Juvenile Period: Reorganizing ideas (+ 18)

POV Kirijima Kizuna

I could smell the mint and citrus from the towel my younger brother used to clean my face.

Kizuna: "No matter the time, it's always comforting to be near him."

Kaito: You're quite intelligent, Kizuna, and perceptive too. How did you come to that conclusion?

Seeing him move his chair to be in front of me, I raise my gaze to try to look him in the eyes.

Kizuna: Strong people endure all kinds of dangers like "Oda Nobunaga". Someone has to carry the burden for the rest.

Kaito: *Sigh* Point number one, stop watching so many historical dramas.

I finish cleaning my face with the towel.

Kaito: Point number two, you are my sister. It's clear that if I have and can do something to help you, I will do it without hesitation.

Kizuna: So… you think I'm useless?

Feeling my face start to tremble from a nervous tic, I look at my little brother as he starts to smile.

Kaito: That brings us to the next point, you shouldn't create wrong ideas about useless things. Even the great Yasuke (弥助) knew that it makes no sense to have to carry everything alone, strength lies in using all your resources to get ahead.

Kizuna: But… in battle…

Feeling something touch my face, I lower my gaze to see how he passes the back of his hand over my cheek.

Kaito: Sister, there's no point in sacrificing yourself to protect us if it means you'll only hurt yourself.

Kizuna: Kai-chan?

Feeling the caress on my face, I drag the back of his fingers until he completely embraces my shoulder.

Kaito: Tell me, Kizuna, what would happen if Maki-chan were in trouble? If our mother couldn't do things for herself? At that moment, what action would you take?

Kizuna: I… would try to solve those problems.

Kaito: But how would you know if someone has problems if that person doesn't speak?

Feeling the weight of his forehead against my chin, my brother's tone of voice doesn't change.

Kaito: We can all keep the pain and store it in a box, but answer me, Kizuna, what happens when the box just fills up with pain and we can't get it out?

Kaito: Could someone pretend to hide the box when it's full? Tell me, could they always pretend not to be hungry? Is that normal?

Kizuna: No…

Kaito: That kind of thing happens a lot, Nee-chan. Letting something just accumulate makes things worse. In the end, we'll only see that person suffer.

Kizuna: That's…

Raising his body, my brother sat back down in his chair in front of me.

Kaito: I trust you, Kizuna. If I were to fall from the ceiling, I'm sure you'd always catch me. I'm sure you'd even look for a way to stop me from falling. That's why let me protect you as much as I can.

Kizuna: That's why… you try so hard…

My brother for a moment looked to one side to look at me again with a smile on his face.

Kaito: I'm sure you'd do something for me and our family, so let me help you and not see you suffer.

Kizuna: Okay.

Kaito: Did I do something wrong, Kizuna?

Shaking my head, I join my two hands to lean on and get closer to my brother.

Kizuna: What princess (姫 -hime) wouldn't be happy to be protected by her knight?

Kaito: Kizuna.

Looking at me with half-closed eyes, my brother had an expression as if he suspected me.

Kaito: Is Saeko lending you her books?

Kizuna: Yes… they're entertaining, but I don't want you to do anything dangerous.

Kaito: Of course, I also don't want you to do something you wouldn't want me to do.

Kizuna: Yes… besides, kai-chan.

Raising my hand, I started to gently hit the bed sheets.

Kizuna: Today… can I?

Kaito: Sure… just let me take a bath.

Kizuna: I'll wait for you…

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POV MC (Kirijima Kaito)

Thursday morning

Looking at a man with dark gray hair wearing a sports suit, he took out a megaphone while standing on a platform.

Professor: ~Listen, children, we must always be tolerant in these competitions. If you can't achieve your goal today, you can strive tomorrow, so show your own results today~

Children: ~Aye Sir~

Looking at my sister Kizuna, she was wearing sports pants and a white shirt. In addition to her expressionless face, she had a green handkerchief on her head.

Kizuna: Today I will try very hard.

Kaito: I'm sure of that, Kizuna.

Masaki: Show them that they should not underestimate the Kirijimas.

Girl: I agree.

The girl who was standing next to my sister Masaki had hair the same color as the green hair but a darker tone, she smiled at all of us.

Girl: I'm counting on you, Kizuna-san, let's finish the race together.

Kizuna: We will win, not just finish.

Raising a fist in the air, my sister had a firm tone.

