Chapter 87

I stared. I had never seen Thor do that. Never saw a playful side. I loved it.

"Careful Brother. I may just have to stab you again."

I snickered. "Yeah, I heard some good stories about you as a child. Green paint in the throne room? Really?"

Loki looked at Thor, insulted. "You told her stories? I expressly told you not to."

Thor laughed. "Yeah, she can be persuasive. And it gives me a chance to annoy you. Win-win if you ask me."

I couldn't take it. I dropped to my knees and laughed. All three of them watched and laughed with me, happy to see me laughing again.

I finally caught my breath and stood. "Alright my three bad ass hunks. I guess it's time to head back to the Tower." As the men turned to get their clothes, I spanked Loki on the ass… hard.

He yelped and spun around. "You dare to do that to me?"

"Yeah, I dare Mischief Man. For several reasons. One, you enjoy it. You are like me and like pain. Two, you deserved it." I reached up and grabbed his hair and pulled his head down hard until I could whisper in his ear. He gave a soft moan at the pain of me pulling his hair. "Don't worry Kokoro no Yokubo, you can spank me later as punishment." 

Loki growled in my ear. "Without a doubt my pet. I will make you writhe as I drape you over my lap, that delicious ass all exposed for me. And I will make you beg for more." 

I chuckled. "I hate to rain on your parade, but in case you didn't notice, I already beg you for more, and more, and more. Because I can never have enough of you."

Loki pulled back and kissed me hard. "I love you my perfect sweet love."

I hugged him. "I love you too, Lokes." I looked at the other two. "I love you, Buck. I love you, Sparky."

"I love you too, Doll."

"I love you too Ari, but really. Sparky?"

I nodded. "Yep. Because when you are very aroused, and when you come, your eyes spark lightning. And it is a beautiful sight that only we three have seen. So, it is a private thing for us to understand why I call you Sparky."

Thor leaned over and kissed me softly, bringing a soft sigh to my lips. "Then I am honored to be called Sparky. Never thought I would say that though." 

"Yeah, well stick with me kid, you never know what will happen next."

"Exactly right, Doll. Just like this." 

Bucky spun and grabbed me and threw me on the floor. I stared up at him shocked as he grabbed my legs, pulled me to him, and shoved his cock into me hard. I knew I could have stopped him at any time but instead I moaned and bucked my hips to meet him as he started to thrust into me as hard as he could. He stared into my eyes as he fucked me. He leaned over me, bracing himself on his arms, and kissed me hard, devouring my mouth like he needed it to live. His thrusting became frantic as we both got close. 

He broke the kiss and leaned down to my ear and whispered "I need you, Doll. Now and forever. You're mine and I'm yours. I want to make you come, just me. Come for me Doll. Come with me."

His words mixed with the love and need of me, the need to feel me alive around him, the need to know I still loved and wanted him, kicked me over the edge and I came calling his name. He gave a hard thrust and came with me screaming my name. Shuddering, I laid there and he lowered himself to touch his forehead to mine. We were both panting.

"Sorry Doll. I just… I just needed something that was just me to know that you still accept me. Still love me and need me. That you still want me. That I still mean something to you. That I haven't lost you."

I felt a tear fall on my face and I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down on top of me for a kiss. I poured all the love and longing I felt into that kiss. How much I wanted and needed him in my life, not just for sex, but a major part of my life and who I was. 

"Thank you." I looked over Bucky's shoulder at Loki and Thor. "Thank you, all of you. Today, being with all of you, feeling how much you love and need me, it helped me find myself again. I kinda missed that confident bad ass chick. I just couldn't find her again on my own."

I cupped my hands around Bucky's face and lifted his head. I gave him a soft kiss. I closed my eyes and took a deep shaky breath. When I opened them, they were shiny with tears. I looked at Loki and Bucky. 

"Please, don't ever leave me again. For I swear here and now, I won't survive it. Please, don't any of you leave."

Loki knelt down and stroked my cheek with his fingers. "I will not leave you. I will not break that promise again. Your door will always be open, even if I am furious with you."

Thor came closer. "I may not have a door yet, but I can promise it will never close. I will never leave you."

I shivered. "I love the touching moment, but the floor is cold."

Thor laughed as Bucky helped me up. I still gave a sigh when he pulled out of me. He gave me grin and whispered in my ear, "I could stay inside you forever."

I felt a curl of desire and let him feel exactly what that statement did to me. He gave a wicked smile and suddenly swooped me up in his arms. I shrieked and laughed as he carried me the few feet to my clothes. He set me down and bowed.

"My Lady."

I slapped his chest. "Don't you start that shit. It's already weird with the wonder twins over there. I swear, Thor bowed earlier and it was strange. And can the 'my lady' shit. I am no Lady. Ladies don't swallow or fuck like rabbits." I cocked my head. "I guess I could become a lady if you really wanted me too."

There were choruses of "I do not think that is necessary, my pet" "I'm good Doll." "You are perfect the way you are, Ari."

I grinned as I got dressed. I looked out the window. It would be sundown soon. 

"Can we all do something together? I want to go sit in the field and watch the sunset with the men I love most."

"I think that is a great idea, Doll."

Together we went downstairs and for the first time, I left the house. The field was beautiful, filled with wildflowers just like Loki said. We went to the middle and the men surrounded me. I leaned against Loki's chest while Bucky leaned against my shoulder and Thor laid his head in my lap. 

As the sun sank, the colors of the sky were amazing. Pinks and purples. I hadn't stopped to just watch a sunset in… well… never. I was always hiding, always on the run. I watched as the sky filled with thousands of stars. This was the most peaceful I had felt in my life.

As we sat there, I remembered something from when I was in my coma. "Kokoro no Yokubo, Kokoro no Kiseki, you learned Japanese just for me?"

Loki created a ball of light so that he could see me. 

"Yes, my pet. For you are truly Kuin'obumaihato."

I smiled and kissed him tenderly. "I am honored to be the queen of your heart."

"I wanted something close to you. I had already been working on it before everything, but I couldn't find the right words. When you were in a coma, the words came to me, Watashi no Yuiitsu." Bucky had been holding my hand and he started to rub the top of my hand with his thumb. 

"Oh, Kokoro no Kiseki…"

"What does it mean?" Thor looked up at Bucky.

"My only love. Because she is. I've never really loved anyone before. And I'll never love anyone but her in my life."