CHAPTER 115 Not Over, but Through (5 Jan)

  ~ CARA ~

  I stood there in Rig’s shower, water rushing over me, surrounded in steam that smelled like him, and shivered. Not from cold, but from fear.

  If I was in love with Rig Landon, why didn’t I trust him? No one had ever made me feel safe the way he did—whether he was himself or in Ralf’s body, it didn’t matter. When he was close, I felt like there was a shield between me and the world. Even last night when he’d been so tense and aggressive, I’d never felt afraid of him.

  I’d feared being apart from him. It had been so hard in the car with Natalie between us. I’d just wanted to be in his arms.

  Those weeks after I saw him kiss her, when I’d thought they were sleeping together, and he was just… out there, with other people… that had been hell.

  To learn now that wasn’t what had happened. To see that his focus had shifted… I wanted that. And it terrified me, because if I just gave up and gave myself to him, I’d be in his thrall.