Chapter 117: Her Past, His Past— All The Same

Thinking about it Tatsuya realised that 'Emotional Sadism' may be the case.

When he usually caused the girls suffering or pain, he enjoyed it. That led him to think that he might be a sadist.

But after the session with Kushida where he whipped her for an hour straight Tatsuya became unsure of his conclusion.

Was it really sadism?

He wondered...

Now today, as he looked at Ichinose who was wiping her mouth with a disgusted expression he realised it was the mental suffering that actually aroused him.

Airi's insecurity, Kushida's broken pride, Karuizawa's humiliation and Ichinose's kind desperation.

In essence, this was what satisfied him.

Tatsuya finally realised why he had sexually manipulated his mother.

"Are... we done?" Ichinose asked hesitantly, shaking Tatsuya out of his musings.

"Of course not." Tatsuya patted her head with an amused expression before making her stand up.

Ichinose's curvy body made his half-erect dick shoot back up.

Ichinose felt her lips twitch as she watched his cock become hard again. She could still feel the odd taste lingering in her mouth.

She tried consoling herself, reasoning that it was for her class.

Yet somewhere in her heart, there lingered a conflicting question which she dared not address.

She silently listened to Tatsuya and obeyed him. Perhaps, the longer she struggled the longer it would take for this to end.

Her body wasn't feeling right in the first place.

All she wanted now... was an end.

Tatsuya hugged her and fondled her ass with glee.

Ichinose felt his hands dig into her flesh.

Tatsuya groped her and couldn't help but be surprised by the softness of her ass. He pulled and gave her ass a spank which made Ichinose yelp in surprise.

Chuckling he pushed her on the bed. He grabbed her legs and placed them on his shoulders causing Ichinose to wave her hands in panic.

This position made her feel more vulnerable than ever.

Tatsuya's lust increased as he looked at her glistening snatch. There was even a thin layer of pink pubic hair.

"Surprisingly clean," Tatsuya teased as he scratched the skin beneath the pubes with his fingernail.

Ichinose's face was bright red at this point. She never felt so embarrassed in her life. She thought she was okay with showing her naked body to him but evidently, she had overestimated herself.

Seeing her look shy Tatsuya was lost in her cuteness. It was really weird, she had this weird charm about her that Tatsuya couldn't deny.

He forcefully pulled her legs open and rubbed his cock at her entrance. Ichinose felt the intimidating heat from his cock envelope her pussy.

Her face was already beet red due to her exposed body but now she had to deal with her first time being taken away like this.

"If only I could've had a normal life..." She muttered and Tatsuya paused, his cock resting on top of her pussy.

"What's abnormal about it?"

"I made a stupid mistake and wasted six months of my life. I thought I had gotten over it and came here trying to fix and forget but... in the end, I'm going to lose my innocence without even getting into a proper relationship... Why... Why is life so unfair?"

Tatsuya's hands roamed around her legs. He looked at the vacant look in Ichinose's eyes and felt nostalgic.

She was in a similar state to him in the past.

Similar to the Tatsuya who had lost both his sister and his mother. It wasn't like he didn't try sleeping with other women but how could they ignite the fiery excitement of taboo the way his own family could?

In reality, what made Tatsuya really sad was that perhaps... He never really thought of them as family in the first place.

"So you also made a mistake like me?" Tatsuya spoke softly, slowly arranging the words he needed to say to make Ichinose open her heart.

He liked to see her struggle, to see her fight back.

But if she was going to fall back into depression and turn unresponsive all his fun would be lost.

Ichinose was surprised by his words and slowly looked at him.

"A few years ago I too made a mistake. Life became boring. I shut myself in and started wasting life."

"Why does your life look perfect then?" Inevitably Ichinose felt irritated. His words resonated with her heart but at the same time, Yamamoto Tatsuya talking about suffering felt incredibly weird.

"Doesn't your life also feel perfect from the outside?" Tatsuya countered back and Ichinose frowned.

After all, in her heart, she was still the Ichinose stuck in her room. She had just hidden it away.

But that made her understand.

Tatsuya had hidden it as well.

His suffering.

Ichinose's heart felt stifled. Her heart longed for validation but she was unaware of it. She wanted someone to tell her that what she did wasn't a big deal and that it was okay since she didn't mean harm.

But life never worked the way you wanted it to.

Ichinose turned her eyes away from Tatsuya and stared at the ceiling.

The past rewinded.

"But I'm a criminal..."

She uttered the deepest secret in her heart.

"So am I."

"...I stole."

"So did I."

Tatsuya smiled as he noticed the tears forming in her eyes, "How interesting, isn't it fate that we're both thieves?"

The word thief stung Ichinose's heart but somewhere the fact there was someone else like her comforted her, even if it was a little bit.

Sometimes in life, all one needs is this little bit of happiness to continue moving on.

So what if he was lying?

As long as she thought it was true then so be it. If he could rape then why couldn't he steal as well?

Tatsuya leaned in and cupped Ichinose's cheeks forcing her to look at him. Ichinose had no choice but to look at his handsome and striking features.

"Since you're a thief and a criminal you shouldn't expect a normal lover in the first place. Why should a normal person have to love you, a criminal? Isn't that right, Ichinose?"

"But..."

"Life isn't fair Ichinose. A normal person should find a normal person and a criminal should find a criminal."

Ichinose felt her lips twitch at his twisted logic.

She felt incredibly uncomfortable.

"I don't understand you. Why are you having this kind of meaningless chat with me when all you want is my body?" Ichinose's eyes turned cold, "Just do whatever you want and leave. Stop playing with words."

Looking at her cold eyes Tatsuya chuckled.

"Because it's not meaningless."

Ichinose's lips quivered.

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