When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

 "Now that we know the various identities you have in relation to others, I have one more question on your identity. Anurak Dæd-Câd. Outside everything you presently are, who do you want to be? Let me rephrase that. What do you want to be?” 


“I want to be an engineer. I want to work on race cars.” 


After checking out Anurak's background, he assumed that the boy would say he wanted to be a professional biker. 


“I do.” Anurak nodded. Not surprised that the man knew so much about him. 


He indeed wanted to take his chances at bike racing, but Sophea was completely against it. She was the one who decided that he would become a mechanical engineer. But would it be okay to mention her name here? 


“Bike racing is dangerous.” He replied in a low voice, unable to meet Master Ken's eyes. 


A new Identity, A New Purpose