Chapter 101

Eventually I knew I had to come back, at least to apologize to all of you for wasting your time on someone not worthy of it. I fought my way free from my mind and found out I just couldn't face them. Couldn't face the pain I still felt. It's also why I never talked. I knew once I did, I'd break.

Then Thor came in. He just held me and cried. It shocked me so much to see him cry. I broke and just cried in his arms. When he went to leave, I asked him to stay since I'd already let a lot out. He held me while I slept and that night, I didn't have nightmares.

So, he came and stayed every night. I'd look out my window and see Bucky and Loki sitting, looking at my window, hoping to see me. They were always there, no matter what the weather was.

Thor told me early on that he loved me and felt I needed to know since he was spending the nights there. I knew I had to see Loki and Bucky before I could make any decisions. I had Thor tell them to come up. What I didn't expect was Thor to punch Loki in the face. He was furious with them when he heard what happened.

So, they came up. We talked and found we all still wanted each other and loved each other. They fully realized what they did, and I found out what they'd meant. And they offered something so unlike them. They knew Thor loved me and they figured out I loved him. So, they gave us one night and only one night to be together without any issues between all of us. 

Thor and I took it even knowing it was the only time he could have sex with me. To say the night was… fuck, there aren't any words to do it justice. I found that Thor has a rough side, and I loved every minute of it. My body was well used by morning.

Loki and Bucky came in and saw my bruises and Thor's scratches and figured out I like it really rough sometimes. So, they wanted to see and were… excited about it. I pulled them in, and we all ended up coming at the same time. 

It sounded like a bomb had gone off and Loki was the one that realized I had three soulmates and that Thor was my third. Neither feel strange about it and as you saw, it brought them closer and opened them up."

Wanda and Nat looked at me in tears. "Oh Ari. We all love you and none of us will ever leave you alone. I'm so sorry that you went through that. And that Loki and Bucky were dicks. I can't even say I'm gonna kick their asses because they suffered a lot after you cut your wrists. More than any of us could ever hurt them. So, I think they paid for it enough and then some. But some good did come out of it all. You got Thor. I don't think that would have happened if you hadn't had all that happen."

I looked at Nat surprised. "I never thought of it that way. I found my third soulmate and I brought two brothers together that just couldn't connect even though they cared about each other." I grinned. "And I got hella awesome sex to boot."

Wanda threw a pillow at me. "Yeah yeah, rub it in. I don't know about Clint, but Vision's in for a good time after all of this."

"Oh yeah. Poor guy won't know what hit him."

Our talk turned to planning the weddings. I told them I wanted a green themed for my wedding for Loki, blue for Bucky, and red for Thor. We didn't get much farther as we all started to fall asleep.

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"I have some bad news, Kid. We have a mission and I gotta take pretty much everyone. I'm leaving Nat and Clint here with you, so you aren't by yourself. But I do have to take Bucky and the God twins. I usually try not to take them all at once but this time I have to."

I felt my stomach tighten. All of them going meant the possibility of losing all of them. But I knew they were needed. Tony had finally filled me in on who and what Hydra was. 

I nodded. "When do you all leave?"

"Here in about 15 minutes. I knew you needed time to say goodbye."

"Thanks Dad."

He smiled, still delighted to be called dad. He left and I turned to go find my guys, but they were already behind me. Tony had already told them, and they found me quickly.

I went to Loki and wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him in for a kiss that left him dazed. "Please be careful. I can't lose you. Not again. I love and need you too much."

He held me close. "I will come back to you, my pet. I promise. I will not leave you again."

I nodded and gave him one last hug. I turned to Bucky and grabbed his hair and pulled him in for the same kind of kiss. "You had better come back too, Bionic Man. I need you and I can't live without you."

Bucky blinked and then held me tight. I felt the strength in that metal arm around me. "I'm coming back Doll. I promise. Always and forever remember?"

With one more squeeze he let me go. I turned to Thor. This was the first time I've had to say goodbye to him for a mission as my soulmate. I grabbed him and gave him a kiss like he had not had before. He was as dazed as Loki and Bucky had been. 

"You come back too, Thunder God. Or I will go to Valhalla and get you back myself."

Thor grinned. "I will be back, Angel. Even if part of me would love to see you take on Valhalla."

I laughed and gave one more hug. I stepped back and looked at all three of them.

"I love you all so much. Be careful. I can heal the hurts, which I forgot to tell Tony about, so I just need you back." 

My voice broke and the tears I was holding back fell. As one they all three enveloped me in a hug, their love mentally surrounding me.

"We love you too, my sweet. We will all return to you."

With one last hug, they left. Nat came in and hugged me. "They're gonna be fine girl. They know what they're doing. Come on. You can see the jet from the upper level."

She took me to a room that was nothing but windows. I could see most of my family as they got on the jet and prepared to leave. I waved, knowing they couldn't see me. I sent the guys all my love and the desire to have them all when they got back. I felt an answering desire and smiled.

I watched as the jet flew away and turned to Nat. "So now what?"

"Hmm, how about some movies and popcorn?"

"That sounds fantastic. Let's get Robin Hood and go relax."

Nat laughed and grabbed my waist and together we went to the living room. Clint beat us there and already had the popcorn made.

He looked at me. "So, what are we watching?"

"Ari's pick."