Kaito: You should get ready, it's almost your turn.

Nodding, my sister and the girl started walking towards some tables with the teachers.

Masaki: Is she Yuuta-senpai's girlfriend?

Looking quickly at my sister, I got a little excited at her comment.

Kaito: Maki-chan, don't jump to conclusions again.

Masaki: But Yuuta-senpai seemed to care a lot about that girl.

Kaito: I won't deny it, but don't say those things out loud. She is his childhood friend, like my relationship with Saeko.

Masaki: Ahh, so she's his wife.

Choking on my own saliva, the words didn't come out of my mouth when I heard that phrase.

Kaito: Ma…ma

Masaki: Niinii, I didn't know you're a Tsundere.

Kaito: *sigh* Maki-chan

Straightening my posture again, I try to clear my throat again.

Kaito: "I think I'm doing something wrong here, I'm an adult who has a lot of knowledge about how to raise children because of my frustrated dream. I think I can cause a lot of misunderstandings, besides breaking my promise with my sisters. I don't want to take dad's place."

Masaki: Niinii, what's wrong?

Kaito: Nothing, Maki-chan, don't you want to sit down to wait for Mom?

Masaki: Yes.

My little sister closes the distance between us to start walking towards the steps.

Kaito: "Well, maybe I break my promise, but it's for a good reason, I think I'm already tired of her nightmare too."

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Kaito: "Kijima Kizuna is one of the heroines that you can see her end explicitly".

Kaito: "After being abandoned by their mother the Kijima siblings suffer an event that will mark them as a family, the same uncle who took their mother brings more of his siblings to adopt each child to take them to live elsewhere with different families but my uncles did not expect that Kizuna decided that no one would separate us".

Kaito: "At that time the grandmother was very separate from the siblings but she decided to send them an allowance every month to live in her apartment, Kizuna decided to take the place of the mother giving affection to her siblings that they didn't receive"

Kaito: "When she turned 18 she decided to go to a small university to become a secretary and give a better life to her brothers, she was a mother to Kaito and they complemented each other with the love they needed".

Kaito: "But this is not a happy story, having complicated feelings and being rejected for being inexpressive she developed a kind of love for Kaito but she couldn't say it, in these stories they always have very developed bodies and she was no exception."

Kaito: "In college she started to get frustrated by the fact that she didn't want anyone to know about her feelings so she joined a club to forget about her love for her brother and that led to a worse situation".

Kaito: "When she was drunk she was recorded confessing her love for her little brother which led to a lot of blackmail by many teachers in her club all old men who liked Kizuna's body and in the end she started her hell."

Kaito: "Not having much money they would tape her in her apartment until they were satisfied like animals starting new threats telling her that they will upload all the content on the internet and showing her little brother what she did she stopped caring what they did to her body if no one in her family found out she would live happily."

Kaito: "It all ended when Kaito went to visit her he wanted to explain how their mother died and explain that she never left them the scene he found was his sister ignoring him for wanting to serve too many men in her room starting to line up for her turn, kaito left and Kizuna didn't care."

Kaito: "After a year Kizuna was in a luxurious apartment clinging to life as she ended up pregnant but no one cared about taking her to a hospital because it would be more trouble trying to save her and her child, she ended up dying in childbirth realizing that nothing made sense anymore after feeling her child die she just couldn't handle it"

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Kaito: "What was the developers' goal in showing all that?" *Whisper* It just makes me angry.

Lowering my head, I watched as my foot climbed one step after another while listening to the voices of the adults starting to chat among themselves.

Kaito: "My nightmares, I can feel the feeling again and again because I always relive the moment as if it were the first time, [no matter when I prepare myself…]"

Feeling a small blow to my head, I hardened my gaze to visualize the image of my grandmother holding a paper fan.

Grandmother: Kai-chan, now is not the time to be in the clouds, you must support your sister.

Looking back, my sister didn't show any emotion on her face, but it was noticeable that she started to sweat from the excitement.

Grandmother: GO GO

The grandmother, dressed in a strong pink kimono, showed her formality. However, her face didn't show any feeling as she moved the fans from side to side.

I cleared my throat to look at my grandmother while my voice tone became deeper and I began to squint, wrinkling my forehead and nose as if I were angry.

Kaito: Mother

Grandmother: What's wrong, Kai-chan?

Stretching my hands with my palms towards my grandmother, my voice tone began to be firm.

Kaito: I also want some fans.