Chapter 37 - First heat

How could the touch of one person cause so many different sensations?

Although he had felt Jake's touch before, at that moment something felt different. Surely it wasn't the alpha's fault, but Nathaniel's own.

Because now he saw Jake differently. The alpha seemed to shine like a star, and his every expression, his every movement, his every touch made his heart beat faster and he yearned for what would come next.

All because Nathaniel was aware of his feelings.

The woody scent felt like a snake wrapping around him and squeezing him as if labelling him its prey. Nathaniel felt his body burn and shudder easily at any slight movement from the alpha. To his surprise, he also felt the need to be touched.

Feeling Jake's thumb on his lips, Nathaniel couldn't look away. The alpha was more serious, staring at him as if hypnotised.

— I've told you many times, Nath, but the rut will only pass once you've had sex.

Oh right, he was in heat.

Was that why he felt that intense desire to be touched by Jake?

He wanted so much to be able to kiss him, to touch his skin...

— I know.

— But I don't want to do anything you don't want to do.

Why did he have to be so sweet? It was impossible not to admire the brilliance of that star and want to take it for yourself. Jake made Nathaniel feel ambitious.

Reaching out to caress his face, Nathaniel also let himself be hypnotised by those clear eyes. So beautiful.

— It's okay, Jake.

The alpha sighed, holding Nathaniel's hand where he rubbed his cheek against his palm.

— Please, limit me. I know you're not ready for a lot of things yet, but the way I am right now... I could end up overstepping the mark and doing you some harm.

Did Jake remember what happened in the library? It was embarrassing to remember that he could have ruined the whole atmosphere by not letting the alpha touch his body. That time Nathaniel had felt Jake's burning desire, and he had really wanted to be touched.

But...

What if Jake was disgusted by his body?

He could have accepted the scars on his face and his hands, but that didn't mean he would accept what was on his chest.

He knew very well that it was horrible and disgusting.

He didn't want Jake to feel disgusted. That could drive him away from the omega.

Biting his lip, Nathaniel sat down on the bed without moving his hand from the alpha's cheek.

— I'm sorry, Jake, but I just ask you not to take my shirt off.

The light eyes rose to his and a thin smile appeared.

— Is that the limit? At least I can take off your sweatshirt? You'll suffocate to death if you wear that all the time.

Nathaniel was definitely hot. It wouldn't be a problem, as long as the alpha didn't take his shirt off.

Silently nodding, Nathaniel was surprised when Jake himself took hold of his sweatshirt and pulled it up to take it off. Although the gesture seemed silly and insignificant, it was different for Nathaniel. It was as if Jake had stripped away one of his many layers of security to reach the omega he was hiding behind.

Unlike the other times, Nathaniel wore a shirt under his sweatshirt, revealing his arms with small scars. At the sight of them, Nathaniel looked away, fearful of the alpha's reaction.

He would surely be disgusted.

He would think that no other part of his body was free of hideous scars.

Nathaniel wasn't handsome and certainly not someone whose body was attractive.

About to be swallowed up by his thoughts, Nathaniel was startled by the chill he felt on his skin. Turning round quickly, his eyes widened in surprise as Jake kissed each of the small scars on his arm. A long, gentle kiss, as if he respected their existence.

— Why? — Murmured the omega — Why do you always kiss my scars?

The alpha's feline light eyes lifted to the omega. Jake took Nathaniel's hand and intertwined their fingers, bringing his face close to his forearm where he rubbed his cheek.

— Because I want you to remember me every time you look at them.

For an instant, Nathaniel felt desired.

He was even speechless at the audacity of that alpha to seduce him so shamelessly. He might even have thought of something else, if it hadn't been for Jake stealing his attention by kissing him again and touching his body.

The boundaries were respected. Jake didn't lift Nathaniel's shirt or touch his chest as he had done the other times. Even so, the omega felt a tickle when the alpha's fingers fingered his arms and held his elbows in a silent request to be embraced by Nathaniel.

