But after listening to one veteran after another, and a general recounting stories about his children, he realized what he lacked and what he had missed.
He realized he hadn't done enough and learned that it had always been Su Xiaowan accommodating him, sharing his burdens. He knew the life of a military spouse was hard, but now he understood more specifically the hardships they endured.
Han Dongchen felt extremely guilty. He learned to change, to become a better person in front of Su Xiaowan, knowing she liked the refined scholar air like that of her elder male cousin.
But he was far from that. However, he had started to bridge that gap long ago. He studied cultural subjects diligently and read many books, even though he found it boring, but still forced himself.
Then he thought of this method, wanting to do something to let Su Xiaowan know he truly, truly missed her and cared about her.