Craving

She nodded her head and spoke as she looked down, slowly recalling what happened

"At first, when I started to kiss you, I was a little embarrassed and reluctant, and wondered when I would be able to stop the whole time. But as time went on and I kissed you more, for some reason I stopped doing it because you asked me to, and started to kiss you all over the face out of my will, like some kind of animal who wanted a piece of you." 

Her ears turned red when she recalled the scene, and she didn't dare look up at me.

"I knew I wasn't acting like I normally would and was behaving like someone else. But I simply couldn't stop myself from acting that way, as that sensation inside of my body slowly spread to all parts of my body, making me want to get a hold of you and not let go, no matter what."

"Sensation?...What sensation did you feel?" 

I asked, already having an idea of what that 'sensation' was that made her act that way, from the hints given in the guidebook.

"Well, rather than calling it a sensation, it would be better to call it a 'release'."

"A release?"

"Yes, a release. It was like something that was sealed inside my body, or rather sealed in the blood that flowed through my veins, was unleashed. 

At first, when I kissed you, I didn't feel it much. But as our bodies merged and I kissed you many more times, the feeling of something getting released was more apparent in my body, to the point that it contaminated my whole body and made me act like an animal in heat." 

Astrid hugged me as if she were scared of that feeling of something being released in her body that made her act a certain way without knowing anything about it or being unable to control it. 

Seeing her look so scared, I pulled her up closer to me and patted her back, which made her look up at me with a sense of security and relief, knowing that I was there by her side.

"When you say release, there has to be something that's released along with it, or a feeling or instict that's been sealed for a long time that's been released in the process. 

Can you tell me what exactly you felt when you felt that sense of release in your body, or the changes that it brought to you?" 

I asked, already having a faint idea of what it might be from the events that I read in the guidebook.

"Craving..." Astrid said as she rested her face on my chest and closed her eyes to calm herself down. 

"It was some sort of craving for your mind and body, as if I wanted to devour it and make it mine.

Not only did I want to make you mine, I also really wanted you to make me yours, and give me something that no one else can give to me, that would satisfy that craving of mine."

"That something that I wanted from you was probably hidden deep inside you, which was the reason I started to get so passionate with you by the end and didn't want you or anyone to interrupt me in the process of attaining it." Astrid wriggled her head comfortably on my chest, as if she felt the most peace lying down on me.

"Then what do you think would have happened if I hadn't stopped you?" I asked, which made Astrid shiver and look up at me with a bashful look on her face.

"If you hadn't stopped me...T-Then I think I-I would have tried to do some e-embarassing to you that I can't say out..."

She quickly buried herself back onto my chest, not willing to let me see her watery eyes that looked like they were going to cry out of embarrassment.

I didn't tease her like I usually would and just patted her head, which calmed her vigorous heartbeat quite a bit.

While Astrid relaxed in my arms, I thought about what she said about the feeling of 'release', and already confirmed that it stemmed from her bloodline and how it interacts with someone with a stronger bloodline.

Basically, the release she described now was technically a type of seal that broke in her blood due to the concentration and power of her bloodline increasing. 

The reason her bloodline concentration increased and was becoming much more purer, similar to her ancestor's blood, was because of me.

When two people with strong bloodlines are in the presence of one another, the two bloodlines will either try to suppress one another without taking the purity into account.

Or the stronger bloodline will supplement the weaker one, depending on the gender of the opposite party.

If the two people who have strong bloodlines are both female, then they will try to suppress one another's bloodline out of instinct, since the other person is their competitor when it comes to finding an ideal mate to reproduce with, and they instinctively wouldn't get along with one another.

But if one party is male and the other is female with a weaker bloodline in his presence, her bloodline power will be stimulated under the influence of the male's bloodline aura, which he gives off at all times, without his knowing.

As the female's bloodline is stimulated in the male's presence, it increases the purity of her blood and brings out the hidden potential and insticts that come out with it.

One of those instincts being, the desire for a female with a strong bloodline to want to bear the children of a male with a stronger bloodline, which was the main driving force of the saints, and their mission in life to reproduce and increase the population of the race.

Normally, the influence of the male's bloodline would be very weak and slow in nature and could almost be considered negligent, even if they spent every moment of their lives together.

But that's only if the female has no feelings that a person would have towards a member of the opposite sex when you look at them as a potential partner in their life. Like for example, feelings of love, affection, desire, lust, trust, or concern towards the other individual.

If by chance the female does have those fond feelings towards the other party, then the increase in bloodline purity will increase by several folds compared to when they have absolutely no feelings or only have a sense of friendship or acquaintanship towards the other person.

This gauge comes in line with the new generation of matriarchs wanting to find the most suitable and optimal partner who's children she will carry. 

Back when the matriarchs existed, the only condition they had for a partner was for them to have a stronger bloodline, which could provide the seed they needed to reproduce. 

But since the bloodline of the matriarch's descendants are much weaker compared to the original, the desire to reproduce is also much weaker comparitively, and they focus more on whether they like the other person or not instead of whether they can provide them with healthy babies.

So, rather than desiring a partner who can give them the seed they need, they want a partner who they can not only see as a lover who they can spend the rest of their life with in harmony. But also a father who will take care of their children in the future and live happily together as a family.

So basically, they wish to have someone they are interested in as a person and a potential partner, just like anyone else in this world.

And as the female's bloodline purity increases along with the affection and fond feelings she has for the person with the stronger bloodline, her instincts to carry his child will also increase her craving for his body and mind and so does her wish to make him hers and mark him as her own.

But for the female to lose control of herself and try to forcefully or aggressively want to become one with the other party, like what Astrid did just now, occurs only if the feelings she has for me has gone to the point where she wouldn't simply be fine with carrying my child. 

But she was more than happy to do so, and it was one of her greatest desires come true, which was similar to finding the love of her life. 

Or at least someone she feels would make her happy for the rest of her life by simply staying by her side.

So basically, the reason she acted that way was because Astrid had fallen in love with me. 

Or the more reasonable explanation in her case was that she was simply very fond of me as a person and loved to be by my side, as I gave her what everyone desires the most when it comes to emotions, which is the feeling of happiness.

I know I should be at least a little bit surprised for her to have so much affection for me, even though we just met about less than an hour ago. But honestly, I'm not surprised in the slightest, as I tend to have that affect on women all the time.

Especially with the training I went through in the 'Garden' to please, satisfy, and seduce any women, that was shown to me. 

And my impeccable observation and analysis skills, not to mention 'Resonance', which both allow me to understand what a girl is thinking and her desires, just by looking at the slightest changes on her body or face, and many more observational methods to find out what she's thinking, at a single glance.

I'm pretty sure that even though I might not be able to make all the women that come my way fall for me, I'm confident that I can show them a time of their lives that they will carry on all the way to their final moments in this world.

And this doesn't stem from simple, unfounded confidence. But because I was born with a constitution that could turn the impossible into a reality, so something like showing a girl a good time is a piece of cake for me.

But it's also because of this so called 'God Given' constitution of mine that I was locked up in the 'Altar' for half my life, by those people who desires what I could do. 

I escaped one horrible place, only to be trapped in another. 

And just when I freed myself from that place and returned to my family, where I was taken from, I was transported to this world without any prior notice.

I've basically spent my entire life moving from one place to another, doing things that no one else could possibly imagine doing along the way.

But at least this time it isn't as mind-numbing and life-endangering as it was before, and it was simply playing around with a few cute girls with an added reward in the end.

Compared to what I had to do in the past, what I was doing now is a million times better—no,  a billion or trillion times better—and I would opt for it even when I'm in my grave if I was given the option.