What was he supposed to do?

The heat was rising in his body to the point where he felt he might lose his mind at any moment. Jake's scent drugged him, increasing the pleasurable sensations.

He also wanted to touch him.

Timidly, Nathaniel's hands squeezed Jake's shoulders, moving down to his biceps where he felt the alpha's muscles contract in his palm. He was strong.

The memory of the alpha shirtless while training at the farm made him want to touch him even more. He also wanted to smell him more, to feel his warmth...

His body moved on its own. Nathaniel let himself be guided by his own desire as he repeated the kisses Jake had given him. The moment the omega started kissing Jake's neck, close to his lobe, the alpha released an enormous amount of pheromones.

From that moment on, Nathaniel experienced the sensitivity of his whole body to the insane desire to be touched. Embracing Jake, the omega pushed him onto the bed so that he could sit on his lap and pull his shirt off.

But he hesitated.

Why would he take Jake's shirt off when he himself had told him not to? Wouldn't that be hypocritical of him?

He wanted to see Jake without that shirt. It was getting in the way of the omega feeling the warmth of his alpha.

Thoughtful, Nathaniel was surprised when Jake guided his hand to continue removing his shirt. With a cheeky grin on his face, the alpha seemed to know exactly what was bothering his omega.

— You can take it off, it'll be a hindrance anyway.

Biting his lip, Nathaniel continued to hesitate.

— But I'm not going to take mine off. That seems unfair...

Jake let out a laugh, taking Nathaniel's hand under his shirt and touching his chest. The strong, rigid muscles beneath the clothes increased the omega's arousal, which he couldn't even hide.

— The world is unfair, and you want me. Don't hide it from me and make me yours, Nathaniel.

How could he say that in such a sexy way? His low, husky voice sounded like a little demon whispering in her ear.

Only he had allowed it.

Jake had forbidden him to hold back.

And so Nathaniel would act.

From that point on, there would be no gentleness between them. It was Nathaniel himself who stole a searing kiss from Jake just after he had taken off his shirt and appreciated the beautiful sight before his eyes.

Although all his life it had been difficult to consider a person hot, Nathaniel seemed to have finally understood the concept of attraction in mere seconds. It was enough to see Jake shirtless, and the thought came to him.

Hot. Jake was simply hot.

He wanted to touch him.

He wanted to mark him

Cover him in his scent and make him yours.

His curious hands traced Jake's curves and scratched him as the alpha touched him intimately. Just as his neck was filled with hickeys and bites, Nathaniel returned the favour, leaving Jake's skin completely reddened and marked.

His arousal reached the point where it was unbearable to hold on to his clothes. Jake didn't need to ask permission either, as the omega himself brought his hands down to the fly of his trousers, begging him to take them off.

He needed more.

More touches.

There was a part of his body that seemed to be screaming.

It was maddening to understand himself. His body was practically moving on its own, even though the omega understood that he was searching for something. Something that only Jake could give him.

Then, as his trousers and underwear fell to the floor, and their intimacies rubbed against each other, Nathaniel experienced an explosion of sensations the likes of which he had never imagined would exist in the world.

Jake reversed positions, laying the omega between his pillows while he lifted his leg and kissed and nibbled it, without taking his eyes off Nathaniel. It was as if he expected to see his every reaction, but also to be seen by his partner. It was just embarrassing to react so uncontrollably.

Using his arm to hide his face, Nathaniel could only feel. To feel Jake's warm, moist tongue kiss the inside of his thigh and then bite him. The teasing he did with his mouth certainly added to the pleasure that the alpha's hand brought to his intimacy.

He was completely wet from something his own body was expelling. The bittersweet odour of his pheromones mingled with Jake's woody scent. Every time he breathed, Nathaniel rolled his eyes, getting lost in his own lust.

He wanted more.

So much more.

— Aaah! — Nathaniel moaned as something slowly penetrated him.

