When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

*This chapter is dedicated to @nanahehe. Thank you. 


Anurak left because he was embarrassed and upset that New made such comments in Dao's presence, but by the time he got outside the club, his mind had drifted off to other things. Things like the gay guys either dancing or holding each other's hands. Anurak would try to figure out who was the bottom and who was the top. When he saw a straight couple, he would wonder if they were pegging. He had been feeding his mind with porn and lots of sex-related information. Due to this, within two days, anal sex became some sort of obsession. 


The moment he stepped out, he spotted a gay couple necking in the shadows. This wouldn't be the first time he would see such things. In fact, he had seen worse, especially at Moonglow. But for the first time in his life, Anurak didn't worry himself about his morals. He squinted his eyes, trying to force them to see in the dark. He had watched lots of sex videos, and now he wanted to see the real thing. 


I miss him!