many constraints and etiquette, but men and women are ultimately different.

Pei Si Yan knew what Li Qing Dye was concerned about, effortlessly turning around, her hand pressed on the bustier, after hesitating for a moment, she slowly pulled the straps open, a thin layer of fabric sliding down her body, she spoke with difficulty, "I'll just get it myself in front."

Li Qingye handed over the porcelain bottle and gauze to Pei Si Yan before smearing the remaining ointment on her back.

Pei Si Yan felt her face rolling in heat, and after bandaging it up, she didn't dare to turn back around and slowly put on her clothes, casually laughing, "There's gauze all over my body, I'm like an Egyptian mummy now with this appearance."

"What is that?" Li Qingyan asked in surprise.

"Er-" Pei Si Yan suddenly didn't know how to explain, after all, it seemed impossible for a country like Egypt to exist in the Spirit Abyss continent, to say that she had travelled across the world, would Li Qingyan think that she had gone mad?

"It's just something like me wrapped in gauze, it's a lot of work to explain it ..." Pei Si Yan stalled carelessly, and found that the atmosphere wasn't as awkward as it was before, and her heart let out a long sigh of relief.

"Where else is uncomfortable?" Li Qingye tried the temperature on Pei Si Yan's forehead, only then did he realise that she was suffering from a high fever, he really didn't know what kind of power made her so energetic, "You lie down and rest first, I'll go and fry the medicine."

"Hmm, good." Pei Si Yan obediently helped by Li Qing Dye, lay down and covered the quilt.

Li Qingye asked again, "What do you want to eat at night?"

"Feel free, I'll eat whatever you make." Pei Si Yan smiled.

"Good, then wait for me for a while." Li Qingye tucked in the corner of the quilt and immediately picked up the medicinal herbs she bought and turned around to go out.

Pei Si Yan looked up at the roof, the pain in her body gradually reduced, but her mind was getting more and more drowsy, if not for what Li Qing Dye said just now, she didn't even realise in that she had a fever and thought it was a side effect from the wound.

After the surrounding quiet down, away from the light dye before said words do not know from the mind of where to emerge, keep recalling, as if away from the light dye constantly repeat in the ear.

Pei Si Yan's mouth flooded with a bitter taste, so bitter that her heart ached and tears were about to well up again.

How could she ...

Sleepiness struck, Pei Si Yan closed her eyes, suppressed the helplessness and uncertainty in her heart, and worked hard to let herself fall into a deep sleep.

When Li Qingye came back with the medicinal juice and a bowl of rice porridge, Pei Si Yan had already fallen asleep, only her dreams didn't seem to be peaceful either, her brows were slightly furrowed, and the corners of her eyes had remnants of tears.

Li Qingye gently put down the dishes and sat on the edge of the bed, examined Pei Si Yan's face and tenderly wiped away the tearstains.