CHAPTER 38 Conceding

  ~ CARA ~

  It was a great relief when Meg and I left the lab on Friday morning. My hands shook not because the blood tests had been too painful, but because I didn’t like thinking about what they might reveal. But then, Meg kept warning me that they might not reveal anything.

  “Because we don’t know what we’re looking for, I just did a full panel. Hormones and stuff. But I’ve also thrown in the DNA test, and I’m going to try and sneak in the genome sequencing when we do that assignment in a few weeks. Just… I’m not a doctor, Cara. I might not find anything abnormal at all.”

  Meg was being kind. I hadn’t meant to tell her, but as we were alone and my nerves increased, I’d ended up blurting a lot of it out. I didn’t tell my friend about the strange dreams and forays into the dark that seemed irresistible at times. But I admitted the feelings I was having—anger, aggression, sexual desire. And pointed to the healing of my knee.