When the darkness calls

The late night silence together with the stars brighter than ever. This place had something I can't even place my fingures on. I stood up from my bed and looked out the window and a sigh escaped my mouth. This place seemed so mysterious in my sight . The way the people behave and everything feels familiar. This moment of me staring at the stars and earlier when he carried me, it felt like it was the right thing even when I felt shy and ashamed being carried by my boss. Oh the joy I felt . I didn't even realize I was smiling subconsciously. His voice rung in my head then that smile at the corner of his lips again ohh so captivating. I imagine him smiling and a dimple on one cheek. I don't know why precisely one dimple but thats what I could see anyway. I got away from the widow and put on my rope. Taking careful steps to make sure I don't awaken my roomies, I got out and shut the door carefully. I almost forgot that I was injured until the intense pain was back. I limped out of the house into the smooth breeze. Everything around felt alive. The grass, trees and I could smell the wet soil. Everything in me came alive for the first time I felt in control. Thats crazy I know. I remember Mark would tell me that someday "you will see how special you are sis". "You are different. If someone doesn't see it then it's probably that they are either too dumb or blind". And I would always push his shoulder and laugh at his emotional state. And then I would say"You read too many quotes see how cliche you sound " he would smile then run his hands in my hair then shout "dinner is on you !!" It's obvious that I loved the kitchen so whenever I had the chance, to cook for both of us, I would cook with excess love. He is my only family after all. I take a deep breathe and exhale. I look around and finally that forest again it takes my attention. Just something about it felt wierd . It's like its calling me out . My heart beat accelerated and I felt out of breathe. And then came the ear deafening sound . I could hear cries of women , children and men in agony. I could smell the iron scent. I knew what that was. My eyes became blurry and a sharp pain striking my head. I would rather die. The pain became more intense. Then brought in my sight was a man full of bruises his face covered in blood. I saw myself in white knee length dress. The man standing Infront of me was begging for mercy. I didn't understand what was happening. I the vision he held to the hem of my dress and I kicked him away while muttering in disgust.he fell down in the grass. A young man who appeared to be in his late teens perhaps nineteen or so. He dragged the man away as he begged. He place him near two women whose hand were tied . The man kept shouting "please don't do this". The nineteen year old held no expression on his face. He calmly pulled out a dagger from his pocket and steadily walked towards the women. I saw myself smiling. Not that happy type of smile but one that had evil ambitions. The nineteen year old inserted his dagger one of the women as she cried out in pain while the man threw himself in pain of watching. I saw myself walk over to the nineteen year old and stretch out my hand. " Python hand me the dagger" and he did. And the next moment, I saw myself run the dagger on the other woman's neck as she cowered in fear. Then a trail of blood started to flow. She didn't cry out loud. Not that she did want to but she didn't get the chance since the next second the knife cut through her throat and there it was she was dead . Python pulled back the dagger and stabbed the man in his chest. I couldn't believe my sight . Was that me? I mean I saw myself kill somebody. The vision ended. And I felt the pain intensify I fell down on my knees in the grass while grilling my head. I found myself screaming in pain. I couldn't hold it in anymore . The pain reaching out to my neck. I. Could see my veins popping out . The image of me killing someone kept replaying in my head. Then there I saw his face amidst the many playing scenes in my head with no expression with the calmness around him. He didn't do anything but all the noises slowly died down. Then behold silence fell . He calmly stretched out his hands the pain was slowly fading I gave my arm out but I couldn't reach at all. I stretched more but nothing he is too far away I can't reach. He turns his back then he is gone away I fall back into the darkness consumed by pain again . Everything turned dark and I felt all the energy in me drained . The only thing that was in mind that moment was his name. Raymond Kingston. I said his name out loud. I laid my head on the grass. I don't know why but I had hope that he would appear somehow and come to my rescue like earlier. I had no energy to shake myself or cryout in pain. I lay numb like I felt nothing. It's like I was living the last moments of my life. I shut my eyes to embrace my fate. "If this is how I am to die then so shall it be".