When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

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Despite being drugged, Anurak didn't have a good night. 


Because he was drugged, he found himself locked in a non-stop chain of nightmares, relieving his childhood like a roll of cinema films. 


His fights with his father, her parent's fights, the harsh words and screams, the curse words and punches. Sometimes, it was a belt or an object. 


No matter how he tried, he couldn't wake up and the dreams wouldn't stop. 


Since Anurak couldn't sleep, King also couldn't rest. From the moment the dreams started, the boy started thrashing around in bed. He was whimpering inaudible words and crying. Some phrases would be clear, but the next moment, what would follow would be meaningless. 


Regretting not using a higher dose of the sleeping drug, King held Anurak in his arms, continuously whispering reassurance into the boy's ears, knowing fully well that his drugged mind couldn't hear him. 


Aunty Cahya leaves