When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

The table where Phaya and Matt were was not far from the bar. From Anurak's position, he was looking directly at Phaya's profile. From his seat, he saw Matt using one hand to run Phaya's manhood. He couldn't see the bulge, but he was sure that Phaya was hard. Anurak looked around to see if any other person noticed. The bar was crowded and people were focused on themselves. Anufak was probably the only one snooping on others. 


At their table, Matt and his friends were talking mostly about school projects that made no sense to Phaya. They were talking about Agric and he was an engineer. There was no relativity whatsoever. It seemed that their class would be having an execution to an horticulture field and they were to be put in groups. While they were discussing, Phaya was focused on drinking while Matt was focused on torturing him. His body was constantly restless and from Anurak's point of view, Phaya was having a good time. 


This is also possible?