Hard Core!

I'm waking up... I'm hearing the beeping of the heart monitor but then it all comes back to me. The reason why I'm hearing that beeping, the reason why I smell antiseptic…I let the wolf kill someone, Christ, I close my eyes and then I want to cry, I feel the tears stinging my dry eyes… My eyes want to flutter open but then I don't want to wake up.

I'm scared of what would happen when I'm awake, so I want to continue sleeping, I want to sleep forever.

But it's impossible to not wake up, it's funny because when you're at the verge of sleep you fight to be awake but it's impossible…now it's impossible to fall asleep.

I laugh and then I sit up.

Aunt Ellen Is sleeping on the couch, she's the only one here. She's waking up because of my loud noises and now I regret waking her up, when her eyes open....

It's red and puffy, like she's been crying.