When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

Anurak left Sud's room in a daze. On one hand, he was stressing out about what happened at the gym. He felt guilty towards Sophea and was also disgusted with himself. He felt a strong need to understand why he was like that. 


For a very long time, he was attracted to men, but it was never sexual. Whenever he saw a boy and told his mum that the boy was beautiful, his mum would tell him that he should only say that to girls. “Only men like your deadbeat father find other men to be pretty. Men are good-looking, girls are pretty, okay.” She would sneer at him, scaring him shitless. So he stopped telling her that other boys were cute or pretty. 


Basketball court