Make me your Goddess

-Are you sure that was him?- asks me Qin Luo -Yes, I'm completely sure about it... But that shouldn't be possible- I walk back and forth by the little river -So... Is that why we're "here"?- asks me Zhou, regretting speaking right away... I stop my nervous steps and look around me -Ah, I really did come all the way here without realizing. We might as well have a recap meeting all together-

I look toward the languid waves, closing my eyes as soon as a fresh breeze caress my face. The soft wind moves my hair in the air and brings forth a delicate sound of wind chimes... He's here.

I can hear him coming out from the water behind me, stopping beside me as he watches the other men with crossed arms. I re open my eyes and only then notice his clenched jaw and frowned forehead, he looks quite displeased and following his gaze I find the source of his state.

"Qin Luo...?" I think, rising an eyebrow. Qin Luo straightens his back and suck in a deep breath showing how the feeling is reciprocal.

Zhou and Xu Lei look at the two men awkwardly, Zhou even scratches his neck beginning to feel shy due to the weird tension lingering in the air... The man beside me knows quite well who Qin Luo is, on the other hand the General knows almost nothing about the other man yet he seems to hate him already. They have crossed paths before, only if for brief seconds, but this is the first time they are face to face.

I break the silence with a cough and pick up the conversation -Now that we're finally all here we should start- the man's tongue clicks -Start what exactly?- I look at him with the corner of my eyes, he knows what I'm talking about, or he wouldn't have came -I found something important today so I suggest we have a meeting and try to understand the situation together- at my words he scoffs and stare deeply into Qin Luo -I won't talk with anyone present here, I accepted to cooperate with you and you only- he says and then turns around, walking away.

-Wait! Come back, we need your help too- -Too?- he turns his head to look at me from over the shoulder, then looks at the men behind -To me it looks like ONLY I can be of some help here- looking back at the other men, he's not entirely wrong... He notices my troubled expression and turns to face me, now amused -So you do acknowledge it afterall, send them away and let's talk- he smirks and I can feel Qin Luo flaming with rage from behind us, sending death wishes with his eyes.

I don't do anything, I just stare at him confused... He's being extremely possessive and aiming at Qin Luo's sensitive spots on purpose. I don't want to hurt Qin Luo by agreeing with him, reminding him once again that he's not part of my world but I do need the help of this man on the current matter... Feeling the unstable situation, the two other men moves a bit away so not to interfere.

-Well?- he asks but I simply lower my eyes -Lai'Er, you don't need to say anything...- Qin Luo comes forward and lowers an hand on my shoulder, before taking toward the other man -... I understand. Sir, I think we should put aside any personal opinion right now and cooperate for the sake of this war... We all want the same thing afterall- -And that's exactly where you are wrong- his words are as sharp as blades, testing Qin Luo's patience, as his hand tightens on my shoulder before falling back by his side in a fist.

-Enough! Stop this, you two... You're acting like a jealous wife, do you want to hear you're right?- I ask to the water haired man -Then I'll play along, let's talk us two alone and then I'll be back at the camp to talk with you all- I rise my hand toward Qin Luo, now it is me who's angered -Qin Luo already has enough on his plate, no need for our General to meddle with a kid who's throwing a tantum- I deepen my stare, trying to get the message through but apparently that only amuses him more -She's protecting you, hope you know it... General- he says to him, without leaving my stare.

I rise my hand and open it flat in front of him, not touching him yet sending him back of a few meters with a gust of wind hitting him in full chest. He points his bare feet into the sand and stand his ground against the wind, water rising behind him as snake heads. Both ready to attack the other -Lai'Er! Don't fight this man, he's your most precious ally and we both know it even if I hate to admit it- warns me Qin Luo before we could actually begin so I come to an halt, my hand still risen up just to be cautious. My wirst gets caught by that man who pulls me toward him while looking pleased, one hand slipping on my waist as he stares toward the general with a smile... Pleased about making him jealous -Get lost-.

Qin Luo face darkens as he turns around and leaves silently, the other two men follows him and slowly disappear from my sight... I simply cannot help but lose all my resolution when I see him being hurt, I just stare at the place he was standing at, untill that other man brings me back to reality my lowering on my neck and biting.

I push him away and throw a couple of punches that he easly dodges -Why have you done all that?! Not only have you hurt him but you also ridiculed me!- -Ridiculed you? And how? I would never dare to do such a thing to you.- he's serious once again...

-You even dare ask? You made it look as if I was a damsel being fought by two men- he grabs my whole fist with one hand and stops my attack midair -I had to, I needed to show you how weak you become when that man is involved... You shouldn't allow anything to weight you down. I am clearly more useful than him, was it another person you would have told them so straight to their face and chose the most logical option... But you allowed your emotions to get the best of you-

I cannot reply to that, he's right

His hand becomes softer and slips down my arm, toward my neck and my cheek as he comes closer to me -I can be your pleasure and your ally, you don't need those stupid emotions for that man- he cups my face -As you have shown many times before, you can fight against me while also coming back to my side when you need me and I'll be willing to oblige and bend to your order... But him? you cannot even talk back to him. Because you feel remorse right after-

I bite my lip in guilt, it's true... Qin Luo said it himself, I'm too afraid to hurt him so I hold back and he hates that I do

-I should be the only person to stand by your side, everyone else should be behind us... They are unworthy- I widen my eyes and face him again in shock, but that feeling soon fades away leaving place to more rational thoughts...

He's right yes, but he's also using this truth to play with my mind, just as Dong Hu does. I push him away with both hands -You're right yes... But you're actually just a jealous man, you want to monopolize me- he smirks -Glad to see you're back to thinking clearly- I grab his collar and take him on my same eye level -I'll allow you to be the only man beside me, but don't think there's any feeling behind... I'm just going to use you- -And that's exactly what I've always wanted, I don't mind being your object if that helps you in becoming more powerful... I'll give you everything and accept you no matter what you do or how you treat me- he covers my hand with his -I already knew that you were messed up, I don't know what kind of whicked desire or secret agenda you have in mind... But you seem to surprise me everytime. Fine, make me your Goddess-