Eiharu thought he would never have to deal with the cruelty of other people by staying home. But he knows there is a limit to how long he can avoid his life and pretends everything is fine.

When those affect him in the past one by one show themselves, add to the guilt of pushing the few people he cares about from their happiness, and drive him to the corner once again. He just wants to live in his small world without anyone, yet the loneliness carved too deep in his heart, the uncomfortable stir shakes him to the core. He wants to run away, but where?

"Maybe... there is a specific reason why we meet again."

Eiharu pushes that hand away once. This time, he hesitates. He doesn't want to but he is too scared to accept it.

"I don't deserve someone like you."
"It's me to decide, not anyone else, not even you."

Aimless Drifting

Man, didn’t think I passed my initial end of the milestone this early, with the book isn’t even half-written. As usual, counting the words is my biggest weakness, haha. I didn’t want to write something long because I was skeptical about my own commitment. As I dislike leaving a work in progress in my folder, better to work on something short yet finished than a grandiose idea with no end to be seen. As I mentioned in my first note, finishing this book is my lifetime wish. I must wrap it up properly. 


Okay, let’s talk about the book now. 


As some of you have noticed, I mixed the suffixes with English and Japanese on purpose. Both aren’t my primary language, so I’m truly sorry for the mistakes I made while using the words. My intention is to show a different kind of ‘gesture’(?) with how certain characters view/address others. And since I’m not an expert in both languages (especially Japanese, I understand too little since I only learn by listening to what I watch and hear), I’m not sure how to do so with only one. I have to mix them and hope my readers understand what I’m trying to convey. 


And then, as I noticed the book is (probably) 25% done, I stopped counting the words and just write whatever I have in mind. I’m kinda want to expand the story more. After all, there are more than two characters involved, and I think everyone deserve a proper spotlight here and there. Let’s see how things turned out in the end. 


For you guys who stay with me until now, thank you very much for your support!


Author's Note II