Jake quickly grabbed him around the waist, leaning over to kiss his cheek.

— Relax, darling. I'm just getting you ready to receive me.

Receive him?

Before he could even try to think about it, Jake made a point of clouding his thoughts by moving whatever it was inside Nathaniel. That was definitely the way. Nathaniel longed for something, yet it wasn't enough.

Wrapping his arms around Jake, Nathaniel slowly opened his eyes and leaned his forehead against the alpha's.

— M-More... That's not enough.

— Hehe, as you wish.

Something else entered Nathaniel, and Jake's movements reached a point that almost turned the omega's body into jelly.

— Hngh! J-Jake...

— Tell me, do you like it? You're quite lubricated, I can slide my fingers in easily.

So it was his fingers? Nathaniel didn't dare look, it was too embarrassing.

With just the alpha's fingers, Nathaniel reached his limit. The shiver that ran through him was certainly pleasurable, but his desire had not yet been quenched.

Jake moved away long enough to grab something from his dresser next to the bed. Panting, Nathaniel followed him with his gaze, recognising the condom that the alpha picked up and opened.

— Now I'm going to make you beg for more, Nath. But first, help me put it on, hm?

With a trembling hand, Nathaniel helped Jake put the condom on his member. Now that he was paying more attention, he was surprised by its size. The other time he'd seen him, he'd also been amazed, because he hadn't realised Jake would be like this. However... Now it was worrying, because that huge thing was going to get inside him.

— You're staring at me a lot, are you scared? — Jake whispered, lifting Nathaniel's chin.

— What if I do something wrong?

— Pfft! Relax, darling. Trust me and enjoy the fun.

When they kissed, Nathaniel gave Jake his trust. He was nervous because it was his first time, but certain things were out of his control. He just acted... Naturally and instinctively.

But how could he lose himself in anxiety and fear when Jake was touching him again and making him hard even after he had already come? How could he not yearn for more when he seemed to be about to reach the peak of something?

It was the second time he'd called him sweetheart. His heart raced like a bullet train. Nathaniel was happy.

He wanted him.

— Don't hold back, Nath — whispered the alpha, biting his thumb — Do what you want with me, hm?

— In that case...

Nathaniel began to bite Jake's neck and shoulder. Strong bites that elicited a painful moan from the alpha. Running the tip of his tongue over the marks, the omega rejoiced in touching and kissing Jake's body.

A gasp escaped his lips when his legs were pulled apart and his body was pressed completely against the alpha's. Something pulsed in his entrance, and he was so aroused by the pain. Something pulsed at his entrance, and it wasn't long before the sensation of fulfilment made him arch his back. It took a moment to get used to the small volume inside him, but when he moved his hips, that volume increased in size and went deeper and deeper.

Rolling his eyes, Nathaniel simply exploded with pleasure.

Clinging to the alpha's arms, he begged.

— Deeper, uh...

With his arms stretched over his head and held by Jake, the alpha lifted his leg to move.

— Holy shit, Nathaniel. That's a low blow.

When Jake pulled out of him, Nathaniel felt a sudden emptiness. He was getting what he wanted, he was being filled by his alpha and he took it away? Why was he being so mean?

In the blink of an eye, the omega was flipped over on the bed, on his knees and with his back to Jake. The alpha's hand pushed his back so that he arched his back for the jock, and again he was filled with his member, continuing where they had left off.

It was an awkward position, but Nathaniel didn't dislike it. He could feel Jake hugging him from behind, nibbling and licking the back of his neck and moaning in his ear.

— Moan for me, darling. Please, hm?

Darling... Nathaniel pulled back the sheet to hide his joy at receiving such affection from the person he loved. As a result, his moans were muffled. The moment Jake roared loudly, the loud moan also escaped the omega's mouth.

— Aaah! Ughn!

— That's it, just like that. That's a nice sound, hm? Shall we go again?

From that moment on, the moans became uncontrollable, but Nathaniel was pleased to be praised by Jake.